Thursday, October 30, 2003 6:15 PM
haIz... I reali duno hw long can i carry on with the current life i m leading loRz... Living in a complete darkness... With no lights or moon...haIz.. Life suxs... The song tat best describes my feeling is have u ever by sclub7 loRz.. Sort of similar....ya.. Very similar... Haiz..S Club - Have You EverSometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's overKnowing there's so much more to saySuddenly the moment's goneAnd all your dreams are upside downAnd you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebodyWished there was a chance to say I'm sorryCan't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, BabyHave you ever felt your heart was breakingLookin down the road you should be takingI should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be togetherBack in your arms where I belongNow I've finally realised it was forever that I've foundI'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebodyWished there was a chance to say I'm sorryCan't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, BabyWhy is everyone leaving mi.. Wad did i do.. Haiz.. Stead break liaOz.. Den shu han leHz... Transferring sch... haiZ.. Everyone is leaving..Wad is dis world going to be when everyone is leaving mi.. I m so alone...
Haiz.. Wad happeN.. I seems to be the last one to not tat he wanna break wif mi.. Why everyone noe before he break with mi? Wad happeN? Izzit a prank or wad? Why lidat one? Why m i the last to noe...I m blur... N upset... =<
He still hav feeling fer mi? I doubt so baH... Hw can it be.. I cant feel it loRz..hmM... Maybe is my fault loRz.. Maybe in some parts of my love story i didn't reali do well loRz.. I failed to be a gd stead... Mayb u might agree loRz.. Rite? Ya.. i agreed to.. I m not a gd stead... Pei hua is beta den mi.. Ya.. Rite.. i agreed..Pei hua is beta den Rhowena a million, a zillion time.. Rhowena suxs.. haIz...
Why??? Why??? Haiz.. Who can enlighten mi.. Aiyo.. i duno.. Question marKs have flooded my mind.. Why izzit when i m learning to let go he appeare again... Yesterdae we went to popular.. Ziyi asked him along.. Ok.. i du mind.. I was lyk aiya.. Gd loRz.. Pretend to be normal.. But at popular he sae one sentence tat hurt mi is "dun need mi liaOz hoRx.." .. Haiz.. Make mi reali realize tat he's asking permission from mi to leave mi.. Haiz..
**Vinson.. I dun request anything from you.. I juz reali wish to noe tat u r fine.. Dun patch oso nvm... i dun mind.. Duno i m waiting oso nvm.. I juz wan you to be happie can liaOz.. Reali.. I juz wanna request frm u tat to be happie.. And juz treat mi as normal frene.. Dun lyk bcos of our previous relationshipdn treat mi as stranger loRz..Haiz.. If u hav no feeling fer mi liaoZ.. I oso won't blame u.. But i wish to tell u.. Something isn't easy to forget.. And can nv be forget de loRz.. Lyk i love u...
Tuesday, October 28, 2003 5:41 PM
It've been the forth dae tat we break le... Haiz.. We didn't talk... HaIz...I reali let go le... i mean i will.. And actually i shuld rite.....
Ms tan talk to mi le.. It wasn't wad i expected.. She didn't seems to be angry as i expected to.. She talk to mi sum sense loRz... She told mi wad happeN loRz.. i mean wad reali happeN between mi n him...
Mayb ms tan is not s bad s i tot she wuld be loRz.. Lyk tearing us aparT... She oso mean well loRz.. It's juz tat i dun understanD baH...
haIz.. Something i muz learnt to let go which i m nw learning to...But something will forever staY in my heart..Lyk i love him.. It's true tat it is not easy to forget him... Ppl sae time can heal everything n wash away everything... But it will not reduce the love in mi for mi.. haIz.. Forgetting somthing isn't easy..
It take a min to hav a crush on sum1.. An hour to lyk sum1 and a dae to love sum1.. But it takes a lifetime to forget sum1 u understanD.. haIz..
To al those out dere.. Treasure the one u love... U will nv realise hw important dey r until dey r out of ur life.. U will feel tat ur world in complete darkness.. Trust mi..
**VinsoN... I reali hope tat u will be free frm burden after braking wif mi loRz... Live on well ok.. Life goes on no matter wad happeN... And muz tk gd care of urself hoRx... Dun worry.. Mi will be fine... Without mi aruld.. Muz hav ur meals everydae ok.. I wuldn't be aruld to remind u liaOz... Something i nv hav the chance to tell u wen we r together... Is tat i love u... But i noe nw is toO late liaOz.. I oSo wanna tell u tat i nv regret loving u.. And i nv will...Mayb i m reali tat type of ppl hu will leave everything to fate to decide.. But after tat de eggs survey i asked u... Though i did choose water.. But i wanna tell u.. My life is nv lyk dis.. If i love sumbody.. I will love him wholeheartly... yes.. i will.. Tats y i nv giv u up...And I LOVE U....
Monday, October 27, 2003 5:14 PM
haIz... We broken up.. I mean he's de one who sae wanna break... haIz... i reali dun wish to give up... Cos i still luv him..
On 26/10/2003, 1.35am we were no longer stead.. We were wad we are before stead... No longer sticking to each other lyk "superglue"... haha.. =<>
Y cant we be together lyk al the other lovers who love each other... Are we reali not meant to be... i reali dun wish to giv up.. Reali dun wanna lost him...
haIz... Before i left for malaysia... i finally heard frm him saying to mi tat "i love u".. But i can sensed tat it's not reali frm his heart.. haIz.. But still it's the last time i heard him saying "i love u" to mi... haIz.. It's reali the last time..
I m reali in a lost nw.. Wad shuld i do.. CooL down first? Or shuld i tell him hw i feel.. haIz.. Nobody reali understand hw i feel..
I reali noe hw shuld i deal wif it... The real reason y he break wif mi i oSo duno.. But part of the reason i m sure is abt ms tan n his sis.. Cos his sis dun reali lyk mi.. Can c de loRz... haIz...
Wad shuld i do nw... He left mi wif so much memories and yet the most painful pain... haIz...
Shuld i reali let go.. i duno.. But if i dun break it's lyk i m very selfish.. But if i break it's lyk going against my wish... haIz.. Reali having a headache nw...
I duno y ms tan noe loRz.. Mayb his sis baH...haIz.. Why muz it be us tat ms tan wanna tear us aparT... Why cant it be other ppl... haIz... In my mind nw is all question marks.. haIz.. Who can enlighten mi and remove all my question marKs??? haIz.. Or maybe break is the best choice? I duno...I seems to be lost in a big maze.. haIz...**haIz.. VinsoN.. i felt tat loving u is very painful.. But i dun mind.. Cos i love u.. haIz.. But we reali cant be together..haIz.. WHy...Is dere reali no chance except break? I once sae.. If u cant find happiness on mi.. i will let u go to find ur own happiness though i still luv u.. i oso sae tat i will love u until e dae u stop luving mi... Den nw i reali wish to ask u.. do u still luv mi? I reali wanna noe the ans.. If u sae u still luv mi.. No matter wad i will stand with u to face the prob ahead of us.. But if u dun... haIz.. I hope it's not too late for mi to sae i love u again.. I reali do... haIz..
I guess dis is wad i wanted to tell u.. But i have no courage to tell u...haIz.. But no matter wad i love u...
