Thursday, July 22, 2004 6:14 PM
*¡À¡[''v''][''v'']it's seems lyk a dream..lowest point of my life...i need you...¡À*¡ (".)(.")
sigh....tml POP le...tinking of it make mi sad...haix...tinking of it make mi feel lyk crying....seniors reali give mi too much memories le....esp jocelyn,ling wen,puay hoon n...haix...used to get punish by them...nw...haix..mi will not get used one lehx....haix...wish u all...all the best kaes...takkaire...must smile..haha...sweetheart jocelyn ar....dun kp on sad sad le lar...smile kaes...haha....lyk mi...(soBx)
sigh...mi dis few daes reali feeling very down lor....shattered ino pieces...sry to those whom i kp showing attitude...haix....duno wad's with mi...felt so sad....felt so down...nv in my life i felt so down....haix...my energy running out le...i m so tired....feeling so sick nw...skip one meal todae...gastric prob again...no wonder i felt so giddy....my rm seems spinning...haix....nvm abt my gastric le...forget it....
haix....i m very tired dis few daes...wad can i do beside hiding my own feelings..my emotions....sadness behind happiness...haix....lowest pt of my life....~
-where're u nw....i need u...ur birthdae cuming le...wish we could meet up....sigh...but tink u spend it with ur family,ur frenes is beta....sigh...mi feeling so down...miss u lorts....-
Wednesday, July 21, 2004 6:31 PM
~+_looking back...wondering hw we used to be..._+~
wtf...i todae damn piss off....pls la...if wan ppl respect u...pls look at ur own attitude lar...wa lau...u call urself a i/c...pls lor....no wonder so many ppl dislike u....wanna why?check urself lor...
haix....forget it la...i dun wanna sae anyting le...i sae it as a frene....up to u if u wanna listen....ur attitude suxs....pls go n chng....
haix....mi...todae in a loss la...duno watta type le...mind in a blank la....den skip my lunch...so nw gastric pain lor...haix....duno la....
mi end here todae...
-duno watta sae todae..getting tired each dae...missing u lorts....-
Tuesday, July 20, 2004 6:04 PM
-if onli i could turn back time...i would choose to go back to time when i m wif you......-
sigh...dis few daes becum criminal wor...hmm....peeps must hav kp wondering if i m wif ziyi nw...cos vinson n vivien....so m i wif ziyi nw....all of u must be wondering rite....haha....knew it...but too bad....i m not.....mi not tat flirt...mi n ziyi onli frenes...go church...sort of church frens lor...we won't bcos both of dem lidat den we together...mi onli treat him as frenes...he oso treat mi as frenes oso....we're sort of gd frene lor...a joker frene lor...so dun misunderstand....
hmm.....todae...took e same bus as vinson...mi alone lor...but lucky i see rui heng on the bus...if not i reali alone...sianx until i can bang the wall ar.....haha....not reali sianx la....jus nobody to tok to....is lyk i reali dun expect to see vinson at e bus stop n i tk e same bus lor...we nv tok....forget it la...ta bu guan wo de shi le...onli vivien will care....i jealous?pls lor...mi jealous fer wad...i oso dun lyk him....the psn i love is sumone else lor....sumone more worth it lor...not ziyi oso la...ziyi is my frene...get it right pls....!is sumone else...u all duno de la...onli peep close to mi den noe....haha....he is much more worth it....=D
mi decided to study hard le....no matter wad...must be clever den sumone..she tink she very great by following sumone attitude...tell u it suxs lor...tat psn onli noe hw to act....so flirt...forget it la...i still treat her as frene?i dun tink so...she is...not worth it...frene will nv lidat...true frene will not do dis....tats call jia xing xing...true frene will nv do tat....jus wan everyone to pity lor...making mi e scapegoat...den everybody will tink it's my fault...so must prove to her tat i m better in studies....
hmm....sweetheart jocelyn....hope u're alrite nw.....tk care okay.....reali must lehx...be strong kaes....be urself....everyone must be strong....try ur best to cross all obstacles....if nd my help...i'll be dere to help....although i might not be up to any help...but i'll try my best....believe in urself...nv giv up....
["v"]~+*....duno watta sae beside i love u....noe it's nth speacial...but hope u noe hw i feel....*+~["v"]
sadness.......sigh....
Saturday, July 17, 2004 12:00 AM
*¡À¡[''v''][''v'']not a gal..not yet a woman...i m not as strong as you tink...¡À*¡ (".)(.")*i miss you lorts*
haix....i m feeling so so so down....sigh...emotionly being accused....sigh...i m....forget it...i m jus a criminal...a emotion criminal....everyting is my fauly...jus blame mi kaes...happie?nw u happie?all the blame i tk kaes?satisfied nw?ya....the psn u love is the best....ur attitude is the BEST la kaes....sigh...feedbacks..u can treat it as i m nagging....i m naggy la kaes...
sigh.....lucky gt my honey lion,jeremiah n huiling aruld...if not i'll be sad to death....haha....sigh....thxs guys.....reali feel lyk crying...hopefully u didn't treat mi as a criminal too?jeremiah...you're very very very lame....haha...learn frm mi ar.....noe la...mi ur senior...haha....thxs junior....
sigh...hw 'she' treat mi nw...hopefully is not having any motive...hopefully is not backstabbing mi....hopefully is not jus fer show....forget it....
tml gt ndp pd...hehex...hopefully cant see him...pls la...not vinson lor...who wanna see him...he go..i oso dun wanna see ar....long time no see him le...miss him so much....but stadium so big...noe la...onli one np squat...but so many ppl....aiyo...haha...but hope to see him...mi looking forward to see him wear uniform...haha.....izzit funny....haha...
kaes mi stop here le....buaix....~
[-are u trying to sae tat it's impossible nw?sigh....i duno...i jus felt tat mi already fallen deep...shattered into pieces more den once....i've not stop believing in u...u sae true love dun exist...yes i agreed..it's onli worth if u giv wad it's worth....hw can i make u believe in urself again...i duno...jus wanna let u noe...i miss u....-]
black pearl war!!!wahahaha......
Thursday, July 15, 2004 7:05 PM
kaes...todae long story cut short...todae very upset cos of pd tingy.....nwadays hate going fer pd....haix.....but all thanks to lion n ziyi...thxs fer cheering mi up....
haha...hw to cheer mi up?hehex...tat black pearl war lor...haha....kp shooting each other...aiyo...so disgusting lor...lion la...start first...hehex...very fun lehx...black pearl all over the place...forgotten my sadness....haha...ziyi n lion...thxs....haha.....go wif mi to poppular n buy cake oso...
kk...gotta end le....going out...my dad's bdae...hehex.....pearl war!!
-i miss you lorts....-
Tuesday, July 13, 2004 6:58 PM
.....+.....to love and to be loved is a blessing...treasure it well..you never noe the psn u let go might be the one u have been waiting fer...+.....
hmm....jus came back...go eat wif huling n arisa...go KFC.....den jus reach hm not long....den ltre gt tution....so sianx...huiling very idiot one lehx....kp picking a fight wif mi....for no reasons...she very idiot right....yar lor...everyone agrees.....haha....huilinh...loser....haha.....no la....jk.....
haix...another boring dae hav past...kp tinking hw stoopie i m...wa lau...i dun wan go national camp liaox...cos vinson going....i rather other peeps go lor...yar...ziyi reserve.....rather him go.....beta...dun nd see sumone attitude....wa lau...regretted being the reserve...i regret liaox....living in a world of remorse le...haha...my eng improve rite....haha...damn the wad lor.....i m so STOOPIE!!!!
Wa lau...mi fail so many subjects.....haix...can go n die liaox la......dun nd study le lor...sigh...i m so tired...i watta slp.....kaes...mi end here le.....buaix....~
][-to love n to be loved....learn to believe....smile alwaysS.....-][
Monday, July 12, 2004 5:41 PM
*-=wan to giv you all my heart...smile wen you around...cry wen you're apart.....you gotta to let mi noe so i can get over you....=-*
wow...time flies...i long time nv update liaox....alorts of tings happened.....kaes...tok abt i go church..hehex...enjoy going lehx...i becum gd gal liaox....u noe all the prayers reali can calm oneselves down lor....their songs are very nice oso....tink their prayers reali help mi lorts....i oso enlighten lorts lehx...so mi becum more cheerful lor...believe?sae you oso dun believe...must go n see fer urself den u noe....reali it works...but dis wk nv go...wo you bian naughty again liaox....it's so ture....kaes...enough of speech dae....
go on to last wk speech dae....it's so fun mans...ziyi was so lame....u noe...after all the trainings we had...though we're still not perfect...but....i m proud of my squat le....they did a gd job...well done peeps....i reali enjoy myself on tat dae...den can go home late...wa..shiok man...hahaha......den hor...in dis training...tio suan a lot of time...wa lau...i dun lyk e who lor...i onli treat him as frene lor...respect him as an officer lor....craps..wad dey is all craps....i must prove my innocence....i dun lyk him kaes...so stop crapping lor you ppl....naughty lot...pls stop crapping...noe you all are trying to learn frm mi dis lame gal...but dun show ur skills here lehx....aiyo...i'll shy one lehx....haha...kaes...i oso crapping....
hmm.....joining com nxt yr..last yr liaox...must win st nics....tats my goal...my team's goal oso...aim high n aim far...must bring glory to our pss st john...proud of my team lehx.....suddenly so passinate....i so touch...thxs honey lion n nu er yvonne fer persuading mi....if not i by nw oso haven get an ans lor....lols....thxs...love nc6 always....
sigh...sth reali sadden mi recently...but dun tink i will fall down on my knees jus bcos of dis lor....reali felt so foolish in the past....jus bcos of him i gave another gd guy....sigh...mi stoopie hor....
kaes..i end here le....tk care...buaix...
*¡À¡[''v''][''v'']to the world you may be one person..but to one person you may be the world...¡À*¡ (".)(.")*
