...dun wanna be sick no more..~
Wednesday, September 29, 2004 3:59 PM
haix..i m sick todae...having a sore throat..headache..and fever!!!haix..felt so terrible..i dun wan...!!i dun wanna be sick...exams period how can be sick...haix...haix...haix...
feeling very cold now...haix..y sick out of a sudden...hopefully will recover soon...haix...den sore throat dun feel lyk eating anyting...haix...why?!why m i sick now..haix...feel lyk crying ar...duno why..whenever i m sick..i jus feel lyk crying...not tat i wanna cry..jus tat i reali cant help it..it's so terrible...!!haix...mummy not at home...nobody takkaire of mi...haha...haix...nw onli mi and didi at home lorx..he slping..ltre sth happen to mi oso nobody noe..haha...ooPs..touch wood...haha..
haix..reali cant take it anymore...!
stress...stress...stress..~
Tuesday, September 28, 2004 5:30 PM
*+_when in love..prepare urself to get hurt...though it's painful...but at least u experience to love and be loved..._+*
haix..stress ar..it's freaking mi out...i m so stress...haix...exams stress..family prob...life suxs...!haix...y adults are oso so much lyk kids...haix...exams is coming...exams stress..
exams stress!!!making mi crazy...i cant slp properly at night...wakae up every hours..dis have been going on for a few nights le...haix...damn idiot...i dun wan stress!!!i wanna give up!!!i dun wanna strive for excellence le...i hate myself...!i jus feel lyk crying...
sigh...does true frenes reali exist?will frenes really be there for u when u needed sumbody..sigh..i gt no ans...does frenes understand u well??i doubt so...haix...who on earth will reali lend mi a listening ear n be there for mi whenever i m down???i duno...sigh...
oh god...pls give mi a way out...dis kinda life is freaking mi out...it's too stress..i wanna give up!!!!
sigh...sigh...sigh...~
5:07 PM
*+_when in love..prepare urself to get hurt..though it is very painful...but at least u experience to love and to be loved.._+*
haix...life is so stress...it's freaking mi out lor...haix...nv felt so stress before...haix...family prob oso..sigh...when can i have peace???!!!i wanna give up!!!i dun wanna study anymore!!!i dun wanna feel stress!!!i jus wanna close my eyes n slp on...
haix..stress...dis word..is on top of mi...when can i throw it away...exam stress is making mi crazy...counldn't slp well in the night...dis few nights...open my eyes every hour...wad the...sigh...reali cant take it anymore...i wanna give up...!!!
oh god..pls give mi a way out...!i reali cant take it anymore...!
~...stress..stress...stress....~
Thursday, September 23, 2004 4:02 PM
haix...so stress...exams coming liaox...very scared..haix...todae tried very hard to do A maths...kaozZz..it was so difficult..=/ but i still love A maths afterall..hehex...A maths roxXs..=) hmm....duno la...headache ar...doing maths...E maths suXs...haix...i hate it...haix...
todae mood very bad lor..keep showing attitude...haix...i m sorry...but i reali very pisS off..with my class...and ming sheng lor...kaozZ..he damn the wad lehx...whole class haven finish copying notes..he kp on playing with e slides...wa lau...fucK lor...i getting very pisS off lehx..i copy halfway..he keep on pressing...he dun wan study we study one lor...haix...den todae tried very hard to concentrate on lessons...
hmm...after sch still gt remedial...wow...nw i realise tat ms khor is a very nice teacher lehx...gt anyting can jus ask her...she will explain in details...hiax...todae A maths hor...reali hate it lehx...very difficult to call mr ong...keep on walking around...if not is somewhere inside us...duno camouflage where...very du lan todae...until i scolded somebody..tat jake la...very irritating lehx...keep on staying my place...i wanna sit oso cant...if u duno tat dude...i tell u...he's SUPER irritating!!!he suxs....
haix...how...i very scared lehx...i scared i cant finish studying...i sacred i fail my exams...i scared of everyting...haix..reali very tense up nw...haix...
haix...i haven have my lunch..but not hungry lehx...=/ duno wake up at 5+ to do homework...haha...study in e morning oso not bad...=)haix....dis few daes keep havin gastric...but i nv tell anyone...hehex...nvm la...no big deaL...used to it le...
["v"]noe u're avoiding mi nw..it's okay..anyway..i dun wish to involve in too much probs nw...jus wish to study hard...jus wanna concentrade on my exams..do well in it...haix...wad happened to mi once i dun wish to repeat it again...dun wish to see history repeating itself..i m tired le..good luck to your upcoming exams...anyting..after exams den sae kaes...takkaire...and best of luck...missing you...["v"]
~+_it's gone...._+~
Sunday, September 19, 2004 8:33 PM
haix...no word can decribe my feelings now..overwhelming of sadness from the lost hp...one ting i took for granted...nv realised how it important it was until the dae i lost it...sigh...
jus nw..i can no longer hide my tears...i broke into tears in front of my mum...for the past few daes i have been hiding my tears....who can see my sadness....nobody!precisely...sigh....
todae..i was so mad at them...those kids was lyk.....dun follow instructions...sigh....
it's hard to lead a simple life for mi now...sigh...i m tired...jus feel lyk giving up....~
~+_wad urs will be urs...wad's not urs...will nv be urs...sigh.._+~
Saturday, September 18, 2004 10:57 PM
~+_wad urs will be urs...wad's not urs...will nv be urs...sigh.._+~
haix...i lost my hp...so sad...stoopie freak...duno which idiot who took my hp...make sure tat psn is rotting now...child nxt time no backside ar...haix...no use scolding le i noe...cos my hp will nv be back...sigh...tats my badae present my dad gave it to mi last yr...haix...
jus feeling very down todae...very bad luck dis wk...nearly fall while looking for my hp ytd..haix...stoopie mi...have to blame myself for losting my own hp..haix...anyway..i mon will be getting a new no..i m jus using a temporary one nw...
todae...i dun feel lyk toking at all...dun even wanna open my mouth...haix...feeling very sad in my heart..but hw amny ppl saw it??haix..to them...losing hp is nth...cos they nv experience it..sigh..not even frenes around mi felt my sadness...they all tink tat it's jus nth...haix...sad tat my frene dun even understand mi at all...felt very left out todae...but nvm la...aslon as my frene not left out can le lar...i dun ming mi being alone...
hmm...todae went to s'pore poly...i decided wad i wanna do after sec sch le...i decided if i cant into JC..i wan go SP to study business...or go NYP...or NAP..if can go JC..i wan go CJC...i m very interested in taking business course..accountancy...=)
haix..so sianx...gotta go HQ tml..gt walkathon...haix...tests...so many...one after another...eaxam is coming too..it's so fast...stressing mi upside down...sigh...
Thursday, September 16, 2004 6:49 PM
~+_you can do a bit more of great tings with a bit more of determination...._+~
hmm....very long nv update my blog le...hehex...cos kana ban frm using computer mahx...y?my results very poor lahx...still gt wad...haha...hmm...dis blog is huiling do wan....hehex...nice?hopefully lor...hehex....
exams coming le...2 more weeks or so...haix...so fast....i duno hw to finish my revision ar...time files u noe....haix....so fast..gt extention mahx?haha....rubbish....craps....
zzZ...i m so tired...*yawn*...i dis weeks slept very late...jus to study...study until very late....study until almost everydae i slept in class....haha..some lessons is boring mahx...haha...
hmm....dis weekend tio steam...sigh...gt course at s’pore poly dis sat...den sun gt walkathon at HQ...zzZ...sianx...i wanna study lor...haix...dis 2 weeks so many test one...stoopie lor....haix...so stress up recently....stress until i kp having gastric pain...gt....i did tk my medication...one ting la...i always hav irregular meals...if not...is i nv eat..haha...
hmm...reali hav to apologize to Faiz...soB soB...cant go for his chatlet to celebrate his bdae..den no choice hav to turn him down...felt so bad...wondering is he angry with mi?hmm...so sorry...hope u isn’t angry...perharps nxxt time?hoteL gathering...hehex,,,holidaes?hw abt tat?hehex...
-i m nw numb...wanting to lead onli a simple life...heart filled with sorrows of those hurtful but beautiful memories...takkaire...-
Friday, September 03, 2004 4:40 PM
["v"]...the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past..you cant go on well in life unless you let go of your failures n heartaches...["v"]
haix...seventh month...so sway...haix...lorts of unhappie tings happened....duno must sae sway or wad...haix...aoic this post is reali very stressful...haix...i m so stress up!
hmm...jus nw on my way back from central...i saw a very familar face...i m sure i saw him somewhere before...but i jus counldn't rmb who is he...where i saw him before...but i m 100% sure i see him before...den when i reach home...i finally rmb...he was e bicycle instuctor i met in camp!haha...wad a great memory i have right...haha...wow...surprisingly i rmb...no wonder he was so damn familar...doubt he rmb mi...so many in nat camp lor...who will rmb i dis small prawn...haha....
get back report card liaox...card?err...paper beta la...sigh..too ashamed to face my mum...good ting is i improve..i pass my eng dis time..means i pass one more subject...my bio oso improve...but the bad ting is my a maths got worst!!!i failed very badly..haix...promise must work hard frm nxt term onwards..
**haix...i m sorry my dearest NC6...i have no choice but to come to this conclusion of quitting...i reali hav no choice...i have to choose to give up one of those...tats y i choose to give up u...giv up com...sigh..i reali cant bear to..but..sigh...reali hope tat u all can continue to work hard...dun let mi down...continue to kp the passion going...though i may be gone...but the sprit will stay!but reali very disappointed with u lots...u lots choose to give up too...y???sigh...i reali duno watta sae le...though i may seems nth on the outside....do u noe hw hurt i was to wave n sae goodbye to NC6?!i dun wanna do tat...but i hav no choice...will u lots pls wake up...work hard for the sake of mi can?!sigh...nvm...guess nobody will ever understand the hurt i felt in my heart...anyway...good luck NC6...love u always....**
sigh..overall it's lyk a very bad dae to mi lor...haix..cried in sch...very sad over lorts of tings..haix...frenes are making mi worry for them oso...haix...
wad e hell lor..tml DM go study..damn bo liao...if not i can i go nel's BB(boys' bridage) duty lor..wa lau...parents cancel trip to malaysia...den summore cant go to help nel...haix..felt so bad...promise nel to help him..end up nv go..haix...rubbish...*i m so sorry nel...*
Wednesday, September 01, 2004 7:01 PM
~+_["v"]["v"]wad over is already over...but why i cant seems to forget...sigh..._+~
wa...todae very fun sia...go heeren jus to take photo...den go plaza sing to watch movie...but no tickets...sad ar...haix...haha....but gt other place mahx...so we go northpt...hehex...go watch 13 going 30..wow...it's a fantastic show lehx....must go watch ar...it's so touching lehx...wow...nearly cry wor mi...eyes filled with tears...reali very nice...hehex....
hmm.....yesterdae went back pri sch...saw not many old frenes la...a few onli...so sianx...but went back to visit teacher nia...first time can enter tat stoopie sch lehx...hehex....wad e hell...i miss the foods there u noe...it's so nice lor...forgotten hw much izzit until yesterdae go buy ting den wa...den realised it's so cheap n so nice lehx...
hmm....so sianx...tml must go back sch...den haix...so many tings happened recently...i wan back myself....haix...i dun wanna fall onto the ground again....i wanna remain happie...but can i??i dun understand why when i m sad...i still have to act happie...haix....but dun worry...i'll be fine..hehex...i reali felt alot better after e movie...hehex...haix...
-wish u all the best...i noe it's time for mi to let you go....good lucK...-
