not the same anymore
Saturday, January 27, 2007 11:33 AM
not the same anymore.
not the same old feeling anymore.
i went back to peirce.
the feeling is not there anymore.
i don't feel belonged.
felt outcast.
everything, everywhere are a total stranger to me =/
1 year didnt train the cadets.
1 year didnt scream or scold the cadets.
1 year didnt do lots of things i used to do.
i cant help but felt... weird.
i saw jeremiah, yiting and hong yi.
lol.
yiting was like so shock to see me.
and those juniors who i once train, were shocked that i became gentle.
as in i dun scold or punish them.
well.
i also duno how.
i reckon the sec 1s and sec 2s are able to take my training.
mine also cant take it alr, let alone steve sir.
weaklings.
michelle kong asked if im free to go back for com training.
well.
com training this 2 words, bring back many memories.
most importantly, i forgot how to train alr.
as in the skills and stuffs.
how can i possibly rmb everything after 1 year?
in short, i like our cohorts better.
i like our 'generations' better.
think, without hardship, will there be the rhowena today?
will there be a united peirce combined corp?
times have changed.
saddening ):
ok.
i rmb wad i wanna blog ytd.
smokers.
i dun like ppl to smoke for the reason im selfish.
im selfish not in a sense that i think they are trying to "kill" me indirectly.
but in a way that i hate loneliness.
esp my friends and my loved ones.
i dun wish to see them being passive smokers.
social smoker, that is fine with me.
dun smoke even better.
im not trying to curse them or wadsoever.
i just want them to stay healthy.
i dun wish anything to happen to them one day, and you know.
i wont be able to take it.
i want them to be with me as long as they can.
till i old, till i die.
im selfish.
im afraid of being lonely.
alright.
that should be all.
take care & have a great day (:
not the same old feeling anymore.
i went back to peirce.
the feeling is not there anymore.
i don't feel belonged.
felt outcast.
everything, everywhere are a total stranger to me =/
1 year didnt train the cadets.
1 year didnt scream or scold the cadets.
1 year didnt do lots of things i used to do.
i cant help but felt... weird.
i saw jeremiah, yiting and hong yi.
lol.
yiting was like so shock to see me.
and those juniors who i once train, were shocked that i became gentle.
as in i dun scold or punish them.
well.
i also duno how.
i reckon the sec 1s and sec 2s are able to take my training.
mine also cant take it alr, let alone steve sir.
weaklings.
michelle kong asked if im free to go back for com training.
well.
com training this 2 words, bring back many memories.
most importantly, i forgot how to train alr.
as in the skills and stuffs.
how can i possibly rmb everything after 1 year?
in short, i like our cohorts better.
i like our 'generations' better.
think, without hardship, will there be the rhowena today?
will there be a united peirce combined corp?
times have changed.
saddening ):
ok.
i rmb wad i wanna blog ytd.
smokers.
i dun like ppl to smoke for the reason im selfish.
im selfish not in a sense that i think they are trying to "kill" me indirectly.
but in a way that i hate loneliness.
esp my friends and my loved ones.
i dun wish to see them being passive smokers.
social smoker, that is fine with me.
dun smoke even better.
im not trying to curse them or wadsoever.
i just want them to stay healthy.
i dun wish anything to happen to them one day, and you know.
i wont be able to take it.
i want them to be with me as long as they can.
till i old, till i die.
im selfish.
im afraid of being lonely.
alright.
that should be all.
take care & have a great day (:
more than words
Friday, January 26, 2007 2:50 PM
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
surprisingly.
Thursday, January 25, 2007 8:00 PM
PMS is finally over for me.
muahahahhaas!!
bye bye negative thoughts.
and hello positive thinking (:
just imagine how terrible pms was.
make my imaginations went VERY wild.
thus, becoming rather depressed and grumble a lot.
well.
it is over!
whoosh..
just settled a case (:
lucky line is connected!!
wheets.
back to the topic.
hmmm.
sometimes i think bootlicking is really useful.
look at the office now.
racist la.
sexist la.
facease also ar.
piece of shit.
bootlickers ard.
fuck off..
forget it.
everywhere, there meant to be a few pieces of shit ard (:
just like the one that just came near near me.
FUR -fat ugly & round p*ru.
so nosey-pokers.
poke her nose then she know =/
oh well.
ok.
gg home soon.
shall update more next time.
-you gain as fast you lose-
muahahahhaas!!
bye bye negative thoughts.
and hello positive thinking (:
just imagine how terrible pms was.
make my imaginations went VERY wild.
thus, becoming rather depressed and grumble a lot.
well.
it is over!
whoosh..
just settled a case (:
lucky line is connected!!
wheets.
back to the topic.
hmmm.
sometimes i think bootlicking is really useful.
look at the office now.
racist la.
sexist la.
facease also ar.
piece of shit.
bootlickers ard.
fuck off..
forget it.
everywhere, there meant to be a few pieces of shit ard (:
just like the one that just came near near me.
FUR -fat ugly & round p*ru.
so nosey-pokers.
poke her nose then she know =/
oh well.
ok.
gg home soon.
shall update more next time.
-you gain as fast you lose-
drink drank drunk
Thursday, January 18, 2007 7:27 PM
drink drank drunk.
2 nights ago, i got rather high =p
yea.
somehow, drunk.
it just sent my head spinning and high.
for goodness's sake, i cant drink for nuts la.
hmmm.
but it was a rather good feeling though.
my mind was in a blank, and i slept soundly thru out the night (:
but my stomach was feeling weird before i slp.
that is definitely not a good feeling =/
lol.
and ytd, i went sentosa with lion.
we took the new monorail.
hmmm.
the view is quite nice (esp when it pass by the sea).
many funny things happened.
lion never fails to do funny things.
hahas!!
i told her i wanna go tanning.
in the end, the sorching hot sun forced me to RETREAT the shelter behind me.
hahas!!
after 'tanning', we intended to go roller blade.
while waiting for tram, we heard sth like bird show from opp.
and i went, "let's go and watch the bird show!!".
so we abandoned the tram station and hurried to bird show place (:
the parrots are so smart and cute.
i even took photos with them.
but shall post up photos when i got the time.
lmao!
after that went vivo city to shop a while.
muahahahahahahas!!
i alr know wad im gonna do on that day.
hahas!
bleah.
a surprise.
im keeping all of you in suspense (:
too bad...
hahas!!
hmmm.
then left for amk kbox.
we are singing our lungs out!!
got so f**king high.
hahas.
well.
then left for home.
was screaming with my mum over the phone while on the way home.
wtf..
as usual, back to work today.
and as usual, boring -.-"
working until 8pm somemore.
ok.
say i ask for it.
oh well.
to the special one:
get well soon (:
that's the latest news abt rhowena.
stay tuned for more info (:
quoted from aina: tu tu tut tut tu tut tu tut tut tu tut tuu......
2 nights ago, i got rather high =p
yea.
somehow, drunk.
it just sent my head spinning and high.
for goodness's sake, i cant drink for nuts la.
hmmm.
but it was a rather good feeling though.
my mind was in a blank, and i slept soundly thru out the night (:
but my stomach was feeling weird before i slp.
that is definitely not a good feeling =/
lol.
and ytd, i went sentosa with lion.
we took the new monorail.
hmmm.
the view is quite nice (esp when it pass by the sea).
many funny things happened.
lion never fails to do funny things.
hahas!!
i told her i wanna go tanning.
in the end, the sorching hot sun forced me to RETREAT the shelter behind me.
hahas!!
after 'tanning', we intended to go roller blade.
while waiting for tram, we heard sth like bird show from opp.
and i went, "let's go and watch the bird show!!".
so we abandoned the tram station and hurried to bird show place (:
the parrots are so smart and cute.
i even took photos with them.
but shall post up photos when i got the time.
lmao!
after that went vivo city to shop a while.
muahahahahahahas!!
i alr know wad im gonna do on that day.
hahas!
bleah.
a surprise.
im keeping all of you in suspense (:
too bad...
hahas!!
hmmm.
then left for amk kbox.
we are singing our lungs out!!
got so f**king high.
hahas.
well.
then left for home.
was screaming with my mum over the phone while on the way home.
wtf..
as usual, back to work today.
and as usual, boring -.-"
working until 8pm somemore.
ok.
say i ask for it.
oh well.
to the special one:
get well soon (:
that's the latest news abt rhowena.
stay tuned for more info (:
quoted from aina: tu tu tut tut tu tut tu tut tut tu tut tuu......
just when...
Tuesday, January 16, 2007 4:08 PM
.....you are too busy to even care
-having second thoughts-
-having second thoughts-
life sucks!
Sunday, January 14, 2007 1:48 PM
never will i ever agree to "life sucks" this phrase.
cos life never sucks.
no matter how bad it is, life never sucks.
yes, i don't deny when i was in sec 2 and beginning of sec 3, i think life sucks to the extend i wanted to kill myself.
ever since sorted out my thoughts.
life never sucks (:
no doubt at times, you will be extremely bored to the extend you don't know what you want for life.
c'mon man.
if life were to run smoothly for everyone, then we wont have this phrase, "life is never a bed of roses".
after saying so much.
let me rant a bit.
i wanna say, life sucks, FOR THIS ONCE.
usually, i start my day well.
as in like i wake up with peace, then leave home for work or wadever.
but not this morning!
fucker man!
marcus is getting on my fucking nerves!
he sucks!
and mum sucks too!
she is bias!
she allow marcus to use computer the whole afternoon w/o helping out in a single housework!
whereas me?
i just barely use 2 hours for 2 nights, she confiscated the moderm.
hello!
this is plain bias!
c'mon la.
stop giving me the reason, marcus is still young.
he is not ok!
urgh!!
im so bored and pissed!
im all alone in the office.
how i wish i can pack my bag and leave now.
i cant wait for my lunch break.
but it is still more than an hour away.
im starting to develop a very bad habit.
i start munching junks when i get bored in the office.
urgh!!
at this rate, ......
ahhhhh!!!
=/
-how i wish im lying in the boyf's arm now-
cos life never sucks.
no matter how bad it is, life never sucks.
yes, i don't deny when i was in sec 2 and beginning of sec 3, i think life sucks to the extend i wanted to kill myself.
ever since sorted out my thoughts.
life never sucks (:
no doubt at times, you will be extremely bored to the extend you don't know what you want for life.
c'mon man.
if life were to run smoothly for everyone, then we wont have this phrase, "life is never a bed of roses".
after saying so much.
let me rant a bit.
i wanna say, life sucks, FOR THIS ONCE.
usually, i start my day well.
as in like i wake up with peace, then leave home for work or wadever.
but not this morning!
fucker man!
marcus is getting on my fucking nerves!
he sucks!
and mum sucks too!
she is bias!
she allow marcus to use computer the whole afternoon w/o helping out in a single housework!
whereas me?
i just barely use 2 hours for 2 nights, she confiscated the moderm.
hello!
this is plain bias!
c'mon la.
stop giving me the reason, marcus is still young.
he is not ok!
urgh!!
im so bored and pissed!
im all alone in the office.
how i wish i can pack my bag and leave now.
i cant wait for my lunch break.
but it is still more than an hour away.
im starting to develop a very bad habit.
i start munching junks when i get bored in the office.
urgh!!
at this rate, ......
ahhhhh!!!
=/
-how i wish im lying in the boyf's arm now-
kill me pls!
Saturday, January 13, 2007 5:52 PM
kill me pls.
i am so fucking bored.
bored to tears.
i insisted to leave at 6pm.
as i said, i got sth on.
legs are mine.
where i wanna go is my problem.
i dun wanna work until 8pm.
dun want means dun want.
i dun care >:/
i am so fucking bored.
bored to tears.
i insisted to leave at 6pm.
as i said, i got sth on.
legs are mine.
where i wanna go is my problem.
i dun wanna work until 8pm.
dun want means dun want.
i dun care >:/
=/
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 11:45 AM
im having second thoughts again.
sigh.
stay or leave?
but if i stay, no OT.
wad's the diff?
ahh!!!
frustrating!!
sigh.
why am i always having second thoughts?!
-smack myself real hard-
oh well.
faz and aina left ytd.
sigh.
for the past few months, i have been rather dependent on them.
they are just like my big sister and mama.
devi too.
told me she might not be coming back if her interview today is successful.
):
i know nth last forever.
but well.
anyway.
all the best to them =')
as like wad sgt Faz said, " there is such an invention as HANDPHONE!".
i shall add in "AND BUS, TRAIN, CABS, CARS, BLUETOOTH, INFARED, MoiMoiAs AND E-MAIL, MSN TOO!!"
lol.
memories stay (:
anyway.
i will be meeting them today!!
wheets!!
but arh.
those 2 guys -hong soon & jerome.
both anti-social one.
always dun wanna join us.
so saddening.
hahas!!
ok.
got to look for jobs and schools!!
i am pondering over which route to take.
time to think of my future though my results are not out yet.
i don't wanna end up last min again.
urgh!!
i realised as i grow up, there are more decisions to make.
mum no longer ard to help me decide.
im always mummy girl ya know.
lmao!
though dad is always there to clear most of the obstacles in front of me (eg. financial).
but eventually i must spread my wings and soar.
ok.
a step at a time.
anyway.
enough of the rantings.
gonna prepare to go out (:
toodles!
-anyone can teach me how to use photoshop?-
sigh.
stay or leave?
but if i stay, no OT.
wad's the diff?
ahh!!!
frustrating!!
sigh.
why am i always having second thoughts?!
-smack myself real hard-
oh well.
faz and aina left ytd.
sigh.
for the past few months, i have been rather dependent on them.
they are just like my big sister and mama.
devi too.
told me she might not be coming back if her interview today is successful.
):
i know nth last forever.
but well.
anyway.
all the best to them =')
as like wad sgt Faz said, " there is such an invention as HANDPHONE!".
i shall add in "AND BUS, TRAIN, CABS, CARS, BLUETOOTH, INFARED, MoiMoiAs AND E-MAIL, MSN TOO!!"
lol.
memories stay (:
anyway.
i will be meeting them today!!
wheets!!
but arh.
those 2 guys -hong soon & jerome.
both anti-social one.
always dun wanna join us.
so saddening.
hahas!!
ok.
got to look for jobs and schools!!
i am pondering over which route to take.
time to think of my future though my results are not out yet.
i don't wanna end up last min again.
urgh!!
i realised as i grow up, there are more decisions to make.
mum no longer ard to help me decide.
im always mummy girl ya know.
lmao!
though dad is always there to clear most of the obstacles in front of me (eg. financial).
but eventually i must spread my wings and soar.
ok.
a step at a time.
anyway.
enough of the rantings.
gonna prepare to go out (:
toodles!
-anyone can teach me how to use photoshop?-
dragging of feet
Saturday, January 06, 2007 2:21 PM
since this morning, i've been hearing the dragging of feet behind me.
i was wondering why ppl like to drag their feet when they walk =/
then i stood up and walked to the toilet.
oh gosh!!
i was dragging my feet as well!
amazing!!
dragging feet in singtel symbolised weekends!!
why?
use your brain!!
muahahahhahahahahahahas!!
sigh.
so boring.
sians.
ok.
i know i have saying this word for duno how many million times to a lot of ppl.
but still.....
SIANS!!
hahas.
i've been going out very often lately.
and the next thing i know, my money all growing wings =/
waa!!
even more sians.
can't wait to sell my psp off since i don't really need it.
come to think of it, i can do much more with that amt of money (:
hmmm.
so friends.
help me advertise k (;
PSPs ON SALES.
• black and white (1 month old)
• $450 for 1.
• $860 for 2.
• package includes - casing and 2GB memory stick.
• UMD disc(Fifa wc) sold seperately-> $25 per disc
• if UMD disc purchase with PSP -> $20 per disc
• interested, pls contact me (:
just came back from lunch.
hahas.
was crapping ard with kak dilah and all just now.
lol.
kak dilah is very interesting.
hahas!!
oh well.
sleepy mode again.
hmm.
after lunch, it is time to look fwd to break.
-yawns-
mayb i should watch you tube to entertain myself since the taka lion is not ard.
heh heh!!
evil plans (:
to my special one:
some things you said, to you might be nothing.
but to me, it's everything (:
-iloveyou-
i was wondering why ppl like to drag their feet when they walk =/
then i stood up and walked to the toilet.
oh gosh!!
i was dragging my feet as well!
amazing!!
dragging feet in singtel symbolised weekends!!
why?
use your brain!!
muahahahhahahahahahahas!!
sigh.
so boring.
sians.
ok.
i know i have saying this word for duno how many million times to a lot of ppl.
but still.....
SIANS!!
hahas.
i've been going out very often lately.
and the next thing i know, my money all growing wings =/
waa!!
even more sians.
can't wait to sell my psp off since i don't really need it.
come to think of it, i can do much more with that amt of money (:
hmmm.
so friends.
help me advertise k (;
PSPs ON SALES.
• black and white (1 month old)
• $450 for 1.
• $860 for 2.
• package includes - casing and 2GB memory stick.
• UMD disc(Fifa wc) sold seperately-> $25 per disc
• if UMD disc purchase with PSP -> $20 per disc
• interested, pls contact me (:
(to be continued...)
hellowwww!!just came back from lunch.
hahas.
was crapping ard with kak dilah and all just now.
lol.
kak dilah is very interesting.
hahas!!
oh well.
sleepy mode again.
hmm.
after lunch, it is time to look fwd to break.
-yawns-
mayb i should watch you tube to entertain myself since the taka lion is not ard.
heh heh!!
evil plans (:
to my special one:
some things you said, to you might be nothing.
but to me, it's everything (:
-iloveyou-
love is in the air
Friday, January 05, 2007 3:58 PM
have been looking for new jobs, for the past few days.
went for a few interviews.
don't really wish to stay on in singtel anymore.
not bcos i dun like the job or my colleagues.
but it is bcos of the leaders!!
hmm.
contract is ending on the 9th of jan, tues.
well.
can't bear to leave either.
bcos of my clinque ):
i know, we will have to leave each other one day.
well.
it is sooner or later.
i think i will stay until i find a better job.
however......
i duno.
give me a break!!
urgh!!
im sitting so far away from my friends.
only hong soon is behind me.
in front sat 2 aunties whom i don't know wad to talk to them abt.
c'mon man.
wad's wrong with us sitting tgh?
oh...
the taka stone lion and banana tree spirit are jealous.
they are jealous nobody wanna sit with them.
of cos la.
who in a right state of mind would wanna sit with a stone lion and a ghost?
anyway.
last night met up vin, viven and ziyi.
had a great time tgh man!
jokes, eat, sing.
hahas.
reached home ard 12plus.
cabbed home tgh.
hahas.
today so dead.
ask vin to morning call me.
keep on tempting me the whole day.
tell me how he can slack in the office, go home earlier and slp.
im gonna kill him soon.
lol.
hmm.
how can i kill my jiemei right.
lol.
oh well.
more update soon.
i going home in a few mins time.
yippee!!
bye!
went for a few interviews.
don't really wish to stay on in singtel anymore.
not bcos i dun like the job or my colleagues.
but it is bcos of the leaders!!
hmm.
contract is ending on the 9th of jan, tues.
well.
can't bear to leave either.
bcos of my clinque ):
i know, we will have to leave each other one day.
well.
it is sooner or later.
i think i will stay until i find a better job.
however......
i duno.
give me a break!!
urgh!!
im sitting so far away from my friends.
only hong soon is behind me.
in front sat 2 aunties whom i don't know wad to talk to them abt.
c'mon man.
wad's wrong with us sitting tgh?
oh...
the taka stone lion and banana tree spirit are jealous.
they are jealous nobody wanna sit with them.
of cos la.
who in a right state of mind would wanna sit with a stone lion and a ghost?
anyway.
last night met up vin, viven and ziyi.
had a great time tgh man!
jokes, eat, sing.
hahas.
reached home ard 12plus.
cabbed home tgh.
hahas.
today so dead.
ask vin to morning call me.
keep on tempting me the whole day.
tell me how he can slack in the office, go home earlier and slp.
im gonna kill him soon.
lol.
hmm.
how can i kill my jiemei right.
lol.
oh well.
more update soon.
i going home in a few mins time.
yippee!!
bye!
happy 2007!!
Tuesday, January 02, 2007 2:26 PM
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
hoohoo!!
i am kinda late am i?
hahas.
but who cares.
is the thoughts that counts.
hahas!!
hmm.
if only everyday is like today.
very lil calls compared to any other days.
muahahahahahas!!
i am crazy.
-heart screaming for mashmallows!!-
better be happy now before i can't.
cos o's results will be out soon.
i think it will be out by end of jan if not early feb.
nervous?
not at the moment.
mayb when the day is nearing, yes.
haiya.
my results must be real lousy la.
so yep yep yep.
keep my fingers crossed ;)
all of a sudden i've got an urge to go shopping!!
an urge to get under the sun!!
an urge to do loads of thing.
there is so much i wanna do!!
aww!!
but i got no time.
blame me on my poor time management =/
why don't money drop from the sky?
why money is so hard to earn?
why i spend money faster than i earn?
why why why???
i wanted to get a lot of things.
earrings(though i have a lot at home =/) , necklaces, perfume, tops, bottoms, shoes, rings, and bla bla bla.
see.
so many things i wanna buy.
tell me how not to make the money grow wings?!
haiyo!!
can someone pls resist my temptation of buying all these stuffs =/
wheets!!
chinese new year coming!!
wheets!!
im so happy!!
but oh gosh.
im putting on weight =/
oh well.
as for now.
i am looking fwd to 5.30pm.
knocking off time!!
wheets!!
i am hyper today.
dun ask me why.
lol.
i just wanna slp for now.
tata~
-new year, new thoughts, new resolutions-
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
hoohoo!!
i am kinda late am i?
hahas.
but who cares.
is the thoughts that counts.
hahas!!
hmm.
if only everyday is like today.
very lil calls compared to any other days.
muahahahahahas!!
i am crazy.
-heart screaming for mashmallows!!-
better be happy now before i can't.
cos o's results will be out soon.
i think it will be out by end of jan if not early feb.
nervous?
not at the moment.
mayb when the day is nearing, yes.
haiya.
my results must be real lousy la.
so yep yep yep.
keep my fingers crossed ;)
all of a sudden i've got an urge to go shopping!!
an urge to get under the sun!!
an urge to do loads of thing.
there is so much i wanna do!!
aww!!
but i got no time.
blame me on my poor time management =/
why don't money drop from the sky?
why money is so hard to earn?
why i spend money faster than i earn?
why why why???
i wanted to get a lot of things.
earrings(though i have a lot at home =/) , necklaces, perfume, tops, bottoms, shoes, rings, and bla bla bla.
see.
so many things i wanna buy.
tell me how not to make the money grow wings?!
haiyo!!
can someone pls resist my temptation of buying all these stuffs =/
wheets!!
chinese new year coming!!
wheets!!
im so happy!!
but oh gosh.
im putting on weight =/
oh well.
as for now.
i am looking fwd to 5.30pm.
knocking off time!!
wheets!!
i am hyper today.
dun ask me why.
lol.
i just wanna slp for now.
tata~
-new year, new thoughts, new resolutions-
