i screwed up my life
Tuesday, October 23, 2007 12:39 AM
am sick for these few days.
fever on sunday then followed by sore throat.
but who cares, i still feast as per normal when i am in school.
except that when i reached home, i would be like a balloon being deflated.
i got so lethargic.
doesnt matter.
still alive kicking.
anyway.
i am fucking not looking fwd to this weekends.
i don't wanna leave.
god damn it all!
this week started rather badly.
fuck it all!
im getting so bloody pissed!
pissed over everything!
pissed that i actually agreed to go on a HOLIDAY during school term!
pissed that i flared up easily!
pissed that i screwed up my own life!
so many that is going on and im not happy about.
but why and what am i not happy about?
every little things.
my mood nowadays is swinging from one end to the other as days goes by.
this is defintely not a good sign.
the tears is forcing itself out of the eyes.
and i simply hate it!
`oh god, let me get thru it all, and i swear i'll be a good gal!
fever on sunday then followed by sore throat.
but who cares, i still feast as per normal when i am in school.
except that when i reached home, i would be like a balloon being deflated.
i got so lethargic.
doesnt matter.
still alive kicking.
anyway.
i am fucking not looking fwd to this weekends.
i don't wanna leave.
god damn it all!
this week started rather badly.
fuck it all!
im getting so bloody pissed!
pissed over everything!
pissed that i actually agreed to go on a HOLIDAY during school term!
pissed that i flared up easily!
pissed that i screwed up my own life!
so many that is going on and im not happy about.
but why and what am i not happy about?
every little things.
my mood nowadays is swinging from one end to the other as days goes by.
this is defintely not a good sign.
the tears is forcing itself out of the eyes.
and i simply hate it!
`oh god, let me get thru it all, and i swear i'll be a good gal!
dilemma
Saturday, October 20, 2007 11:02 PM
hello!
im back to update.
school have started for a week already.
a new term have started.
time to put aside all the holidays mood and concentrate.
cannot afford to slack anymore this term (hope i really wont)
but still, i am leaving for holiday this coming weekends.
i really kinda regretted, to agree to go for this trip.
it has never cross my mind that week 3 whereby, quizs starting coming up one after another.
no longer will be like sem one which we have great lecturers to coach us.
well, this is just the beginning.
i seriously hope things might turns out good.
hope the lecturers will prove me wrong.
as in, let me like them.
most of us don't like the lecturers this sem.
not all the lecturers, but most.
hmmm.
first impression counts, arent it?
hahas.
hmm.
nothing much.
school as usual.
full of projs, works, and fun.
hahas.
with classmates is always fun.
oh ya.
my driving test in coming up soon.
so yep.
wish me luck eh.
lol.
i wanna go thailand do voluntary work..
but nobody wants to go with me.
booo!!
anyway.
as promise.
my fishing trip's photo.
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hought it is all fine after that day, but somehow i feel, the problem still exists.
i thought after that day, everything is back to normal.
somehow i feel, the problems still exist.
though it may be past tense.
but still it happened.
perhaps, i don't have enough confident with myself.
i can't even bring myself to trust though i said i will let alone trusting the others.
seeing is believing.
now i understand (:
`drowned in a pool of misery.
im back to update.
school have started for a week already.
a new term have started.
time to put aside all the holidays mood and concentrate.
cannot afford to slack anymore this term (hope i really wont)
but still, i am leaving for holiday this coming weekends.
i really kinda regretted, to agree to go for this trip.
it has never cross my mind that week 3 whereby, quizs starting coming up one after another.
no longer will be like sem one which we have great lecturers to coach us.
well, this is just the beginning.
i seriously hope things might turns out good.
hope the lecturers will prove me wrong.
as in, let me like them.
most of us don't like the lecturers this sem.
not all the lecturers, but most.
hmmm.
first impression counts, arent it?
hahas.
hmm.
nothing much.
school as usual.
full of projs, works, and fun.
hahas.
with classmates is always fun.
oh ya.
my driving test in coming up soon.
so yep.
wish me luck eh.
lol.
i wanna go thailand do voluntary work..
but nobody wants to go with me.
booo!!
anyway.
as promise.
my fishing trip's photo.
t
hought it is all fine after that day, but somehow i feel, the problem still exists.i thought after that day, everything is back to normal.
somehow i feel, the problems still exist.
though it may be past tense.
but still it happened.
perhaps, i don't have enough confident with myself.
i can't even bring myself to trust though i said i will let alone trusting the others.
seeing is believing.
now i understand (:
`drowned in a pool of misery.
cant take my mind off you
Sunday, October 14, 2007 2:44 AM
sometimes, i questioned myself what i really want.
is this the kinda of life i wanna lead?
is this what i want and so on.
but well.
somehow, i can't find the answers to some questions.
sometimes, you know it is not the best for you, you still cling on, refusing to let go.
you know it is wrong, you still go ahead doing it.
you know it will be much more better for you out there, still you refused to move on.
life is about give and take.
you are born with some things, and without some things.
take for example, if you are born with this certain talent, you will find that you're handicap in some other areas.
at least that's how i feel.
well.
just some random thoughts.
sometimes i wonder, have i make a mistake?
i know there is much more better opportunites out there.
but still, i refused to move on.
why?
blame me for being stubborn that in turn, makes my life miserable for myself.
well, who ask me to be so silly.
hurr hurr.
im emotionally straying.
hurr hurr.
i also don't know how to describe my feeling now.
mixed kinda feelings.
not too good.
some things have been bothering me for quite some time.
some decisions is waiting for me to make.
but well.
anyway, goodnight (:
`simply cant take my mind off you
is this the kinda of life i wanna lead?
is this what i want and so on.
but well.
somehow, i can't find the answers to some questions.
sometimes, you know it is not the best for you, you still cling on, refusing to let go.
you know it is wrong, you still go ahead doing it.
you know it will be much more better for you out there, still you refused to move on.
life is about give and take.
you are born with some things, and without some things.
take for example, if you are born with this certain talent, you will find that you're handicap in some other areas.
at least that's how i feel.
well.
just some random thoughts.
sometimes i wonder, have i make a mistake?
i know there is much more better opportunites out there.
but still, i refused to move on.
why?
blame me for being stubborn that in turn, makes my life miserable for myself.
well, who ask me to be so silly.
hurr hurr.
im emotionally straying.
hurr hurr.
i also don't know how to describe my feeling now.
mixed kinda feelings.
not too good.
some things have been bothering me for quite some time.
some decisions is waiting for me to make.
but well.
anyway, goodnight (:
`simply cant take my mind off you
toy'R'us yi you
Friday, October 12, 2007 7:03 PM
alright folks.
i just changed by blog layout.
you stabbed me, i also stabbed you!
i just changed by blog layout.
but urgh!!
it is not working in firefox.
kill me pls, kill me...
i think this blogskin only works in IE.
omg!!
nvm.
ignore it first.
g said he will helped me tonight.
hahas.
hahas.
back to the daily issues.
went out with huiling 2 days ago after our driving lessons.
let's see.
went to standart chartered building to submit my timesheet.
went out with huiling 2 days ago after our driving lessons.
let's see.
went to standart chartered building to submit my timesheet.
after which, we decided to walk down clarke.
(taking photos for the japanese)
there is a lot of bars and pubs along the stretch we walked.
so was saying of which and which is nice.
huiling said to go clubbing during our holidays.
whoohoo!
great when more and more of us are of a legal age to club and drink.
walked over to marina square.
for the first time, huiling and my purposes of going out is not to go shopping.
she went to marina to do her MP3.
and for the first time, there is nothing for us to in a shopping mall except for walking aimlessly, waiting for time to pass by faster so that we can have our dinner =P
cos it was only 6pm!
that's pretty early for dinner -.-"
we wanted to have dinner at 6.30pm.
eventually, we gave in.
stop walking around and step into the restaurant.
lmao!
had dinner at thai express.
ordered green curry, and tom yam soup steamboat.
yummy!
the leaf u see is a lemon grass if im not wrong.
we were wondering is that a fake grass for decoration.
wondering if we can put into the soup anot.
hahas!
nowadays, i think our objective of going out, is to feast.
know what, after dinner, we can still think of walking over to suntec - dounut factory.
wahahahahas!
which we really did in the end.
hahas.
sat at dounut cafe to fulfill our satisfaction.
the dounut is omg!
marvellous!
look at that! look at that!
the highlight of the day!
we went to toyRus!
hahas.
yea yea.
nothing interesting.
interesting part is we went ard the whole toyRus to play toys!
and take photos with it!
interesting part is we went ard the whole toyRus to play toys!
and take photos with it!
hahas.
happening.
okok.
i guess this is something that 2 18years old not a girl, but not yet a woman should do.
but we cant resist the temptations.
well.
i shall let the photos do the talking!
lol.
ehh! stop laughing at our transportation means -mini police bike and pony!
laugh at this 'flower' better!
since when lady of liberty have a torch with soccer ball? sorry, this is the pirated version =/
witches on the loose. along with a bumble bee and a pumpkin shopper!
don't ask me. cos i dont know what the heck are we doing! hahas!!
you stabbed me, i also stabbed you!
what am i busy with? take a look below (:
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alright.
done with the meeting with huiling.
more photos coming up.
but for now, i am off for dinner.
next up, my fishing trip (:
take care!
`when you start to put in your heart and soul into doing something, that's when heaven will be on your side (:
fucking pissed
Thursday, October 04, 2007 12:55 AM
i am in fucking pissed off mood now!
fuck it all man.
i don't even feel like going for this upcoming m'sia trip to ipoh at all.
it is driving me fucking mad.
why bother to go when you have to undergo so much troubles?!
screw it all man!
i rather not go.
i wouldnt want to skip school, seriously.
fuck it all la.
to sum it off, I AM DAMN PISSED OFF!!
fuck it all man.
i don't even feel like going for this upcoming m'sia trip to ipoh at all.
it is driving me fucking mad.
why bother to go when you have to undergo so much troubles?!
screw it all man!
i rather not go.
i wouldnt want to skip school, seriously.
fuck it all la.
to sum it off, I AM DAMN PISSED OFF!!
