Tuesday, May 18, 2004 11:33 PM
*+_u are holding on to ur own key of happiness.... who would u keep the key with??? i? i will make a duplicate keys fer everyone so tat i can share my happiness with dem n e original one will be kept with the one i reali love....._+*
hMmm.... time flies.... yi chuan yan left last paper liaOx... hMm... honestly speaking horx... i felt i will do very badly fer dis time mid-yr.... sigh... affected by a stoopie ting.... damn the wad.... hao fan bu fan... pian pian xuan zhe ge shi hou fan.... daMn it... sigh... but watta do... so many subjects finish liaOx.... wa esp my bio.... bound to drop dis time le i tink... sigh..... waste half of my yr.... but oso cant sae waste...cos is i wanna tk one... not anyone force mi one...
todae ar? hmM.... same same lor... no different.... everydae is the same to mi... no different oso.... todae tuesday lor.... gt anyting special meHx... even hav.... oso dun tell u... haha... jkjk.... at first i very excited... but nw...seems lyk... nvm... thxz to those who remember... perhaps dis yr is e most meaningless yr baH.... sigh..... reali a bad bad yr....
hmM... todae dnt... do until i slp ar... den mr yeo cum knock on my table... sigh.... but it's right tat he did tat la... if not i oso duno i can slp hw long.... haha... slping beauty.... (vomitting in process) heheX...
hMmm..... i nw den realised horx.... those who try to hurt demselves horx is reali damN foolish lor.... fancy making everybody worry....hmm... but dun sae ar... i m once one of the foolish oso... haha...=b hmM... nw den i noe.... die oso cant solve anyting... leave scar on urself den not nice liaOx... haha... i so ai mei.... haha... but lucky ar.... no scar.... if not must go plastic sugery... haha.... ooPs... my lame crap habit cum bac again liaOx.... wahahahahhaha.... wanna pei mi crap? haha... i duno hw many thousand daes nv reali happie before le lor... nw.. wa... feel so reLaX.. fer one dae nia... sigh... summore todae so meaningless....
i dun request peeps to remember... i dun wan anyting... cos i m jus a nobody... so it doesn't reali matter... reali... => as long as my close peeps noe can liaOx... lyk my mum todae lor... wa hope to get my dream hp... wahahahaha... my lame habut... i wanna go out leHx... but nobody date mi.. haha.... cos everyone busy.... sigh.... ahahaha...
**vinsOn... hmM... dou suo le... u can remember everyone's * one but not my lor...( dun anyhw tink horx!T_T)haha... nvm la.... last yr remember lor... aiya... nw to mi is nth special liaOx... every yr the same.... sigh... noe my wish duno must wait hw long den will cum thru.... sigh... haha... anyway.... reali sori.... love yea....**
Wednesday, May 05, 2004 5:33 PM
*Xx....-ni hai ai wo ma... yi zhi hao xiang wen ni zhe ju hua...que you pa..ting daO ni zhen shi de hui daO..-xX*
daMn fucK up... bcos of my bro... reali hate him staring at my screen....fucK fucK fucK.....! argH... damn bad mood nw...
sigH... i reali hate myself more n more... haIx... i m damn bitcH lor i tink... n i reali hate fer myself... hate myself fer being a flirt... a bitch... a undecisive gal... n lastly a very baD gal... haIx... reali felt tat way... no wonder everyone hate mi lor... i oso nv blame dem... n i oso hate myself fer becuming more n more lyk ah liaN... sigh... perhaps one dae reali be... haIx... i dun wan! sigh...!
haIx.... recently no mooD to study lor... lyk nv pay attention to lessOn... alwayx slp in clasS or mi listen halfway will suddenly switch off... lyk nv attention lor... haIx... y?! y cant i pay more attention... y cant i stop tinking of other tings... haIx.... reali becuming a bad student...
haIx..... reali duno wad's going on... wad happen to mi... haIx... i reali reali in a total losS... first is hurt sumone so badly... secondly nv concentra on studies... thirdly mi becuming bitch... haIx... reali gotta admit tat... haIx... nobody will understand i feeL one la... cos dey r not mi... haIx... no wonder can everybody seems to hate mi... haIx... lyk lioN my honey lor... we seems to be drifting apart.... wif my team oso... haIx.... we long time nv cum togetha liaOx lor... reali drifting apart....haIx... reali hate myself fer not able to kp the team togetha... n reali hate myself fer not able to help my sweetheart jocelyn to solve her proB.. haIx... I m so mucH uselesS.... haIx.... watta do... wo jiu shi so uselesS....
**vinsOn... haiX... I reali hate myself lor... u everytime c mi so happie... crapping all the way.. but do u noe i m feeling very terrible in my heart... suan le... u will nv understand... sum sae u lyk sze man.... but haIx... i trust u... but if one dae u reali fall in love her... i won't blame u lor... cos as long as u happie can le... hurt mi oso nvm... i dun mind... afterall is i let u down.... not e other way round... haIx... i reali duno wad m i doing lor... mayb wad ur sis sae abt mi might be rite... i m not as gd as u tink... i m as bad as she tink... haIx... no wonder until nw we've been dragging on lor... i reali feel very tired le.... but wad can i do... no matter hw tired i m... i m nv gotta to giv u up unlesS u love another... haha... =') tink i very silly rite... haIx... but who ask mi to love u dis blur sotong... alwaYx duno hw to expresS urself... n alwayX kp tings to urself...haha.... i alwayx sae true love appeare in distance but nv in heart... izzit reali true?? haIx...anyway... sori but i love u.....**
song tat describe my feelings nw is jolin-ni hai ai wo ma.....
