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You could be a sweet dream,
Or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from
you..
hahahahahahhaas!
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 12:34 AM

it's so fucking childish that i cant stop laughing over it.

Who am i?
Friday, April 25, 2008 2:27 AM

Too much things are processing in my mind and that i really dont know what to do with them. In short, things just aren't what i expected them to be. Tell me what should I do. I am really exhausted.

`people can give you one thousand and million advices/solutions, but you can choose not to take it.

When..
Thursday, April 24, 2008 12:52 AM

Sleeping is really a good way to subside all the bad feelings i guess. Last night, before i drifted off to bed, i really couldnt take it any more. All the stress and unhappiness that was going on within me, were trying to break through the wall of endurance. I really feel like giving up everything at the moment. Feel like giving up to work hard for my studies, feel like giving up things that i fighted hard for, feel like doing nothing at all!

Slept at 10plus and woke up at 7am yesterday morning. The feeling was great. I had time to have my breakfast, go online, read thru Data Structure tutorial (though didnt do at all), and listened to music. But why can't this kinda good feeling last till i fall asleep later?

Anyway, yesterday, 22 April 2008 marks the first time of me donating blood. I don't know what makes me wanted to do that. It's just that i always wanted to do but i was afraid of needles. I am proud of myself as i had overcome the phobia of needles. The pain during the donation wasn't as bad i thought. It was in fact bearable. I told myself if i can get through the pain(bad fall) i experienced months back, why not this time? Moreover, this time the surface area that will hurt isn't as wide as last time. And yes, i got it over and done with. Really, it's not that bad.

Yesterday's vb lecture was great. Gilbert is great! He heeded our advices, think of how and prepare the slides to liven the atmosphere during the lecture. I guess, his jokes and lame-ness really did the trick. Almost everyone laughed. That's why i said he is one of the best lecturers i ever have (:

The rest of the day was pretty ok. Just that i don't know what's going on during IPTnet practical lesson. It sounds very alien to me. Walked home alone today. As i was walking with the music blasting into my ears, lots of thing were running through my mind. I realised i cannot be such a slacker anymore. I realised last semester, i failed badly as a leader. I failed to lead my team with example and towards success (meaning getting good grades). I was so bloody damn slack last semester. And it dawned on me that history shouldnt repeat itself again. I shouldn't disappoint my team mates.

And lots more stuffs which i won't be elaborating here. Just some personal reflections. Why am i reflecting so much on myself lately? Good question. Cos i realised there's too much flaws in my personal characters, my attitude and everything. Never mind bout that. Isn't in the right frame of mind.. .. ..

When the whole world turn its back on you, and you've got no one to turn to, the only thing you gotta do is to learn to survive independently.

`I am losing my cool

Want
Tuesday, April 22, 2008 10:15 PM

After all that are happening and seeing them going on around me, I am afraid. I really am. All i want now is you to stay by me, give me one tight hug, a little peck on my cheek, hold my hands and don't let go. Be my pillar of strength, will you?

I am really tired mentally. I guess i will just hit the bed now and forget bout everything that makes me so upset.

Note to self : Tomorrow will be a better day.

`i am sorry

Grumpy!
Monday, April 21, 2008 11:47 PM

Due to me feeling very very tired, in turns, i am feeling super duper grumpy now. Esp when mom kept asking me to do things and brother not being understanding. Makes even more grouchy =/

I don't know. Maybe it's just the stress i am feeling due to the high expectations. Never mind bout me. I will hang on. Cos this is just the beginning.. .. ..
`I still don't understand

No comments
1:25 AM

You know what, I don't wish to comment (: Just felt a little dumb though. Maybe not a little. But very dumb. Hahahahas! Rhowena is so dumb! Lalalalalas!

Oh well. Start of week 2 tmr (: Will be very very busy i guess. Work and school are gonna take up most of time. I guess life doesnt always go the way we wanted, isn't it? Say, let life be wind and you are the sail. Since it is going against you, why not go with the wind and make the best out of it?

Anyhow, have been doing loads of reflecting and thinking lately. Thought of what im gonna do after poly, which course i want to take in uni, what kinda job i wanna have after that and what kinda lifestyle i wanna lead. I guess it's time for goal setting again. Just like the mini poster in front of me now. It says, " Goal setting is important. Goal doing is MORE important". Don't you agree? No doubt you set goals, but if you do anything to achieve it, what's the point of setting it in the first place right? So, I am determined that I get myself through this. No more slacking during school term. I cannot afford to anymore.

I guess all my reflections lately had brought me one level higher. I came to understand more things with the aid of a book as well. The title of the book is What Choice Do I have? I haven't finish reading though. But something from the book I wanna share. It really captured my attention and set me thinking. Here it's how it goes, "There isn't enough time to be close to everyone you've ever known and accomplish new goals in your life. This doesnt mean you discard people along the way either. The r/s that are precious to you will remain so. It's just that, as you move on, new people will into your life and occupy some of your time. Who knows? You may have yet to meet the person who will be your best friend for life! True friends will remain so if you don't see them as much as you used to. And if they choose not to participate in whatever changes you choose to make in your life, they will always support you and your new positive choices. If they don't, they're probably not your friends!"

So friends. Bear in mind. You are not discarded along the way. You are still in my heart. Just that, I am very very sorry. I couldnt fork out more time for you people. Really, you people are not forgotten!

Anyway, it really sets me pondering. It's very true indeed. Life is all about making choices. Even simple things like what you gonna wear to school, what you want to eat and etc. All is bout making choices. As you grow older, the diffculty level of making choices go up too.

Sometimes, i felt life is such a tragedy. I dont know why. It's like some things are actually very straightforward, but some just wanna make it complex. Like what I've always said, human's mind is never complicated. It's the human's thoughts that make it complex. You may beg to differ though.

To end off this post, I wish to share. Whatever you do, think before acting. Spare a thought for everyone around you, esp the one who will be affected the most. Really. And esp the one who loves you a lot... Sometimes, once you let go, you will never find it back again. Treasure.

Alright, im tired. Toodles.

`assume = ass + u + me

Bundlesssss of love!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 1:19 AM

Oops! Lack of updates again =X Oh ya! One thing to clarify! Do i look like i will name myself after those monsters in the previous entry? Obviously no right. Haiya! So it's not my doings ah. It's baby! I guess she must have mix too much with those monkeys ( tic tik tic tik monkey which she called it the hard monkey, and one soft magnetic monkey. Adding on, monkey keychain!). Monkeys, monkeys and more MONKEYS! Oh man! And look at my tagboard! It's causing a comotion from all directions! Carebearrrrrr Leeeeeeeeee!! Look what you've done! =/

Anyway, back too school today. Finally, once in so many weeks, i felt so productive cos I haven been wasting much time today. Instead, we have already started to discuss and come up with ideas for the proj work ((: Gosh! Hope we does maintain the momentum which I guess we will try our very best (: Lecturers in charge of my class are still alright. Overall, I enjoyed school today (: But one by one is going missing from our clique. Sighhhhh! Saddening. It is so much quieter. Most of the breaks, Zhili not with us. And then liang yu dropped out. More to come i guess. Next semester. SIGHHHHHHHHH! Why like that?!

After so long of not attending school, i felt so retarded all of a sudden. A bit slow in catching what the lecturers were talking bout =/ RHOWENA IS RETARDED! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!

I am forseeing that i will be rather busy over the weeks. Working and classes to attend. Oh man! Do hope it will be over in a blink of eye. I want more time with baby! Sorry girl, seems like i haven't been spending much time with you these days )): Sigh. And now that our time table clashes. Well well. What to do except making the best of it? =/

Let me backtrack a little. Hmm. Where did i went with baby last week? Let me see. Dinner at Toa payoh central. And where else.. Hmmm. Met baby on sunday after make-up class at toa payoh again. Hahahahas! Errr, is toa payoh gonna consider as our hangout place soon? I guess so. Cos there got dry ban mian! Im lovin' it! Wahahahahas!

ABCDEFG! I don't remember what I had done and went last week already! =/ Again, RHOWENA IS RETARDED!! And im feeling hungry again now ):

Anyway, photos taken last week.....

on and on and on till it never ends (:

Ehhh! Hello! Don't miss me eh! I shy ah =D

Gotcha! Candid shot! (:

Missing me again. No choice! Hahahahas!

My hair is like crap ):

I suppose I will go off now. To play my PSP! I am so addicted to the game - Patapom! Wahahahahahahas! Super addictive i tell you! But extremely very super fun! Im lovin' it like mad la! Wahahahahahahahas! =D

Anyhow, I am missing my baby again! ): I haven't been seeing her much today due to our time table. Baby, I want a big warm huggggggggggggggggggggg and i wanna see you like nowwwwwwwwwwwww.... )): *sniff sniff*

P/S: I can't wait to see my friends who just joined NYP this year in the campus (:

*imissyou*


Saturday, April 12, 2008 1:36 AM

HELLO WORLD!

i just want to share something with you all. let me start by saying who i am in actual fact.

months ago, i was this...



THE MIGHTY POWERPUFF GIRLS!


but now, i dont know why, i became this...



THE ADORABLE TELETUBBIES! =)))

cool huh? whatever that i've been named, i will always have different names. like powerpuff girl, there's Blossom, Bubbles and Buttercup. and now that i've become tellytubbies, there's Tinky winky, Dipsy, Lala and Po.

cool yeah? okay. i should be going off for now.
see ya again people! =)

Sisters!
Wednesday, April 09, 2008 3:35 PM

Something to make me feel better today(i was feeling like crap since last night). Doreen is online!! Hahahas! Yea! She is the reason. Don't ask me why. Cos from young till now, I guess we have yet to experience going overseas individually with our parents or whoever apart from those genting trip. Cos even if i were to go genting, it's just for a day or 2. It is like whenever we wanna reach each other, we know it's just a phonecall away. And even if we wanna meet up, we know, we can easily meet each other. Whenever I am feeling down, i just have to dial her number and cry to her. We would just rant non-stop each other everytime. Hahahahaas! In short, we do most of the things together. Esp going overseas. We will be each other's talking nonsenses and laughing partner. Hahahahahahas!

Oh well. I never know i could miss her that much till this trip. But of cos, i won't be like ening who would go crazy-ed(new word intro to me by ening). Hahahahas! He just practically grabbing his hair as the days go by i guess. Esp when doreen said she is extending her stay. Hahahahahas!

Hahahas. Now i know why the fortune teller described our relation in these way, "one sarong, 2 of you share. What's going on between 2 of you, whole family or anyone would ever know,". Hahahahas!

Anyway sis, looking forward to see you this weekend. Thanks for making my day today (: Cos you said you miss me! Wahahahahahas! Sisters for life <33

Happy 3rd month-niversary!
Tuesday, April 08, 2008 7:33 PM

Happy 3rd months and counting on <3

Alright. I admit I am real lazy to update my blog nowadays. Hurr hurr. Sorry ah! Anyway, nothing very happening has happen lately. And so, I dont wanna bore anyone one of you. So ya. Hahahahas!

Let's start from last friday. Went for a haircut. I can't stand my hair anymore. It's really atrocious! Split ends, and very dry. Hence, I decided to snap part of it off. Not really very short but still, compared to my previous length, this is really short! =/

Weekends, not much of a happening. Stayed over at grandma's place as usual. I guess i am repeating the same things over and over again. Cos I am working =D The kids are really cute. And there's this 2 german kids in this pre-school class. Very adorable. They just sticked close to me while having lesson. They were pretty shy initially as it was their first time there. Oh ya, my colleague - florence gave me a packet of coffee from vietnam. Have yet to try though. The packaging is very exquisite, very nice.

After work, headed back to grandma's place to have lunch first and wait for uncle james to drive us to the salon. Was flipping throught the newspaper with him after he hung up the phone. We were looking for phone promo! Wahahahahas! Anyway, drove to the salon, had my hair highlighted. I highlighted red (: Looks not too bad. But, it didnt really give me the WOW kinda feel eh ): Ah! Never mind.

Monday, yesterday. Met baby in the afternoon for lunch. Couldnt decide what to eat initially. But we ended up at Sakae Sushi at Suntec for teatime buffet. Hahahahas! I guess she wanted me to stop bugging her for Sakae, that's why. Very filling! But it was all good (: Walked back to Raffles to get her Crumpler bag. Yeah! That explains why I dont need to carry my bag. Cos i put mine into hers! Cool to walk around without a bag. So carefree. That should happen often (get the hint baby?). Wahahahahahahas!

Headed down to city hall mrt to meet whole bunch of her friends and her brother. She invited me to her school's band concert. Oh man! Shy la! Whole bunch of her friends! Very very scary and awkward till I don't know what to do initially. Hahas! YES! I still have fears though I am rhowena chia okay! Just like the kit-kat adverstisment recently. Even a very muscular and big-built fellow is scared of crockroaches too alright! Hahahahas! Anyway, back to topic. The concert was held in esplanade concert hall. It was great I should say (: Hmm, it's actually my first time going for such concert. But it was all good, really.

After the concert, I guess probably baby and her group of friends were waiting for those who performed to come out. While waiting, I saw a very familiar face. It was one of my teacher who taught me in Peirce! Mr Alexander Choy! I was really very very surprised to see him there! I can't figured why was he there. I even asked baby's friend is he teaching in AMKSS. But she said no. He turned and saw me, he walked over. I was really very shock and happy of cos! Cos he recognised!! Wheets! Oh ya, fyi peirceans, Mr choy after being posted to MOE 2 years back, this year, he is posted to AMKSS to teach again. So those who wanna find him, know where to huh (:

Left esplanade, took a train back to AMK with baby, her brother and one of her friend - lizi to eat cos her friend didnt have the time to eat. Met another of her friend at S11. Her friends and brother are all damn funny la! I was really being tickled the whole night! I just cannot stop laughing. LOL!

Slept for half an hour this morning before sending baby and her friend to the airport at 5plus. Had breakfast there, sat there for a while and left. Pumped petrol and home. Played psp and slept until 4plus. What a day! Felt like a pig, spent my day sleeping. But ah! Very very nice weather! Hahahahahas!

Today marks the 3rd month of baby and i being together ((: Time really flies. In a blink of eye, 3 months just passes us by like that. Though during the 3 months, there was ups and downs. But I am really glad, we hurdled it (: Sorry for being very demanding and temperamental at times, and in turn you have to still give in to me, put up with me. Sorry baby. I know i ought to watch my temper =/ Last and all, ILOVEYOU TRUCK LOADS HONEY! ((:

MY NECK IS BREAKING!!

Happy ending
Thursday, April 03, 2008 2:26 AM

*Singing* So much for my happy ending. Ohh ohh.. Ohh ohh.. Ohhh Ohh..!!

What a way to start the entry. Hahahahas! But really happy ending. Baby got back her lost wallet. Some kind soul found it and returned to the police. Hence, police contacted the school to inform baby to go and collect her wallet. And so, accompanied baby to Tanglin Police Division to collect back her wallet yesterday afternoon. So that's why i said happy ending lo. Hahahahas!

Anyway, have been spending much time with baby lately. The time spent together is always awesome, as usual (: Went shopping, walking aimlessly around town, chilling out at the rooftop of esplanade, eating and going around to look for stuffs like today. In search for my bu dao wong. Don't ask me why am i so random =X Baby have been saying me that too.

Some photos.

The monkey that baby asked ening to get it. Both of us and doreen have it (:

On the bus back home. We happened to be wearing red today =D

I didnt know she was doing that. Lol. I've got small eyes! I dont like!

Just some random photos

Your hand are mine to hold <33

She can't stop playing with that! Hahahas!

Oh ya. I was being put in a very dangerous situation today. It was bloody dangerous to be in a bus where the bus driver dozed off while driving. Arsehole! I dont wanna die so early ah! @#$%^&*! I still got many things haven't do okay! Ji dan gao!

One more week to school re-opening. Excited yet reluctant. Cos thinking of have to wake up so early, just bore me so =/ But school is fun. Everybody told me to enjoy while i still can. I think i should too. Study, tired can nap in class. When working, try napping. You will be ask to eat fried salted fish ah. And on top of that, Justyn and Faz are my ex-colleagues and schoolmates-to-be! Wheets!! Both of them are doing health science course (: Guess will be seeing them more often every now and then, i hope. Hahahaas!

It's been a long time since i visited grandma. Hmm. I bet every week, she has been asking bout me. Alright. Time to go and visit her soon. Maybe some time this week.

Okay. That's all folks (:

`I need a haircut sooooonnnnnn!!

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Name: Rhowena Chia(Rho)
Age: 21 years old
Date of Birth: May18 1989
Horoscope Sign: Taurus

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