I Got You

tired...

Tuesday, February 22, 2005 6:27 PM

im tired...jus give me a break...if u wan me to leave...just tell me...and i will leave...i dun wish to say anymore tings...i m tired...and i have nth to sae..just leave me as i m...hate me if u wan...by all means...jus leave me alone to heal my wound tat u caused...**

*`_______wound have slowly become scar________`*

*+_...so tired.._+*

Monday, February 07, 2005 5:45 PM

hmmm...jus finished tution...so tired...but managed to pass the one and half hours w/o slping...hahas...hmmm...now alone at home...mummy and didi went to market to buy tings..i very lazy to go...so didn't go lor...hahas...i m always so lazy...
hmmm...nth much happened todae..still the same...same old me...same old psn who know wad's going on...same psn who see thru how i m feeling todae...nobody can see thru except her-->arisa..dumb of me...so obvious for wad...duno lar...no improvements...in fact worst i think..duno...hahas..but nvm...i happie still...nth could ever bring me down...hahas... =')
**i m sorry for everyting...everyting is simply mine fault**

*`______the wound have become a scar______`*

i cried again...

Saturday, February 05, 2005 7:20 PM

sigh...todae...i cried again...cos of com team...my team...y must i always drop my tears for NC6..is it worth it...is money tat important that u have to give up NC6?or even us?sigh...nvm...now i get it..i m sorry NC6...i m not a good leader..neither m i a good AOIC...sorry...jus ignore me bah...
To me...crying for NC6...it's worth it...all the best...sorry sonia and yiting senior...

*`_________i m sorry_______`*

*+_..giving up.._+*

Wednesday, February 02, 2005 4:50 PM

sigh..i just feel like giving up..i m being push to the limits..i jus felt tat i might jump off the cliff any moment..i m at the edge alr..sigh...i m feeling so stress..but anybody know?nvm if nobody knows..i jus dun wanna let anybody know...
nvm...i know wad i m doing..it's alright if u hate me...i dun give it a damn...i m passing out anyway...yes i m selfish...i m mean...so wad...wad can you do..?!do u have the right to change me?NO!you have no right..and who're u do tat..hate me for all u wan..i won't give it damn...e onli ting i felt is...i felt sad for myself...getting upset over u guys...upset for the tings that is not worth it...i felt bloody stoopie..i look like a fool!i m so utterly disappointed yesterdae...fancy getting scoldings and stuffs...i dun deserve tat..u get this clear..i hate ur attitudes!!!and i hate the stoopie decision i made...you brought me happiness...u brought me fun..you brought me laughter..but now...u brought me nth but pain...disappointment..!i cant even cope with studies now do u know that?i m having o-level dis do u know that?do u know understand the stress i m under now?NO!you know nth at all..all u know is urself...u onli care abt urself...!you're self-centred..jus wanna let you know..dun regret in the future..be responsible for your won actions...
nvm...no pt saying so much...none of u will listen anyway..nvm..i will jus do wad i m suppose to..anyway...take care...

`*___hidden pain behind the visible smile..feel like giving up___*`