cold!
Saturday, December 29, 2007 5:52 PM
here it goes again.
raining cats and dogs.
damn!
im feeling so cold!
*blurrp*
if not for my flu, i wouldnt have slept so nicely through the night.
and it may be because of a sms i received before i sleep last night (:
i felt relieved.
i was glad.
and so i slept throught (:
while lying on my bed before i offically wake up, dad was in my room for dont know what reason.
he was saying im lazy.
should have get out of the bed earlier to learn reversing and parking the car.
i told him, okay, let's go.
and the next moment, i fell back to sleep!
hahas!
first in the many nights, i slept so nicely la!
so you cant blame me.
hahas.
i dont know what else to say already.
hahas.
im off (:
today is brand new start for me.
i wanna put everything behind me.
i hope this time round, there will be no otherwise.
i wont be able to take it anymore.
it simply hurts.
p/s: thanks for the concern my friends (: im fine already. i guess so (:
raining cats and dogs.
damn!
im feeling so cold!
*blurrp*
if not for my flu, i wouldnt have slept so nicely through the night.
and it may be because of a sms i received before i sleep last night (:
i felt relieved.
i was glad.
and so i slept throught (:
while lying on my bed before i offically wake up, dad was in my room for dont know what reason.
he was saying im lazy.
should have get out of the bed earlier to learn reversing and parking the car.
i told him, okay, let's go.
and the next moment, i fell back to sleep!
hahas!
first in the many nights, i slept so nicely la!
so you cant blame me.
hahas.
i dont know what else to say already.
hahas.
im off (:
today is brand new start for me.
i wanna put everything behind me.
i hope this time round, there will be no otherwise.
i wont be able to take it anymore.
it simply hurts.
p/s: thanks for the concern my friends (: im fine already. i guess so (:
`you are the reason why i smile.
when you're gone
Friday, December 28, 2007 12:47 PM
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me, yeah
[Chorus]
how i wish i was blind, so that i will not have to cry.
how i wish i was deaf, so that i can't hear the cries from those whom i've hurt.
how i wish i was mute, so that i wont speak anymore that hurt others even more.
how i wish i was an retard, so that i wont know how to hurt others.
how i wish i hasnt exist, so that i wont be here causing unhappiness.
But somehow, it is not my choice if im supposed to be here anot. I wasnt given a choice! What can I do beside treasuring what I have and appreciate who I am now? (oh wait! i will only appreciate myself the day i've really change) After thinking through last night, I again, is being impulsive. Doing things, saying things hurting the one I love and care. Again, Im doing things without thinking bout the consequences. I deserve a tight slap on my face, i really do!
so much i wish to see you.
so much i wish to give you a hug.
so much i wish you could hold my hand once again.
so much i wish you could lend me your shoulder to lie on.
so much i wish to tell you how much you mean to me.
so much i wish to tell you how much i miss ya.
so much i wish for not to lose you.
so much i wish for everything to be the same, i guess, it is not possible.
Im really down with flu. And I hate it! But the thing now is, does it really matter? I guess not (:
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me, yeah
[Chorus]
how i wish i was blind, so that i will not have to cry.
how i wish i was deaf, so that i can't hear the cries from those whom i've hurt.
how i wish i was mute, so that i wont speak anymore that hurt others even more.
how i wish i was an retard, so that i wont know how to hurt others.
how i wish i hasnt exist, so that i wont be here causing unhappiness.
But somehow, it is not my choice if im supposed to be here anot. I wasnt given a choice! What can I do beside treasuring what I have and appreciate who I am now? (oh wait! i will only appreciate myself the day i've really change) After thinking through last night, I again, is being impulsive. Doing things, saying things hurting the one I love and care. Again, Im doing things without thinking bout the consequences. I deserve a tight slap on my face, i really do!
so much i wish to see you.
so much i wish to give you a hug.
so much i wish you could hold my hand once again.
so much i wish you could lend me your shoulder to lie on.
so much i wish to tell you how much you mean to me.
so much i wish to tell you how much i miss ya.
so much i wish for not to lose you.
so much i wish for everything to be the same, i guess, it is not possible.
Im really down with flu. And I hate it! But the thing now is, does it really matter? I guess not (:
`for a moment last night, i really wish to give up on myself
Why?!
3:15 AM
WHY THINGS LIKE THAT HAVE TO HAPPEN?!
IT HURTS REAL BAD!
IT REALLY DOES!
I DONT MEAN IT AT ALL!
I DONT MEAN EVERY SINGLE THINGS THAT I'VE SAID AND DONE!
IT FUCKING HURTS!
WHAT CAN I SAY!?
WHAT CAN I DO!?
I DONT WANT TO FACE IT ALL!
I FUCKING DONT WANT TO FACE IT!
IT HURTS REAL BAD!
IT REALLY DOES!
I DONT MEAN IT AT ALL!
I DONT MEAN EVERY SINGLE THINGS THAT I'VE SAID AND DONE!
IT FUCKING HURTS!
WHAT CAN I SAY!?
WHAT CAN I DO!?
I DONT WANT TO FACE IT ALL!
I FUCKING DONT WANT TO FACE IT!
down with flu
1:10 AM
i dont know what am i thinking of.
i only know im down with flu, i guess.
hahas!
im feeling exhausted.
im off (:
i just wish to sit quietly beside you, can i?
i only know im down with flu, i guess.
hahas!
im feeling exhausted.
im off (:
i just wish to sit quietly beside you, can i?
much better
Thursday, December 27, 2007 3:54 PM
after talking to turtle, i felt much better.
your voice is the comfort (:
thanks love!
your voice is the comfort (:
thanks love!
cant sleep.
1:50 PM
couldnt sleep.
tossing and turning, sleeping and waking up since 10plus.
first thing i opened my eyes, it came back to me again.
despite saying actions speaks louder than words.
it is not easy, really not easy.
my head still hurts.
i dont know why.
it is worst than this morning when i went to bed at 6am.
im supposed to go to school for make up test, but here i am.
couldnt stand lying on the bed whereby trains and trains of thought running through my mind while hugging my pillows trying to stop it all.
and hence, i woke up at 1pm.
so here i am blogging.
dad came back just.
so much i wanted to apologize to him, but, i can't bring myself to do that.
i dont know how to open my mouth to speak.
despite all that had happened, my dad still asked if i had my lunch.
i told him no.
he asked what would i like to have.
i dont know.
i felt my stubborness, my way of doing things without thinking of the consequences hurt everyone so badly, be it directly or indirectly.
i deeply regretted.
i wish i could put all the past behind me and move on to change and be a better person.
the scenes, the words, the hurt that i've caused, it is still haunting me.
i really wanna change.
never in my life, i have made so many tear so badly. not tears of joys, but of the pain.
dad's words send the tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrollable again..
tossing and turning, sleeping and waking up since 10plus.
first thing i opened my eyes, it came back to me again.
despite saying actions speaks louder than words.
it is not easy, really not easy.
my head still hurts.
i dont know why.
it is worst than this morning when i went to bed at 6am.
im supposed to go to school for make up test, but here i am.
couldnt stand lying on the bed whereby trains and trains of thought running through my mind while hugging my pillows trying to stop it all.
and hence, i woke up at 1pm.
so here i am blogging.
dad came back just.
so much i wanted to apologize to him, but, i can't bring myself to do that.
i dont know how to open my mouth to speak.
despite all that had happened, my dad still asked if i had my lunch.
i told him no.
he asked what would i like to have.
i dont know.
i felt my stubborness, my way of doing things without thinking of the consequences hurt everyone so badly, be it directly or indirectly.
i deeply regretted.
i wish i could put all the past behind me and move on to change and be a better person.
the scenes, the words, the hurt that i've caused, it is still haunting me.
i really wanna change.
never in my life, i have made so many tear so badly. not tears of joys, but of the pain.
dad's words send the tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrollable again..
`sorry seems to be the hardest word. i shall prove it with my actions.
hurtful night
5:11 AM
im sorry for what i've done.
i really am.
when things like that happened, there are 2 scenerios.
one is to blame others and another is putting the blame on oneself.
people do wrong things in fit of anger.
people do things without thinking bout the consequences.
people forgot bout considering others' feelings.
lessons i've learnt today will be imprinted on my mind always.
forever...
my head is hurting like fuck now and hence, im going to bed and hope for a better day.
dearest fairy, if you're lingering somewhere, listening to what im saying now, please take away the hurt and pain i've caused on my parents and my dear turtle. i am willing to do anything in exchange for that. even it means that i have to shorten my life... god bless.
i really am.
when things like that happened, there are 2 scenerios.
one is to blame others and another is putting the blame on oneself.
people do wrong things in fit of anger.
people do things without thinking bout the consequences.
people forgot bout considering others' feelings.
lessons i've learnt today will be imprinted on my mind always.
forever...
my head is hurting like fuck now and hence, im going to bed and hope for a better day.
dearest fairy, if you're lingering somewhere, listening to what im saying now, please take away the hurt and pain i've caused on my parents and my dear turtle. i am willing to do anything in exchange for that. even it means that i have to shorten my life... god bless.
emotions overtook me
Wednesday, December 26, 2007 3:00 AM
christmas is finally here. upon the arrival of christmas, i realised, i wasnt so excited over it at all! )): in fact, im feeling a lil under the weather. must be all thanks to the cramps and mood swing.
let's start with christmas eve. met up with turtle ard 1.45pm? planned a not-so-complete surprise for her. why isnt it not-so-complete? good question.
here's how the story goes. she had been mentioning of going to S.P.C.A for quite some time. and one night, i dont know what i was thinking/doing, an idea striked me. i decided to surprise her by bringing her to S.P.C.A. since i have never been there before, hence, i definitely need to do some researches on how to go. finally with the help of jeremy, i managed to get hold of some clues on the how-to-go. we still managed to find the place despite getting down at the wrong bus stop =X when we reached there, guess what?! IT IS CLOSED AT 12PM ON EVE OF CHRISTMAS!
*&^%$#@! (sorry turtle, should have check properly before going.)
got no choice, but to think of the next plan. walked to the nearest bus stop to see what bus are there to send us to our desired destination.
decided to take 28 to toa payoh bus interchange to look for food first. on the bus, boring~ so that's what happens (:
the show was bout magic toy shop. i love magic (: i wanna be a magician too! then i can have everything with the snap of the fingers (:
i must be dreaming. ha!
oh yea. the moral of the show is, have faith in yourself. hold on to your belief. that's what i learnt (:
after the movie, headed over to suntec for dinner. cant really make up my mind what to have actually. but eventually, settled it with korean one. again, walked aimlessly. yes, you're not wrong. aimlessly again. (:
walked over to esplanade to have the donuts turtle bought. that girl ah! can officially take over the title already la! GLUTTON QUEEN. hahas! oh ya, we passed by Raffles Shopping Center.
anyway, to my dear turtle, hope it will be a better day when you open your eyes later (: loves! alright, im off.
`note to self: make up your mind
let's start with christmas eve. met up with turtle ard 1.45pm? planned a not-so-complete surprise for her. why isnt it not-so-complete? good question.
here's how the story goes. she had been mentioning of going to S.P.C.A for quite some time. and one night, i dont know what i was thinking/doing, an idea striked me. i decided to surprise her by bringing her to S.P.C.A. since i have never been there before, hence, i definitely need to do some researches on how to go. finally with the help of jeremy, i managed to get hold of some clues on the how-to-go. we still managed to find the place despite getting down at the wrong bus stop =X when we reached there, guess what?! IT IS CLOSED AT 12PM ON EVE OF CHRISTMAS!
*&^%$#@! (sorry turtle, should have check properly before going.)
got no choice, but to think of the next plan. walked to the nearest bus stop to see what bus are there to send us to our desired destination.
decided to take 28 to toa payoh bus interchange to look for food first. on the bus, boring~ so that's what happens (:
(dumb hair! so flat! rahhh! i dont like!)
had wanton noodles there. not bad, quite nice (: 3 thumbs up! had papaya milk after that. shiok (: it tasted good (: took a train over to town to watch Mr Magorium Wonderful's Emporium.
turtle was so funny. when we reached the ticketing counter, we were like pushing the job of purchasing tickets to each other. cos both of us dont know how to pronounce. so she went like "2 tickets for Mr Mag...." when the lady asked her tickets for which moive. hahas! and of cos, the lady at the counter finished the sentence for her. hahas! funny shit!the show was bout magic toy shop. i love magic (: i wanna be a magician too! then i can have everything with the snap of the fingers (:
i must be dreaming. ha!
oh yea. the moral of the show is, have faith in yourself. hold on to your belief. that's what i learnt (:
after the movie, headed over to suntec for dinner. cant really make up my mind what to have actually. but eventually, settled it with korean one. again, walked aimlessly. yes, you're not wrong. aimlessly again. (:
walked over to esplanade to have the donuts turtle bought. that girl ah! can officially take over the title already la! GLUTTON QUEEN. hahas! oh ya, we passed by Raffles Shopping Center.
(dear all, green + red = christmas tree)
i especially love esplanade rooftop on normal days whereby there is not much people. cos it's peaceful and nice. last night, hmm. not too bad actually but i still prefer the normal days (:
(taken at the escalator down from the rooftop)
anyway, after our stay at the rooftop, walked over to suntec again to catch a bus.
spent a lil time at fountain of wealth (:
it was beautiful.
(fountain of wealth)
thought there might still be bus 162. didnt see any, but 133 came. my fav bus. cos it passes by Lavender Market which sell my fav pancake (: on the bus....
(see see! caught red-handed!)
reached home around 1.45am i think. hmmm. stayed up till 5am. i must be mad =/
christmas. hmm. went over to grandma's place for dinner. she cooked a lot of things today. oh man! i forgot to take photo of it! =/
was quite contended cos i drove on the expressway today. dad let me drove home from grandma's place (: uncle let me drove his car all the way to hougang from grandma's place too (: 2 cars today. but wasnt quite happy that cos i think my skills sucks ):
i received 2 presents and 2 cards this year. thanks jeanne jie jie, doreen, jonathan and marcus (: lovely gifts and cards i've got (:
the dog, twinky(jack rusell), is so playful. it kept aiming at my candy cane. kept licking me as well! oh man. but it's super duper cute (:
anyway, to my dear turtle, hope it will be a better day when you open your eyes later (: loves! alright, im off.
`note to self: make up your mind
malacca trip
Monday, December 24, 2007 2:56 AM
a bit slow in updating this post.
reached home at 2am yesterday.
hurr hurr!
as i was saying, went malacca few days back.
(dont ask me how many days cos i've got no idea. ha!)
this is my hotel room.
doreen, grandma and i shared the bed.
while uncle slept on the sofa.
we asked for an extra bed so that jon can sleep on.
yeah.
the overall of the room is not bad.
quite big.
in this room, there were 2 balconys.
one was taken in the day, another was taken in the night.
i esp love the shape of the swimming pool.
ha!
look so unique (:
far view from the room.
on the far end, you can see the sea.
whooohooo sea!
i love the sea!
the whole trip was bout eating and more eating.
one of the photos taken.
it doesnt seems appetitising i know.
cos i forgot to take a photo of it till we finished eating.
cos i forgot to take a photo of it till we finished eating.
hahas!
this is wad known as the malaysia satay steamboat.
not the best i've eaten so far.
but then again, it is nice (:
but the drinks sucks.
my grass jelly taste like longkang water!
and doreen said her lemon barley taste like soap water.
and doreen said her lemon barley taste like soap water.
WAHAHAHAHAHAS!
laughed my head off.
next day, went shopping.
OH MY GOD!
SALES WERE ON EVERYWHERE!
bought a top from Padini.
50% OFF!!
infront of the shopping center, that's a few decor.
some random photos.
being bored that's all..
hahas!
reached home at 2am yesterday.
scary, thought mom locked me out.
and damn phone, battery totally flat.
im like WTH! HOW!
hahas.
met turtle in the afternoon to eat before she work.
i had my banana pizza dessert (:
after that, sent her off to work.
got impatient while waiting for doreen that i walked to get my stuffs first.
hurr hurr!
too tired to walk ard.
hence doreen and i decided to sit down at starbucks while waiting for turtle to knock off.
went lau pat sar for dinner or rather SUPPER after she knocked off from work.
after all, took a night rider home.
while waiting, im bored.
so yea.
photos again (:
im so excited that im able to drive today.
im so excited that im able to drive today.
thanks merf!
for sending me the triangle plate.
if not for you, dad wouldnt have let me drive at all (:
im feeling so dont know how to say that i dont feel like elaborating much.
i dont know.
im feeling emotional yet and again.
hurr hurr.
too much is going on inside me.
im getting confused.
i dont know what to do.
i wish i can dont think bout it.
im making things complex for myself.
im sorry.
im sorry that i cant meet you girls(sumin and jiaen).
i think i ought to manage my time better.
`beautiful things are captured by the eyes, imprinted on the mind. thanks for the memories.
total insane!
Thursday, December 20, 2007 2:48 AM
i still cant believed it.
i've got my driving license(yesterday).
hmm.
seems kinda weird to me though.
the night before i was having butterflies in my stomach.
made me felt so sick and annoyed.
my mood was swinging from end to end.
riding on an emotional rollar coaster.
the day had come.
18th of december.
woke up early in the morning to go bugis that guan yin temple to pray.
turtle is sucha sweetie.
she woke up with me early in the morning, just to accompany me there.
she could have sleep in longer.
thanks sweetheart!
(:
long long time since i had breakfast as early as 9 in the morning.
after praying, went to a nearby coffee shop to eat vegetarian foods.
not that i wanna lessen my sins of cos!
just purely went there for food.
hahas!
after eating, accompanied turtle to collect her pay at Bugis Junction.
and off we train-ed to yck, ssdc.
oh gosh man!
i feel like walking to and fro the train.
i was god-damned nervous!
warm-up, was pretty fine.
just a few things need to take note.
then, the test!
oh man oh man!
i was like freaking nervous that i felt like hitting my head against the steering wheel.
after the driving test and all, followed the tester to his office.
was so afraid that i would screw up.
BUT!
I GOT THROUGH!
I MADE IT!
wooohoooo!!
lalalalas!
went out with a happier note.
wheets!
went for a late lunch at 'opposite of train(SUBWAY)' and movie-d at PS GV.
watched the golden compass (:
the show was not bad.
3 thumbs up?
yeah.
after the show, here comes the walking aimlessly part.
as usual, with turtle, we wont missed the part of walking aimlessly.
dont ask me why.
i dont know either.
hahas!
but she reminded me of rochor soya beancurd.
there we went!
omg!
we only ate like tiny winy little bit of things and we're full!
that was so not us.
PAI LIAO! SPOIL ALREADY!
usually we can eat a lot, but not yesterday!
why? why? why?
cos PAI LIAO!
HAHAS!
walked to bugis then to esplanade.
sat there with all her 'friends'.
cockroaches and uhm, lizards perhaps?
hahas!
nah, joke!
but damn those city insects.
they are smart to hide in the dark to stalk on us.
*faint*
i sat with my legs up can!
i scared it will crawl up my legs.
hahas!
there it goes, photos and more photos!
adding to the album.
both were lazy to edit this time.
so just make do with it la huh (:
java workshop today.
met turtle to walk to school today.
she wasnt aware that im going to the same class as her till i stepped into the same classroom.
she was asking me in shock, "eh! why you go to the same class as me!?"
i laughed and walked in.
hahas!
sorry dear!
it was meant to be a surprise!
hahas!
after java, walked to central to get her food -roti (bread).
walked around aimlessly again.
ever since 2 days ago, i kept telling her donut whoever i see wearing orange.
cos donut factory's uniform is orange.
hahas!
strolled back to my house void deck.
sat and stoned there, and then she gotta leave for school again.
guitar concert.
i went back home to nap.
was suppose to go granny's house tonight.
but then again, i dont feel like going with them to Malaysia.
so many don't wantS.
BORING!
still, i have to go.
uncle is using reverse psychology on me!
oh well.
this whole post is so lengthy.
i guess i better stop cos you see!
some of your eyes can barely open!
toodles (:
p/s: dont get emo when im away, turtle. will be back real soon!
i've got my driving license(yesterday).
hmm.
seems kinda weird to me though.
the night before i was having butterflies in my stomach.
made me felt so sick and annoyed.
my mood was swinging from end to end.
riding on an emotional rollar coaster.
the day had come.
18th of december.
woke up early in the morning to go bugis that guan yin temple to pray.
turtle is sucha sweetie.
she woke up with me early in the morning, just to accompany me there.
she could have sleep in longer.
thanks sweetheart!
(:
long long time since i had breakfast as early as 9 in the morning.
after praying, went to a nearby coffee shop to eat vegetarian foods.
not that i wanna lessen my sins of cos!
just purely went there for food.
hahas!
after eating, accompanied turtle to collect her pay at Bugis Junction.
and off we train-ed to yck, ssdc.
oh gosh man!
i feel like walking to and fro the train.
i was god-damned nervous!
warm-up, was pretty fine.
just a few things need to take note.
then, the test!
oh man oh man!
i was like freaking nervous that i felt like hitting my head against the steering wheel.
after the driving test and all, followed the tester to his office.
was so afraid that i would screw up.
BUT!
I GOT THROUGH!
I MADE IT!
wooohoooo!!
lalalalas!
went out with a happier note.
wheets!
went for a late lunch at 'opposite of train(SUBWAY)' and movie-d at PS GV.
watched the golden compass (:
the show was not bad.
3 thumbs up?
yeah.
after the show, here comes the walking aimlessly part.
as usual, with turtle, we wont missed the part of walking aimlessly.
dont ask me why.
i dont know either.
hahas!
but she reminded me of rochor soya beancurd.
there we went!
omg!
we only ate like tiny winy little bit of things and we're full!
that was so not us.
PAI LIAO! SPOIL ALREADY!
usually we can eat a lot, but not yesterday!
why? why? why?
cos PAI LIAO!
HAHAS!
walked to bugis then to esplanade.
sat there with all her 'friends'.
cockroaches and uhm, lizards perhaps?
hahas!
nah, joke!
but damn those city insects.
they are smart to hide in the dark to stalk on us.
*faint*
i sat with my legs up can!
i scared it will crawl up my legs.
hahas!
there it goes, photos and more photos!
adding to the album.
both were lazy to edit this time.
so just make do with it la huh (:
java workshop today.
met turtle to walk to school today.
she wasnt aware that im going to the same class as her till i stepped into the same classroom.
she was asking me in shock, "eh! why you go to the same class as me!?"
i laughed and walked in.
hahas!
sorry dear!
it was meant to be a surprise!
hahas!
after java, walked to central to get her food -roti (bread).
walked around aimlessly again.
ever since 2 days ago, i kept telling her donut whoever i see wearing orange.
cos donut factory's uniform is orange.
hahas!
strolled back to my house void deck.
sat and stoned there, and then she gotta leave for school again.
guitar concert.
i went back home to nap.
was suppose to go granny's house tonight.
but then again, i dont feel like going with them to Malaysia.
so many don't wantS.
BORING!
still, i have to go.
uncle is using reverse psychology on me!
oh well.
this whole post is so lengthy.
i guess i better stop cos you see!
some of your eyes can barely open!
toodles (:
p/s: dont get emo when im away, turtle. will be back real soon!
`change to suit the environment and not the other way round.
bittersweet
Monday, December 17, 2007 4:00 AM
another pleasant day spent with my turtle ((:
she never fails to make me smile (:
today was practically food-hunting.
ate everywhere we go.
from golden mile food market, eat all the way till we reached amk.
oh gosh man!
but then changed of role today.
instead of me being hungry, it's her!
omg!
soon she can take over my title.
GLUTTON QUEEN!
(:
we walked a 'thousand miles' today.
walked from lavender all the way to orchard.
and im poor in my directions la!
luckily turtle was there to lead the way.
and OH MY TIAN AH!
SHE KEPT COMPLAINING HUNGRY!
damn!
she is mad!
kept asking me to eat with her =/
siao one!
took bus 132 back to amk.
alighted at temporary peirce sec campus that bus stop.
walked over to the drive thru mac.
for wad?
EAT!
*SHAKES HEAD*
turtle walked me home after which.
reached home bout 12plus.
and silly her!
forgot to take back her things from me and she can still asked me "waa! miss me ah!" when i called her.
hahas!
enjoyable day i had today (:
though im like hungry now..
but well.
((:
*grinning from ear to ear*
alright.
photo to end it off.
she never fails to make me smile (:
today was practically food-hunting.
ate everywhere we go.
from golden mile food market, eat all the way till we reached amk.
oh gosh man!
but then changed of role today.
instead of me being hungry, it's her!
omg!
soon she can take over my title.
GLUTTON QUEEN!
(:
we walked a 'thousand miles' today.
walked from lavender all the way to orchard.
and im poor in my directions la!
luckily turtle was there to lead the way.
and OH MY TIAN AH!
SHE KEPT COMPLAINING HUNGRY!
damn!
she is mad!
kept asking me to eat with her =/
siao one!
took bus 132 back to amk.
alighted at temporary peirce sec campus that bus stop.
walked over to the drive thru mac.
for wad?
EAT!
*SHAKES HEAD*
turtle walked me home after which.
reached home bout 12plus.
and silly her!
forgot to take back her things from me and she can still asked me "waa! miss me ah!" when i called her.
hahas!
enjoyable day i had today (:
though im like hungry now..
but well.
((:
*grinning from ear to ear*
alright.
photo to end it off.
p/s: am away to m'sia from thurs to saturday.
`let the time halt at just that moment*
this is love
Sunday, December 16, 2007 2:02 AM
new image!
Friday, December 14, 2007 1:52 AM
today is a long long day.
went for driving early in the morning.
everything was great (:
walked back to school.
it was another one hour before lessons start.
sat at the library and waited for that 2 guys.
ahahahahahas!
they cut their hair!
it's like omg!
lesson ended at 4PM.
visited the saloon to draw up a new image.
i cut my hair and re-dyed it.
much shorter.
oh man!
i miss my long hair!
this time round, i changed the shade of color i dye (:
overall, still not too bad.
mom said i looks ok (:
we shall see what the friends said ya.
was dead beat today.
watched tv till i fell aslp on the sofa.
walked back to my room, hoping to nap for a while.
but mom was like a buzzing bee!
kept refraining me from sleeping >:/
she dont want me to stay up late.
so that's why she dont wanna let me sleep.
urgh!
got up feeling so grouchy!
it sucks!
then after that, it was all good once again (:
cos im chatting with the turtle.
but then again, wth.
that someone talked to me.
seriously, i think im much happier without that person in my life.
it was stirring up too much problems and causing the emotional rollar coaster going on in me in the past.
now, without that person, all is good!
cos i have my turtle, i have my friends and many more standing by me!
i wanna learn diving!
i wanna go canoeing!
i wanna uhm..!
do lots of things that is!
anyway, i cant help saying, christmas is coming!
soon, very soon!
wheets!!
p/s: my eyes can barely open now ):
went for driving early in the morning.
everything was great (:
walked back to school.
it was another one hour before lessons start.
sat at the library and waited for that 2 guys.
ahahahahahas!
they cut their hair!
it's like omg!
lesson ended at 4PM.
visited the saloon to draw up a new image.
i cut my hair and re-dyed it.
much shorter.
oh man!
i miss my long hair!
this time round, i changed the shade of color i dye (:
overall, still not too bad.
mom said i looks ok (:
we shall see what the friends said ya.
was dead beat today.
watched tv till i fell aslp on the sofa.
walked back to my room, hoping to nap for a while.
but mom was like a buzzing bee!
kept refraining me from sleeping >:/
she dont want me to stay up late.
so that's why she dont wanna let me sleep.
urgh!
got up feeling so grouchy!
it sucks!
then after that, it was all good once again (:
cos im chatting with the turtle.
but then again, wth.
that someone talked to me.
seriously, i think im much happier without that person in my life.
it was stirring up too much problems and causing the emotional rollar coaster going on in me in the past.
now, without that person, all is good!
cos i have my turtle, i have my friends and many more standing by me!
i wanna learn diving!
i wanna go canoeing!
i wanna uhm..!
do lots of things that is!
anyway, i cant help saying, christmas is coming!
soon, very soon!
wheets!!
p/s: my eyes can barely open now ):
`三个心愿
BREAKAWAY!
Thursday, December 13, 2007 1:59 AM
FINALLY!!
everything is over!
for the time being though.
oh man!
holiday is coming up.
lots of works to catch up with.
and not forgetting having fun!
this's the season to be jolly.
fwalalalalalalalalaas!!
yeah!
christmas is coming!!
damn adriel!
im infected by your christmas spirit la!
HAHAHAHAHAS!
im mad.
anyway.
to my beloved turtle, i have decided to use my blog to spread the hyper-ness to you.
so yeah!
smile!
though it's kinda idiot to smile when i ask you to; for nothing somemore.
but then, think bout me!
and you will be happy (:
cos im cute XD
on the first day of christmas, my true love sent to me.
A partridge in a pear tree..
on the second day of christmas, my true love sent to me.
2 turtle doves, and a partridge in a pear tree..
On the ninth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Nine ladies dancing (i dont want! i want men dancing).
Eight maids a-milking
Seven swans a-swimming
Six geese a-laying
Five golden rings (i want diamond!)
Four calling birds (yeah! my friends are calling)
Three French hens (can i get itatly ones instead?)
Two turtle doves ( no need doves. turtle will do)
And a partridge in a pear tree.
oh well.
im really mad.
fwalalalalalalas!
i wanna do christmas shopping!
i wanna get away from town to celebrate my christmas!
my wish for santa, please rain money for a year, just for me!
i promise i will be a super good girl XD
oh dear!
i just recalled what turtle told me that sent 3 lines down the side of my head.
12th day of christmas is 5th of january!
everything is over!
for the time being though.
oh man!
holiday is coming up.
lots of works to catch up with.
and not forgetting having fun!
this's the season to be jolly.
fwalalalalalalalalaas!!
yeah!
christmas is coming!!
damn adriel!
im infected by your christmas spirit la!
HAHAHAHAHAS!
im mad.
anyway.
to my beloved turtle, i have decided to use my blog to spread the hyper-ness to you.
so yeah!
smile!
though it's kinda idiot to smile when i ask you to; for nothing somemore.
but then, think bout me!
and you will be happy (:
cos im cute XD
on the first day of christmas, my true love sent to me.
A partridge in a pear tree..
on the second day of christmas, my true love sent to me.
2 turtle doves, and a partridge in a pear tree..
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
On the ninth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Nine ladies dancing (i dont want! i want men dancing).
Eight maids a-milking
Seven swans a-swimming
Six geese a-laying
Five golden rings (i want diamond!)
Four calling birds (yeah! my friends are calling)
Three French hens (can i get itatly ones instead?)
Two turtle doves ( no need doves. turtle will do)
And a partridge in a pear tree.
oh well.
im really mad.
fwalalalalalalas!
i wanna do christmas shopping!
i wanna get away from town to celebrate my christmas!
my wish for santa, please rain money for a year, just for me!
i promise i will be a super good girl XD
oh dear!
i just recalled what turtle told me that sent 3 lines down the side of my head.
12th day of christmas is 5th of january!
`counting down : 5days!
silence is gold
Monday, December 10, 2007 11:23 PM
just reached home not long ago from school.
had dinner with turtle and doing UI.
omar is a big time joker man!
hahas.
but nevertheless, thanks for your help ((:
tired, hence moody.
need to rush my UI by today.
well, it's my fault.
i let shit happen to me all the time.
hahas.
along the way, there is so much obstacles.
comparing to the others, it may seems nothing.
but then, i find it kinda hard to bypass all this.
why?
i dont know.
am just not too good at controlling my feelings and emotions i guess.
ha!
it's again yet another day.
things were as usual.
was looking back at the first few months' entry.
find it so silly.
ahahahahas!
going back to do UI now.
toodles!
had dinner with turtle and doing UI.
omar is a big time joker man!
hahas.
but nevertheless, thanks for your help ((:
tired, hence moody.
need to rush my UI by today.
well, it's my fault.
i let shit happen to me all the time.
hahas.
along the way, there is so much obstacles.
comparing to the others, it may seems nothing.
but then, i find it kinda hard to bypass all this.
why?
i dont know.
am just not too good at controlling my feelings and emotions i guess.
ha!
it's again yet another day.
things were as usual.
was looking back at the first few months' entry.
find it so silly.
ahahahahas!
going back to do UI now.
toodles!
`you reap what you sow
once again
12:52 AM
once again, problems surfaced.
seriously, i dont get it.
im really not up to it in this 'game'.
really.
why do i put the agony on myself?
i really dont know what to do.
im caught in the middle.
anyway.
went out with turtle ytd.
no idea where we heading to.
hence, we walked around aimlessly.
it's really aimlessly.
we walked all the way from orchard to city hall (we ate, shop and drink on the way).
that's not too far.
an enjoyable one in fact.
esp on a cooling night with the breeze blowing against the face.
accompanying the walk, were the laughters and talks.
i rmb-ed the walk along chimes restaurant shelter walkway.
damn!
so many city creepy crawlies on top of us!
we were freaked out when i saw something dropped down.
we decided to walk outside of the shelter -.-
hahas!
it was ard 11plus that we decided to take a bus home.
on the way, i kept bugging her to eat.
hahas!
that's why she always call me a glutton -.-"
(hello turtle! it's cos im still undergoing puberty and my metabolism rate is high!)
(:
since 133 pass by lavender market, i bugged her to alight there to get my fav pancake.
after much persuasion, she agreed!
wheetS!!
took away cos for fear we would missed the last bus.
walked home from bus interchange back to my place.
found a seat under my block, and ate our pancakes.
satisifying!
reached home at 1am.
that's my sat.
oh well.
tmr is a monday.
and oh man!
turtle is trying to make me laugh again!
hahas!
alright.
show you the turtle and ass i've been mentioning ((:
seriously, i dont get it.
im really not up to it in this 'game'.
really.
why do i put the agony on myself?
i really dont know what to do.
im caught in the middle.
anyway.
went out with turtle ytd.
no idea where we heading to.
hence, we walked around aimlessly.
it's really aimlessly.
we walked all the way from orchard to city hall (we ate, shop and drink on the way).
that's not too far.
an enjoyable one in fact.
esp on a cooling night with the breeze blowing against the face.
accompanying the walk, were the laughters and talks.
i rmb-ed the walk along chimes restaurant shelter walkway.
damn!
so many city creepy crawlies on top of us!
we were freaked out when i saw something dropped down.
we decided to walk outside of the shelter -.-
hahas!
it was ard 11plus that we decided to take a bus home.
on the way, i kept bugging her to eat.
hahas!
that's why she always call me a glutton -.-"
(hello turtle! it's cos im still undergoing puberty and my metabolism rate is high!)
(:
since 133 pass by lavender market, i bugged her to alight there to get my fav pancake.
after much persuasion, she agreed!
wheetS!!
took away cos for fear we would missed the last bus.
walked home from bus interchange back to my place.
found a seat under my block, and ate our pancakes.
satisifying!
reached home at 1am.
that's my sat.
oh well.
tmr is a monday.
and oh man!
turtle is trying to make me laugh again!
hahas!
alright.
show you the turtle and ass i've been mentioning ((:
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`the best i ever had
rain rain go away!
Saturday, December 08, 2007 2:22 PM
meeting my turtle soon i guess.
but it is going to rain soon.
WO BU XI HUAN!!
i dont like!
so cold and windy.
and not forgetting wet!
sigh )):
where to later, turtle?
oh well, im enjoying life the way it is now.
but it is going to rain soon.
WO BU XI HUAN!!
i dont like!
so cold and windy.
and not forgetting wet!
sigh )):
where to later, turtle?
cant wait to get my hands on my own car.
i want i want!
i want this one!
oh well, im enjoying life the way it is now.
i am feeling the excitement in life.
wahahahahahahahahas!
i can feel the sweetness lingering in my life every now and then ((:
oh my!
wahahahahahahahahas!
i can feel the sweetness lingering in my life every now and then ((:
oh my!
`happy lil girl i am
chilly willy
Friday, December 07, 2007 1:49 AM
these few days are so chilly-willy.
so cold that i quit wearing shorts to school.
i wore jeans instead.
*blurrpp*
so cold.
i think im gonna hid under warm and cosy blanket later.
nothing interesting these weeks except hanging out with turtle more often.
in case you are wondering, turtle and pain is the same person.
she got a new nickname (:
all thanks to me of cos.
and i got myself a nickname too -.-"
2 or 3 nights back, i was rushing out my user interface for my proj.
stayed up till 4.30am.
and worst of all, that wong wong wong didnt check the next day!
oh!
wth!
i could have slept at 1plus!
and damn, turtle kept me company till like 3plus.
thought of ways to make me smile and all.
and she did la!
the flash makes me lmao!
thanks turtle!!
i've been complaining to her that im always hungry.
guess what.
she bought me foods/snacks.
wahahahahahahas!
i wont go hungry with her ard.
im even not allowed to go on diet =/
well well.
probably im tired or something.
trains of thought are running throught my mind again.
good and bad ones.
well.
i kept pondering on the sentence that i came across not long ago, "reaching your potential is what life is all about".
what does this tell me?
what is my potential i wonder.
i cant seems to find my potential let alone reaching it =/
anyhow, all of a sudden, i feel like dancing.
my passion for dance grew since dont know when.
but financial and time are the factors.
im not working now, and i doubt parents would support me to dance too.
time, maybe i need to do extra planning.
well well.
why am i thinking bout all these?
anyway, i guess i need to do something bout it soon.
i wanna do those who care for me proud.
from young, i am never good in studies.
no matter how hard i try, somewhere, somehow, it went wrong.
i cant seems to get it right.
nevertheless, i still have to say.
though my life is not as perfect like how i want it to be.
but im certaintely blessed with the awesome things and wonderful friends given to me.
thanks god.. .. ..
so cold that i quit wearing shorts to school.
i wore jeans instead.
*blurrpp*
so cold.
i think im gonna hid under warm and cosy blanket later.
nothing interesting these weeks except hanging out with turtle more often.
in case you are wondering, turtle and pain is the same person.
she got a new nickname (:
all thanks to me of cos.
and i got myself a nickname too -.-"
2 or 3 nights back, i was rushing out my user interface for my proj.
stayed up till 4.30am.
and worst of all, that wong wong wong didnt check the next day!
oh!
wth!
i could have slept at 1plus!
and damn, turtle kept me company till like 3plus.
thought of ways to make me smile and all.
and she did la!
the flash makes me lmao!
thanks turtle!!
i've been complaining to her that im always hungry.
guess what.
she bought me foods/snacks.
wahahahahahahas!
i wont go hungry with her ard.
im even not allowed to go on diet =/
well well.
probably im tired or something.
trains of thought are running throught my mind again.
good and bad ones.
well.
i kept pondering on the sentence that i came across not long ago, "reaching your potential is what life is all about".
what does this tell me?
what is my potential i wonder.
i cant seems to find my potential let alone reaching it =/
anyhow, all of a sudden, i feel like dancing.
my passion for dance grew since dont know when.
but financial and time are the factors.
im not working now, and i doubt parents would support me to dance too.
time, maybe i need to do extra planning.
well well.
why am i thinking bout all these?
anyway, i guess i need to do something bout it soon.
i wanna do those who care for me proud.
from young, i am never good in studies.
no matter how hard i try, somewhere, somehow, it went wrong.
i cant seems to get it right.
nevertheless, i still have to say.
though my life is not as perfect like how i want it to be.
but im certaintely blessed with the awesome things and wonderful friends given to me.
thanks god.. .. ..
`teardrops on my guitar
sweet sweeter sweetest
Sunday, December 02, 2007 3:04 AM
nothing exciting today except that i got to wake up later without any worries.
cos it is weekend.
but mom called and woke me up at 12.30pm i think.
irritating!
she asked me to the market with her.
i didnt regret going man.
cos she paid for my jeans =D
wahahahahahahas!!
im a happy lil girl!
went to granny's place in the later part of the day.
can tell granny was really glad that i came.
as i've always mention, she dote on me the most.
that's one fact i can't deny.
she is one motivation that motivates me to get my license asap.
cos i wanna drive her out.
sometimes, the things she said, really saddened me.
kept saying those things like "im dying im dying..".
whenever after dinner, she would ask me if i have school or work the next day.
if not, stay over at her place.
i really wish to.
but i can't.
i've got things to do.
no fear granny, i will stay over one day =D
again.
the pain is such a sweetie!
she bought me donuts again!
she knew i would be hungry.
so she bought me donuts from donut factory!
wahahahahahas!
silly her!
never fails to make me smile with her act.
thanks sweetie!
oh yea.
in case you have no idea who she is.
she is my new found friend.
even though we've been marketing classmates for almost one and the half sem.
*hurr hurr*
my new found friend who always crap with me.
and oh ya!
we shared a lot of common things man!
holy shit!
2 nights back, i was being questioned, if IT is really what i wanted.
am i prepared to go into IT world/ industry?
am i prepared to upgrade myself in times to come when i step into the working society as a IT personnel?
and etc.
after thinking, i am prepared.
i know what i wanted.
i admit i haven't really been putting effort into my studies.
i just settled down not long ago.
previously, i asked myself.
is it something wrong with my capability or is it purely myself being lazy?
and i've got my answer to my question.
and for that, i thank boyf for knocking sense into me.
thanks boyf, at least i know you care (:
heys pain! though i have never mention. thanks for everything! i really appreciated it (:
cos it is weekend.
but mom called and woke me up at 12.30pm i think.
irritating!
she asked me to the market with her.
i didnt regret going man.
cos she paid for my jeans =D
wahahahahahahas!!
im a happy lil girl!
went to granny's place in the later part of the day.
can tell granny was really glad that i came.
as i've always mention, she dote on me the most.
that's one fact i can't deny.
she is one motivation that motivates me to get my license asap.
cos i wanna drive her out.
sometimes, the things she said, really saddened me.
kept saying those things like "im dying im dying..".
whenever after dinner, she would ask me if i have school or work the next day.
if not, stay over at her place.
i really wish to.
but i can't.
i've got things to do.
no fear granny, i will stay over one day =D
again.
the pain is such a sweetie!
she bought me donuts again!
she knew i would be hungry.
so she bought me donuts from donut factory!
wahahahahahas!
silly her!
never fails to make me smile with her act.
thanks sweetie!
oh yea.
in case you have no idea who she is.
she is my new found friend.
even though we've been marketing classmates for almost one and the half sem.
*hurr hurr*
my new found friend who always crap with me.
and oh ya!
we shared a lot of common things man!
holy shit!
2 nights back, i was being questioned, if IT is really what i wanted.
am i prepared to go into IT world/ industry?
am i prepared to upgrade myself in times to come when i step into the working society as a IT personnel?
and etc.
after thinking, i am prepared.
i know what i wanted.
i admit i haven't really been putting effort into my studies.
i just settled down not long ago.
previously, i asked myself.
is it something wrong with my capability or is it purely myself being lazy?
and i've got my answer to my question.
and for that, i thank boyf for knocking sense into me.
thanks boyf, at least i know you care (:
heys pain! though i have never mention. thanks for everything! i really appreciated it (:
`i am blessed with wonderful things around me!
