Hey baby!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 2:18 AM
Heys baby! I know by the time you see this, it's already another brand new day for you. Well probably by now, you might have already felt better. But in any case, just wanted to remind you (no longer telling you), you still have me as your support. Like what you always, im just a call a way. Technology have already advanced so far till date. Make full use of it! Jia you baby! I believe you will pull through this ((: Goodnight! ILOVEYOU!
P/S: Egg or chicken comes first?
P/S: Egg or chicken comes first?
`looking back, we've come this far (:
Labels: Baby Turtle
Friday
Saturday, July 19, 2008 12:02 AM
//if i said im not jealous, im lying
Another week have past. Don't really feel like updating. Hahaha! I am pure lazy. But that can't be help. Things that have happened during the week, im lazy to blog it all. So shall summarise it all! Hahahas!
Monday, went grassroot club for dinner to celebrate dad's birthday. His birthday was actually on tuesday. Just happened that i was down for job training, so wont be free. The foods there are great and the prices are acceptable too! Cool! And i managed to find a job there there. The aunty very funny la. And we did took photos that night. Just that im lazy to post up. Hahaha! Convince me if you want to see them.
VB test on tuesday was crap man. Despite doing so many times, yet i don't know how to do during the test. Had LG job training in the evening. Was kinda crap. Ha! I was advised to trade in my sony ericsson phone -.-
Badminton session with cliques on wednesday. Burnt a few calories. Selegie tau hui and punggol nasi lemak with baby and g after that.
Ha! Highlights of the week. Thursday. Had dbms test which i think it was pretty alright. Of cos, how could it be not alright when Spencer, my dbms teacher was helping us all along? LOL! After school, went library to find baby while waiting for wen xun to come along. Hahaha! The cab driver that took her, or rather us, what the hell! I feel like boxing him man! From nyp go serangoon garden, need to go through EXPRESSWAY MEH?! From IMM to nyp need to pass by serangoon meh?! Uncle, i don't know singapore roads well but at least im not so dumb until like that lor!
After much time going through the long way, we finally reached serangoon garden. Headed to liquid kitchen for dinner and drink. Sai la! Both of us drink until damn high la. Nono. Wen xun more high. Hahahaha! She did...... something. But i can't tell. If not i will be slaughter by who else? Haha. But had a great time crapping and talking things out. Waited for G to come and pick me home after everything. Sorry to trouble you G.
I remembered last night i left my laptop and dbms book in G's car. And i thought the book was still in his car till i got home from school just now. I was so shocked to see it on my table la! LOL! When did i ever i brought it home? Okay. Put it this way. I remembered carrying something in my hand last night, but how the hell did the book ended up with me when i didnt even open G's car boot?!?! I seriously don't remember. I wasn't drunk, just high but sober. Why i cannot remember?! Hmm. Kinda pissed baby off last night when she knew i drank a lil too much. Sorry baby!
Well well. Will be working at Paragon M1 tmr. Drop by if you're free (: And i really dread weekends nowadays la! Working and ton-ing over at adriel's place to complete the damn proj. What the hell! Boring!
I am off =/
P/s: jiaen, why you peeped at my baby today?! Think i dont know ah! Hahahahas! She saw you too okay! LOL!
Another week have past. Don't really feel like updating. Hahaha! I am pure lazy. But that can't be help. Things that have happened during the week, im lazy to blog it all. So shall summarise it all! Hahahas!
Monday, went grassroot club for dinner to celebrate dad's birthday. His birthday was actually on tuesday. Just happened that i was down for job training, so wont be free. The foods there are great and the prices are acceptable too! Cool! And i managed to find a job there there. The aunty very funny la. And we did took photos that night. Just that im lazy to post up. Hahaha! Convince me if you want to see them.
VB test on tuesday was crap man. Despite doing so many times, yet i don't know how to do during the test. Had LG job training in the evening. Was kinda crap. Ha! I was advised to trade in my sony ericsson phone -.-
Badminton session with cliques on wednesday. Burnt a few calories. Selegie tau hui and punggol nasi lemak with baby and g after that.
Ha! Highlights of the week. Thursday. Had dbms test which i think it was pretty alright. Of cos, how could it be not alright when Spencer, my dbms teacher was helping us all along? LOL! After school, went library to find baby while waiting for wen xun to come along. Hahaha! The cab driver that took her, or rather us, what the hell! I feel like boxing him man! From nyp go serangoon garden, need to go through EXPRESSWAY MEH?! From IMM to nyp need to pass by serangoon meh?! Uncle, i don't know singapore roads well but at least im not so dumb until like that lor!
After much time going through the long way, we finally reached serangoon garden. Headed to liquid kitchen for dinner and drink. Sai la! Both of us drink until damn high la. Nono. Wen xun more high. Hahahaha! She did...... something. But i can't tell. If not i will be slaughter by who else? Haha. But had a great time crapping and talking things out. Waited for G to come and pick me home after everything. Sorry to trouble you G.
I remembered last night i left my laptop and dbms book in G's car. And i thought the book was still in his car till i got home from school just now. I was so shocked to see it on my table la! LOL! When did i ever i brought it home? Okay. Put it this way. I remembered carrying something in my hand last night, but how the hell did the book ended up with me when i didnt even open G's car boot?!?! I seriously don't remember. I wasn't drunk, just high but sober. Why i cannot remember?! Hmm. Kinda pissed baby off last night when she knew i drank a lil too much. Sorry baby!
Well well. Will be working at Paragon M1 tmr. Drop by if you're free (: And i really dread weekends nowadays la! Working and ton-ing over at adriel's place to complete the damn proj. What the hell! Boring!
I am off =/
P/s: jiaen, why you peeped at my baby today?! Think i dont know ah! Hahahahas! She saw you too okay! LOL!
`so near yet so far!
You are who you are
Saturday, July 12, 2008 10:10 PM
//don't wait till you lose something, then only you start learning to treasure
Guess what, something caught my attention while i watched the 9pm channel 8 show last night. Something that sets me thinking again. Actually, it wasn't so bad initially till i kept thinking bout it and plus while blog hopping just now, i came across a not so close friend's blog. And adding on was what one of my friend is going through. It really make me ponder more.
In the show, Jesseca Liu asked Christopher Lee, "我是不是很难相处? 我是不是很讨人厌?" (something like that). Christopher Lee laughed and replied, "你现在才知道啊? 可是你就是你啊， 何必要管人家怎样想呢？为什么要伪装自己来让别人喜欢你?".
Isn't what he said in the show true? Why must you change yourself just to let others like you? You are who you are, why must you be someone else whom you are not just to get yourself into other people's good book? Esp your friends, your lover. Why must you change just to please him or her? Why must you change for others and be what they want you to be?
Case 1, in my so called friend's blog, she was saying how her boyf don't like her to do this and that (like clubbing, pubbing, coming home late and stuffs) for fear she might being led astray or something. And so she really didnt. Case 2, another of my friend, was being 'controlled' by her boyf in a way if he don't like her to hang out with certain friends(guys), he will so called 'restrict' her from hanging out with them despite explaining that they are only friends.
Especially in r/s, why must one party restrict the other by determinating who they should hang out with, and who shouldnt? Why must the other party ask the other to change and to be who they want the other to be? Or take another case, friends. Why would they want to restrict their friends to stop hanging with so and so just because they don't like them? Why can't they give the other party freedom, wait till they cross the line then start setting rules?
But wait a minute, aren't trust one of the crucial thing in all r/s?
On the other hand, if it's for their own good, why not? Why not they change for the better? Why not listen to the other party and stay on the right track? It's really contradicting, aren't it?
Lucky for me, i wasn't so much of being restricted by baby. I still have much of a freedom except things that are for my own good, then she will start restricting me. For instance like she will forbid me from taking spicy stuffs at times cos i have gastric and stuffs.
Oh well. Tonight, there are more question marks than usual. Maybe i am too free or something, questions just kept popping out. I know it's contradicing. But i came up with a conclusion, accept others for who they are especially they are make this way, love them for what they are and not who you want them to be. And if you really want them to get rid of their die hard bad habits(eg bad-tempered), try your best to help and not demand them to change on their own.
Alright, that's quite a penny for thoughts. I am done nagging here. Off to own time now. Toodles!
P/S: It's nice having to know you are greatly missed by friends despite having not met for a long time i should say (:
Guess what, something caught my attention while i watched the 9pm channel 8 show last night. Something that sets me thinking again. Actually, it wasn't so bad initially till i kept thinking bout it and plus while blog hopping just now, i came across a not so close friend's blog. And adding on was what one of my friend is going through. It really make me ponder more.
In the show, Jesseca Liu asked Christopher Lee, "我是不是很难相处? 我是不是很讨人厌?" (something like that). Christopher Lee laughed and replied, "你现在才知道啊? 可是你就是你啊， 何必要管人家怎样想呢？为什么要伪装自己来让别人喜欢你?".
Isn't what he said in the show true? Why must you change yourself just to let others like you? You are who you are, why must you be someone else whom you are not just to get yourself into other people's good book? Esp your friends, your lover. Why must you change just to please him or her? Why must you change for others and be what they want you to be?
Case 1, in my so called friend's blog, she was saying how her boyf don't like her to do this and that (like clubbing, pubbing, coming home late and stuffs) for fear she might being led astray or something. And so she really didnt. Case 2, another of my friend, was being 'controlled' by her boyf in a way if he don't like her to hang out with certain friends(guys), he will so called 'restrict' her from hanging out with them despite explaining that they are only friends.
Especially in r/s, why must one party restrict the other by determinating who they should hang out with, and who shouldnt? Why must the other party ask the other to change and to be who they want the other to be? Or take another case, friends. Why would they want to restrict their friends to stop hanging with so and so just because they don't like them? Why can't they give the other party freedom, wait till they cross the line then start setting rules?
But wait a minute, aren't trust one of the crucial thing in all r/s?
On the other hand, if it's for their own good, why not? Why not they change for the better? Why not listen to the other party and stay on the right track? It's really contradicting, aren't it?
Lucky for me, i wasn't so much of being restricted by baby. I still have much of a freedom except things that are for my own good, then she will start restricting me. For instance like she will forbid me from taking spicy stuffs at times cos i have gastric and stuffs.
Oh well. Tonight, there are more question marks than usual. Maybe i am too free or something, questions just kept popping out. I know it's contradicing. But i came up with a conclusion, accept others for who they are especially they are make this way, love them for what they are and not who you want them to be. And if you really want them to get rid of their die hard bad habits(eg bad-tempered), try your best to help and not demand them to change on their own.
Alright, that's quite a penny for thoughts. I am done nagging here. Off to own time now. Toodles!
P/S: It's nice having to know you are greatly missed by friends despite having not met for a long time i should say (:
`Everyone have a choice, even you and me do
I.wanted.you
Friday, July 11, 2008 1:39 AM
/*I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you */
I actually managed to fight back tears all these while until what i saw reen tagged on my board. Thanks sis. Much loves!
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you */
I actually managed to fight back tears all these while until what i saw reen tagged on my board. Thanks sis. Much loves!
Dumb ass!
12:13 AM
//fuck off!
I am really in a damn bad mood now. Whenever i am being push to the limit, my mood will be damn super duper bad. Like what thefuck la! I am racing with the bloody freaking time! I hate it! I hate racing with time to complete my stuffs. First, i have to get the damn database up by this sunday. Second, vb practical and dbms test are on next week! And thirdly, i feel so damn bloody useless when janice is all alone doing iptnet for our group and she is having problem, but I CAN'T DO ANYTHING TO HELP! Why am i so stupid? Why don't i know a single shit bout iptnet and so i can help her?! I felt real damn bad!
I really feel like crying after enduring for so many days. Yes, i may put on a everything-is-fine face and bahave like everything is fine. But tmd! I really feel like blowing it all up already! And whenever i am feeling so damn bad, realising my laptop plays no sound, i even morefucked up! Music is one of the way to calm my soul. Now?! No sound?! Calm what fuck?!
I am feeling damn urgh now! Tell me how to make myself feel better except for opening my mouth and share with you! I really don't feel like opening my mouth anymore! For those who know me, you know there are ways to. You know how i am like - when i feel like sharing, i will. I need some ways to cool myself down, seriously. I feel like playing psp, but fuck! I will feel even more guilty and thus, more pissed off!
Nvm. I better keep my mouth shut and rot to death. Give me some time.
I am really in a damn bad mood now. Whenever i am being push to the limit, my mood will be damn super duper bad. Like what the
I really feel like crying after enduring for so many days. Yes, i may put on a everything-is-fine face and bahave like everything is fine. But tmd! I really feel like blowing it all up already! And whenever i am feeling so damn bad, realising my laptop plays no sound, i even more
I am feeling damn urgh now! Tell me how to make myself feel better except for opening my mouth and share with you! I really don't feel like opening my mouth anymore! For those who know me, you know there are ways to. You know how i am like - when i feel like sharing, i will. I need some ways to cool myself down, seriously. I feel like playing psp, but fuck! I will feel even more guilty and thus, more pissed off!
Nvm. I better keep my mouth shut and rot to death. Give me some time.
`It hurts when i think that you understand me
A simple act of love
Wednesday, July 09, 2008 7:00 AM
You might be surprise. For a not so morning person like me, i actually am blogging at this time. What is the world coming to? Hahaha! But well you see, i was very tired last night and hence i decided to hit the bed at 11pm. First time after so long that i actually sleep before midnight. Wow! And i sleep through the night soundly without any nightmares! This a good thing okay! =D And i actually woke up before it rains.
And right. Yesterday was our 6th month-niversary. It goes the same for jiaen and her boy boy (: Hahahas! (Jiaen, so how you 2 celebrated? share with me eh!) Anyway, it was a just any other normal days. Woke up, rushed for school. Reached school, not so interesting lessons started. But what makes it special was by a simple act of love (:
Woke baby up at 11am as she is having lesson at 12noon. When she replied me, she said she leaving house or something. Asked what color would i choose from - green, pink and orange. I chose green thinking that she might need a little help with something for herself(like clothing, and etc). Asked where will i be having lesson and will i still be there at 1pm. Hmm. This sounded a bit fishy, sets me thinking what is she up to?
Got a msg from baby asking me to go outside of my class. The moment i saw baby, she was holding a bouquet of flowers with a green carebear! I was like omg! I wasn't even prepared for it! (': Thanks baby! I was really lost for words and that i don't know what to say. I feel like just giving her a tight hug! But with people walking ard, i controlled myself =/
Monkey rho rho have a new friend =D
Aren't my baby sweet? Iloveyoubabygirl! (:
Oh well, that's bout all. Have gotta prepare to go school soon. Am having an interview later on in the afternoon. So toodles! Have a good day people (:
And right. Yesterday was our 6th month-niversary. It goes the same for jiaen and her boy boy (: Hahahas! (Jiaen, so how you 2 celebrated? share with me eh!) Anyway, it was a just any other normal days. Woke up, rushed for school. Reached school, not so interesting lessons started. But what makes it special was by a simple act of love (:
Woke baby up at 11am as she is having lesson at 12noon. When she replied me, she said she leaving house or something. Asked what color would i choose from - green, pink and orange. I chose green thinking that she might need a little help with something for herself(like clothing, and etc). Asked where will i be having lesson and will i still be there at 1pm. Hmm. This sounded a bit fishy, sets me thinking what is she up to?
Got a msg from baby asking me to go outside of my class. The moment i saw baby, she was holding a bouquet of flowers with a green carebear! I was like omg! I wasn't even prepared for it! (': Thanks baby! I was really lost for words and that i don't know what to say. I feel like just giving her a tight hug! But with people walking ard, i controlled myself =/
Monkey rho rho have a new friend =D
Aren't my baby sweet? Iloveyoubabygirl! (:
Oh well, that's bout all. Have gotta prepare to go school soon. Am having an interview later on in the afternoon. So toodles! Have a good day people (:
`Love is what you make it and with whom you make it; it is what it is.
Labels: Baby Turtle
Half year
Tuesday, July 08, 2008 1:15 AM
//Yes, i admit i am jealous indeed.
As i often said, time passed in a blink of an eye. It's already 6months. These past months were full of ups and downs. Many things i understand and went through along the way. Indeed, i admit, i've grown up a bit more in terms of mentality. Bout relationship, bout everything. Ha, is it a good thing?
Just had my dinner barely an hour ago. Was so occupied with things today till i can barely breathe. Occupied with database in school. Upon reaching home, only had time to bathe, make up and nothing else. Was out as soon as i reached home. Ahhhhh! I lost the yellow string my mom got me from the temple. I wore it for just a day. WTF! I am damn pissed with myself. And i only realised after a long day! )): WTF! I am still very disturbed by it la!
Anyway, i survived. Reached home around 11.30pm. I almost died!
Tmr will be another long day for me. It's tuesday! Meaning there will only be one hour break in between and there's project meetup after school till bout 8! Holy cow! Is this a good thing too? =/ Sigh. Just a day, i am starting to feel the stress already. It's draining me out )): But i hope i will always keep this momentum though.
Due to the increasing stress, i think my temper are getting out of hands lately.I am getting short-fused again. I gets so irritated/unhappy over every little single things ): I just wanna break free from everything!!! @#$%^&*(&!
p/s: Baby, happy 6th.
`my hands trembled a bit while holding the card while trying to fight back tears
As i often said, time passed in a blink of an eye. It's already 6months. These past months were full of ups and downs. Many things i understand and went through along the way. Indeed, i admit, i've grown up a bit more in terms of mentality. Bout relationship, bout everything. Ha, is it a good thing?
Just had my dinner barely an hour ago. Was so occupied with things today till i can barely breathe. Occupied with database in school. Upon reaching home, only had time to bathe, make up and nothing else. Was out as soon as i reached home. Ahhhhh! I lost the yellow string my mom got me from the temple. I wore it for just a day. WTF! I am damn pissed with myself. And i only realised after a long day! )): WTF! I am still very disturbed by it la!
Anyway, i survived. Reached home around 11.30pm. I almost died!
Tmr will be another long day for me. It's tuesday! Meaning there will only be one hour break in between and there's project meetup after school till bout 8! Holy cow! Is this a good thing too? =/ Sigh. Just a day, i am starting to feel the stress already. It's draining me out )): But i hope i will always keep this momentum though.
Due to the increasing stress, i think my temper are getting out of hands lately.I am getting short-fused again. I gets so irritated/unhappy over every little single things ): I just wanna break free from everything!!! @#$%^&*(&!
p/s: Baby, happy 6th.
Title-less
Monday, July 07, 2008 1:04 AM
//Till then, i will still be standing strong.
Today is another rather productive yet lazy day cos i've got the database, everything nicely up running. That's one thing i am glad about. Though it's not that difficult, but for a dumb person like me, i needed a bit more time compared to the rest. Hopefully this is the thing Dr Tan wanna see tmr. And damn! I have a test tomorrow! Aren't really prepared for it. It's madness for i will be doing a test after barely 2hours from my wake up time. I bet my brain engine haven't even started la!
This week have been a rather good girl. Didn't stay out late except friday night, going over to adriel's house to do database. Come to think of it, it's a bit dumb. Cos i got it done in a few hours alone. Shouldn't have sacrifice my sleeping time -.-
Saturday, went for the F1 event interview. Hopefully i get in. Doesn't matter which position so long i get in. I just wanna watch F1!! Whoohoo! I am just keeping my fingers real crossed. Lady luck please shine on me, i am willing to be your salve =D Walked from boat quay to orchard before heading home with baby and vivian. Ate, joked and whatever along the way. Vivian is damn crappy la! Lol! I am not surprise =D Reached home rather early for the first time after so long. Didnt wanna leave mom alone at home as dad and bro went ipoh. Another reason was cos mom was sorta unhappy me for not going out with her. So to avoid the naggings, i better go home earlier. Slept rather early too, i was too tired after barely having enough sleep for the past few days.
Oh well. Nothing much to update. I also don't know how to continue already. I am feeling so crappy while on the phone with G. Even now on msn. Waaaa! Why many of my friends so lame oneeeeee! Lol! Never mind. It's good. Let their virus infect me, then i will be able to take my mind off everything unpleasant (:
Alright, preparing to go in hibernation mode soon. Later still got test! Sians!! See my pretty face first (: Dear all, remember my pretty face with my smile only even if i die in a horrible state(TOUCH WOOD!) one day okay! Forget bout my everything except my face with a smile! Wahahahahas! Okay, you all can go already. Thanks for your time =D
Today is another rather productive yet lazy day cos i've got the database, everything nicely up running. That's one thing i am glad about. Though it's not that difficult, but for a dumb person like me, i needed a bit more time compared to the rest. Hopefully this is the thing Dr Tan wanna see tmr. And damn! I have a test tomorrow! Aren't really prepared for it. It's madness for i will be doing a test after barely 2hours from my wake up time. I bet my brain engine haven't even started la!
This week have been a rather good girl. Didn't stay out late except friday night, going over to adriel's house to do database. Come to think of it, it's a bit dumb. Cos i got it done in a few hours alone. Shouldn't have sacrifice my sleeping time -.-
Saturday, went for the F1 event interview. Hopefully i get in. Doesn't matter which position so long i get in. I just wanna watch F1!! Whoohoo! I am just keeping my fingers real crossed. Lady luck please shine on me, i am willing to be your salve =D Walked from boat quay to orchard before heading home with baby and vivian. Ate, joked and whatever along the way. Vivian is damn crappy la! Lol! I am not surprise =D Reached home rather early for the first time after so long. Didnt wanna leave mom alone at home as dad and bro went ipoh. Another reason was cos mom was sorta unhappy me for not going out with her. So to avoid the naggings, i better go home earlier. Slept rather early too, i was too tired after barely having enough sleep for the past few days.
First buddy known in NYP (:
Sunday was rather well spent at home. Was satisfied for i had replenished my sleep(though i would wish i could sleep on for another 24hours). It was very peaceful at home. No wars, no nothing (: Waaaaaa! Dammmmmnnnnnnn shiooooooooooooooook! Wahahahahahhas!Oh well. Nothing much to update. I also don't know how to continue already. I am feeling so crappy while on the phone with G. Even now on msn. Waaaa! Why many of my friends so lame oneeeeee! Lol! Never mind. It's good. Let their virus infect me, then i will be able to take my mind off everything unpleasant (:
Alright, preparing to go in hibernation mode soon. Later still got test! Sians!! See my pretty face first (: Dear all, remember my pretty face with my smile only even if i die in a horrible state(TOUCH WOOD!) one day okay! Forget bout my everything except my face with a smile! Wahahahahas! Okay, you all can go already. Thanks for your time =D
`A smile that hides everything deep within
Neautral
Friday, July 04, 2008 12:40 AM
//Message to my love:
Life doesn't always go the way we wanted to. There are also times when we go through ups and downs. But don't forget bout those around you who cares for you. People around you are here for a reason. They are being sent here to be your pillar of strength and support. They are not here for the sake of being here. They are here to share your joy and cheer you on when you are feeling down. They love you for who you are. No matter what happened, they will still hold on to you like a precious gem because you are special to them in a way. So quit apologising, instead, start to put on your smile again (:
I know it's near impossible to expect you to open up now. And i know the problem that is bothering you is really not an easy matter to get over with (if not, you won't behave this way). But like i always said, no point keeping to yourself for nobody will understand what you're going through. Don't be too hard on yourself, baby. You know, i always wanted to be there for you though i might not be the first one you turn to. It just simply hurts me to see how miserable you're feeling and yet you refuse to open up to anyone.
But no matter how long im gonna wait for you to get over it. I will. Cos you will always be the one i hold dearly to and love much.
I felt rather accomplished tonight no doubt it was rather disatrous for me during the day before that. I felt accomplished for first time after so long in dbms lab lesson, i did most of the questions(excluding those i really have no idea how to do) myself. For this, i really should give myself a pat on my shoulder. Okay *pat pat* and say "keep up the good work, rhowena". =D But credit should go to Spencer, my dbms teacher too (:
Oh well, you might be asking why am i still feeling so optimistic today despite all that's happening lately. Cos i believe the power of positive thinking. I believe that things will change for the better for me, and baby (: I willtry my very best to remain optimistic ((:
Alright, it's time to wash off the masque on my face and have a good bath. I think i deserve it after a long day. Toodles (:
Life doesn't always go the way we wanted to. There are also times when we go through ups and downs. But don't forget bout those around you who cares for you. People around you are here for a reason. They are being sent here to be your pillar of strength and support. They are not here for the sake of being here. They are here to share your joy and cheer you on when you are feeling down. They love you for who you are. No matter what happened, they will still hold on to you like a precious gem because you are special to them in a way. So quit apologising, instead, start to put on your smile again (:
I know it's near impossible to expect you to open up now. And i know the problem that is bothering you is really not an easy matter to get over with (if not, you won't behave this way). But like i always said, no point keeping to yourself for nobody will understand what you're going through. Don't be too hard on yourself, baby. You know, i always wanted to be there for you though i might not be the first one you turn to. It just simply hurts me to see how miserable you're feeling and yet you refuse to open up to anyone.
But no matter how long im gonna wait for you to get over it. I will. Cos you will always be the one i hold dearly to and love much.
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I felt rather accomplished tonight no doubt it was rather disatrous for me during the day before that. I felt accomplished for first time after so long in dbms lab lesson, i did most of the questions(excluding those i really have no idea how to do) myself. For this, i really should give myself a pat on my shoulder. Okay *pat pat* and say "keep up the good work, rhowena". =D But credit should go to Spencer, my dbms teacher too (:
Oh well, you might be asking why am i still feeling so optimistic today despite all that's happening lately. Cos i believe the power of positive thinking. I believe that things will change for the better for me, and baby (: I will
Alright, it's time to wash off the masque on my face and have a good bath. I think i deserve it after a long day. Toodles (:
`Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for; it is a thing to be achieved - William Jennings Bryan
Misses
Thursday, July 03, 2008 1:06 AM
I think baby is sleeping ever since just now! BABY! WAKE UP WEE WEE ALREADY! Sigh. All of a sudden, i am missing my baby like abcdefg....! Urgh! I wanna see her like now, NOW! Sigh. I want a hug from her ):
Anyway, pardon me for the previous emo post. No worries bout that. I am coping fine (: Just finding some source to voice out, to make myself feel better that's all. Oh well, im feeling so hungry now. Jialat!
Oh yes, mervyn asked me to blog bout him. So i am doing so now. Hahahaha! Heys buddy! Thanks for the constant concerns (: I really appreciated it. Thanks for being there for me always! You're great! =D
Okay, this post seems to be so random and in a mess. And i sound so nonsensical. Hmmm, swimming, basketball or badminton? I am craving for badminton though. Nobody wants to play with me )): I am putting on weight due to not exercising often )):
AHHHHHHHH! I dont know what else to update la. I just want my baby to be right here with me now!!! )):
Anyway, pardon me for the previous emo post. No worries bout that. I am coping fine (: Just finding some source to voice out, to make myself feel better that's all. Oh well, im feeling so hungry now. Jialat!
Oh yes, mervyn asked me to blog bout him. So i am doing so now. Hahahaha! Heys buddy! Thanks for the constant concerns (: I really appreciated it. Thanks for being there for me always! You're great! =D
Okay, this post seems to be so random and in a mess. And i sound so nonsensical. Hmmm, swimming, basketball or badminton? I am craving for badminton though. Nobody wants to play with me )): I am putting on weight due to not exercising often )):
AHHHHHHHH! I dont know what else to update la. I just want my baby to be right here with me now!!! )):
`life is bout making choices
Labels: Baby Turtle
Downhill
Wednesday, July 02, 2008 2:40 AM
Everything is so much screwed up for me lately. Seems like my life is going downhill in the upcoming days. So much i wish to express what's deep within, but i just can't seems to find the right words to put it across. One thing for sure, it's not easy being the eldest in the family having to shoulder some of the responsibilities in my family. How i wish i could just go back to 15years ago when i am still a kid. The days when i only worried that i have nobody/toys to play with, no candies to munch on and when i am still the only child. Most importantly, days when i am oblivious to what's going on in the adult world; society.
From young, I've never seen dad so dejected before. I never know what mom is going through, but somehow i understand her hardships. It's not easy to support a family, having 2 not-so-easy-to-handle kid. I admit, sometimes i really dislike my mom for how she discipline and control me and dad unable to give me the things i wanted at times. But deep in my heart, i love my parents, family too. I just wish to run to my parents and give them a hug and cry real hard like a baby in their arms. I know they love and care for me no matter how i pisses them off.
Despite all that i am going through now, i know I've to stay strong. I have to keep it going, i will not give up. Instead of frowning over the problems i am facing now, i should think of solutions. I felt so useless for i am unable to help. But hopefully everything will be alright, very soon.
And baby, i know we are going through some kinda rough patch again. But hold on to me like you always do, will you? I assured you that it will be fine soon, i hope. I still love you so.
From young, I've never seen dad so dejected before. I never know what mom is going through, but somehow i understand her hardships. It's not easy to support a family, having 2 not-so-easy-to-handle kid. I admit, sometimes i really dislike my mom for how she discipline and control me and dad unable to give me the things i wanted at times. But deep in my heart, i love my parents, family too. I just wish to run to my parents and give them a hug and cry real hard like a baby in their arms. I know they love and care for me no matter how i pisses them off.
Despite all that i am going through now, i know I've to stay strong. I have to keep it going, i will not give up. Instead of frowning over the problems i am facing now, i should think of solutions. I felt so useless for i am unable to help. But hopefully everything will be alright, very soon.
And baby, i know we are going through some kinda rough patch again. But hold on to me like you always do, will you? I assured you that it will be fine soon, i hope. I still love you so.
`We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. The expecteds just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.
