SIANSATION
Saturday, March 29, 2008 3:35 PM
I am at my grand's place now. Staying over another night as she told me she will be alone this upcoming week. Cos my 2 cousins left overseas today. My aunt and uncle james are seldom at home, 2nd uncle is also away ever since dont know when. So it will only be the maid and grand. Granny asked me to come over after work as she said she will be alone. That's why here am i.
I am so freaking bored now. Cos nobody else is at home except the maid and I. Granny went out with aunt to carrefour I think. That's what she said when she called just now. Said she will be coming home soon to cook dinner.
Oh ya. I guessed i haven't tell you guys how i ended up in my grand's place. Here is how it goes. Listen hard ah! Wrong wrong! Is read carefully! Yesterday evening, doreen called me on my cellphone saying granny wanted me to come and stay over cos aunt doria is leaving early this morning. So i came. I told baby i cant sleep without my 2 small pillows and expected, she asked me to bring. Hahahahas! But of cos, without her telling me that, i will bring my 2 baobeiS along. My baobeiS since young eh! Hahahahahas!
Didnt really sleep well last night as there were too much disturbances =/ I guess i gonna get a nap later while waiting for granny to come home. *yawns*
Oh ya. Work today was pretty alright. One little girl was so cute. Okay. Practically all the kids are cute to me. As i was saying.. Oh ya! Little girl. She came to me with her rubber bands and asked me to tie 2 lil ponytails for her cos it came loose i guess. Just now as my colleagues went for her lunch break, one parent came up to me and made some queries. I felt as if i was bullshitting la. I dont even know am i right by saying all those. Hahahahas! But well. I did make a bit of sense though =P
I dont know. Whenever I am at work, i looked at those teachers and kids. I cant help feeling a sense of low-esteem. I feel i can never be a teacher. I am afraid that i cant do a good job to educate those kids. I feel i cannot be as good as those teachers. But i do wanna be one cos it will really be a great feeling if you manage to educate those kids and create a bond between you and them. This is one thing i know for sure (:
You know what are the things i like bout kids? Yes. It's their naive-ness and they are very innocent. But whenever weekends are approaching, I'll always dread to go work cos it's far from my place and i gotta wake up so early =/ However, when i reach my workplace, the kids just somewhat, somehow will put a smile on my face (: The people at the coffeeshop are very friendly too. Practically, i enjoy my work. It leaves me a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day after work (:
Oh well. Enough of rantings. I am off to take a nap. Hopefully. I wanna jump into the swimming pool now! Hahahahahas! IMISSMYBABY!! ):
I am so freaking bored now. Cos nobody else is at home except the maid and I. Granny went out with aunt to carrefour I think. That's what she said when she called just now. Said she will be coming home soon to cook dinner.
Oh ya. I guessed i haven't tell you guys how i ended up in my grand's place. Here is how it goes. Listen hard ah! Wrong wrong! Is read carefully! Yesterday evening, doreen called me on my cellphone saying granny wanted me to come and stay over cos aunt doria is leaving early this morning. So i came. I told baby i cant sleep without my 2 small pillows and expected, she asked me to bring. Hahahahas! But of cos, without her telling me that, i will bring my 2 baobeiS along. My baobeiS since young eh! Hahahahahas!
Didnt really sleep well last night as there were too much disturbances =/ I guess i gonna get a nap later while waiting for granny to come home. *yawns*
Oh ya. Work today was pretty alright. One little girl was so cute. Okay. Practically all the kids are cute to me. As i was saying.. Oh ya! Little girl. She came to me with her rubber bands and asked me to tie 2 lil ponytails for her cos it came loose i guess. Just now as my colleagues went for her lunch break, one parent came up to me and made some queries. I felt as if i was bullshitting la. I dont even know am i right by saying all those. Hahahahas! But well. I did make a bit of sense though =P
I dont know. Whenever I am at work, i looked at those teachers and kids. I cant help feeling a sense of low-esteem. I feel i can never be a teacher. I am afraid that i cant do a good job to educate those kids. I feel i cannot be as good as those teachers. But i do wanna be one cos it will really be a great feeling if you manage to educate those kids and create a bond between you and them. This is one thing i know for sure (:
You know what are the things i like bout kids? Yes. It's their naive-ness and they are very innocent. But whenever weekends are approaching, I'll always dread to go work cos it's far from my place and i gotta wake up so early =/ However, when i reach my workplace, the kids just somewhat, somehow will put a smile on my face (: The people at the coffeeshop are very friendly too. Practically, i enjoy my work. It leaves me a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day after work (:
Oh well. Enough of rantings. I am off to take a nap. Hopefully. I wanna jump into the swimming pool now! Hahahahahas! IMISSMYBABY!! ):
Clubbing
Friday, March 28, 2008 3:43 AM
Met baby in the afternoon to do ez-link card. She asked me to go yishun interchange with her to make it. But upon reaching there, we were told that we gotta go amk interchange instead. Hahahas! She is damn hyper la. But haha. Still bearable. Lol! Look what she did on the train.
Went clubbing at St James Powerhouse with aunty doria last night. Didnt wanna go initially. But she wanted to go. So no choice. Went along with her after going out with mom. Waited for her at Harbourfront mrt for half an hour -.-"
It was rather crowded last night. All party animals ahhhh. Hahaas! Hmm. It was okay. Wasnt as fun as i thought. Or maybe cos there's only 2 of us that's why. But co-incidentally I met peiying at powerhouse (: Slacked around powerhouse for a while before we go over to Berlin Room to chill out. Had a bit too much last night. So ended kinda tipsy =X Cabbed home, called baby. And slept at 4am. Was feeling so nauseaous. Damn =/
Met up with baby again today to make her ez-link at amk interchange before she went for work. Though it's only for a while. But it's all good (: I enjoy her company (:
Silly silly baby. She has been sprouting nonsenses non stop tonight. Lol! But nevertheless, i still love her! (: She never fails to make me smile with whatever she did. Hahahas! Silly girl!
Alright. Im off. Headache and gastric have acting up often lately =/
Happy birthday baby!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008 4:33 AM
Oh my god la! My whole house reeks of durian now. I am choked on the smell now! *pinch nose* Not that i dont like durians. Just that the smell is too overwhelming already! At this hour somemore, im hungry! Hahahahas!
Anyway, as mentioned in the previous entry, my plan was screwed right. Well. I am happy now (: Cos i managed to carry it out in the last hour of baby's birthday. At least, I made it in time (: I was still quite worried i wont be able to do it in time due to the car issue, and what if i carry out the plan, baby dont like it? What if she dont like the gifts? All these have been weighing on my mind all this while. But i was really relieved it all turned all great. Baby was being surprised (i hope) and she like the gifts too ((: *Phew*
Oh well. Had lunch and caught Step Up 2 yesterday afternoon. Wasn't too bad. It's nice. Or rather, the company was great. So yea. After the movie, walked around for a while. Baby kept asking me to get that Mario tee with her. I dont want. Hahahas! Then called dad to ask where is the car.
Headed back home to get the car and out again! Before driving to toa payoh for dinner, i went to central to get cake. Just a small slice though cos i know she will be having another one at home later. Kept the bottle and cake well in my bag (: I think i am in love with the dry ban mian now. Hahahas! It's really nice. And come to think of it now, I am getting hungry =P
After dinner, gave her the first surprise in the car (: Drove to Tanjong Rhu for the upcoming surprises. Not that it's a must to do it there. But just find that place is very beautiful. So yea. Walked around and got ourselves a seat. 2nd surprise! The cake! She was told to close her eyes, while i lighted the candle and sang her birthday song. She was speechless i guess cos she didnt say anything except to look at me and keep smiling to herself. Hmm.
Left the place, gotta send her back before 12. So yea. As we were walking, i told her to go to the back seat upon reaching the car for the 3rd surprise. But before she got her surprise, i got mine first! I saw tickets on the rest of the cars! I searched around the car area just in case it fly off or something. I was really really scared i would get one too la! Oh yes. Back to her. She was shocked to see big dale the chipmunk sitting on the floor. Hahahas!
Reached carpark after sending her home. Got a call from her that she lost her wallet. Drove back to her place and searched the car. Couldnt find. Decided to drive back to Tanjong Rhu again just in case she dropped there. As i walked down to the spot where i parked my car earlier, I conveniently took a look at those tickets on the rest of the cars. Kuku la! The carpark attandance was already there long before i reached! Freak the daylight out of me man! Bloody hell!
Well baby. Look at the bright side of life. Who knows someone might just find it and return to you (: Cheer up. Whenever you're unhappy, remember, dale and i will be there for you. I really envy dale. You hug him the whole night and he can sleep beside you =/ But it's alright. He will be substitude when i am not around (:
Okay. I better end now. Baby is waiting for me to go off. I haven't bathe too =X Alright. I am off!
Anyway, as mentioned in the previous entry, my plan was screwed right. Well. I am happy now (: Cos i managed to carry it out in the last hour of baby's birthday. At least, I made it in time (: I was still quite worried i wont be able to do it in time due to the car issue, and what if i carry out the plan, baby dont like it? What if she dont like the gifts? All these have been weighing on my mind all this while. But i was really relieved it all turned all great. Baby was being surprised (i hope) and she like the gifts too ((: *Phew*
Oh well. Had lunch and caught Step Up 2 yesterday afternoon. Wasn't too bad. It's nice. Or rather, the company was great. So yea. After the movie, walked around for a while. Baby kept asking me to get that Mario tee with her. I dont want. Hahahas! Then called dad to ask where is the car.
Headed back home to get the car and out again! Before driving to toa payoh for dinner, i went to central to get cake. Just a small slice though cos i know she will be having another one at home later. Kept the bottle and cake well in my bag (: I think i am in love with the dry ban mian now. Hahahas! It's really nice. And come to think of it now, I am getting hungry =P
After dinner, gave her the first surprise in the car (: Drove to Tanjong Rhu for the upcoming surprises. Not that it's a must to do it there. But just find that place is very beautiful. So yea. Walked around and got ourselves a seat. 2nd surprise! The cake! She was told to close her eyes, while i lighted the candle and sang her birthday song. She was speechless i guess cos she didnt say anything except to look at me and keep smiling to herself. Hmm.
Left the place, gotta send her back before 12. So yea. As we were walking, i told her to go to the back seat upon reaching the car for the 3rd surprise. But before she got her surprise, i got mine first! I saw tickets on the rest of the cars! I searched around the car area just in case it fly off or something. I was really really scared i would get one too la! Oh yes. Back to her. She was shocked to see big dale the chipmunk sitting on the floor. Hahahas!
Reached carpark after sending her home. Got a call from her that she lost her wallet. Drove back to her place and searched the car. Couldnt find. Decided to drive back to Tanjong Rhu again just in case she dropped there. As i walked down to the spot where i parked my car earlier, I conveniently took a look at those tickets on the rest of the cars. Kuku la! The carpark attandance was already there long before i reached! Freak the daylight out of me man! Bloody hell!
Well baby. Look at the bright side of life. Who knows someone might just find it and return to you (: Cheer up. Whenever you're unhappy, remember, dale and i will be there for you. I really envy dale. You hug him the whole night and he can sleep beside you =/ But it's alright. He will be substitude when i am not around (:
Okay. I better end now. Baby is waiting for me to go off. I haven't bathe too =X Alright. I am off!
`Mission complete!
Screwed
Monday, March 24, 2008 9:59 PM
Felt better after crying out and talking to doreen. Thanks sis (: But i still cant help feeling upset again when all is screwed. Thinking bout it, i feel like crying even more. Forget it ):
`why doesnt it go the way i wanted?
Blurrppp!
Friday, March 21, 2008 3:16 AM
Oops! I havent bathe. Hurr hurr. Cos I just reached home not long ago. And im still full from the supper. As usual, went to prata house. Come on la. How many places will i ever go? But was rather reluctant to drive there initially as the parking there is all parallel. Oh my la! "How to survive this," i asked myself. My vertical parking can barely pass, now ask me do parallel?! Hmm. But well. I survived (: I was very scared at first. You know the only fear while driving for me is 'injure' my dad's baobei. If it's slightly disfigure, i'll be in for it =/ So i must be extra careful when driving. 3 things to bear in mind if i drive. They are no driving over speed limit, no driving dangerously and must take super good care of the car (: yeah!
My brother just came in and asked "who killed ah bao?". Lame! I heard before but forgot. I told him char siew at first. It was the wrong answer. Eventually, i remembered the answer (: Bingo! He still asked me how i know -.-" Ha. Tell me is it lame or is it lame? Straight after asking me, he went back to bed.
Anyway, back to prata house. Today i tried a new kinda prata. It's called the bomb prata. For those who dont know, it's a kinda sweet prata cos there's honey inside. Hmm. Why is it called bomb when there's only honey inside? Does honey explode i wonder. Is honey one of the ingredients to make bomb? Well, just some qualms on it. Ah! Maybe it does you know. Cos what goes in must come out. And no, it's not explosive. But it is one of the ingredients that contribute to bomb! So doubts cleared! Still dont get it? Bomb == Sh*t! Whooohooo! I am smart! I solved the equation! Wheets!
My brother just came in and asked "who killed ah bao?". Lame! I heard before but forgot. I told him char siew at first. It was the wrong answer. Eventually, i remembered the answer (: Bingo! He still asked me how i know -.-" Ha. Tell me is it lame or is it lame? Straight after asking me, he went back to bed.
Anyway, back to prata house. Today i tried a new kinda prata. It's called the bomb prata. For those who dont know, it's a kinda sweet prata cos there's honey inside. Hmm. Why is it called bomb when there's only honey inside? Does honey explode i wonder. Is honey one of the ingredients to make bomb? Well, just some qualms on it. Ah! Maybe it does you know. Cos what goes in must come out. And no, it's not explosive. But it is one of the ingredients that contribute to bomb! So doubts cleared! Still dont get it? Bomb == Sh*t! Whooohooo! I am smart! I solved the equation! Wheets!
Give me 1 clap! : *Piak*
Give me 2 claps! : *Piak Piak*
Give me many many claps : *Piak Piak Piak Piak Piak Piak Piak Piak Piak Piak non stop*
Ok ok. Relax. Sorry. Self-indulged in my own world just now. Lalalalas! I am very full la! HOW!! I still havent bathe!! I was still telling marcus tmr go swimming. Asked him to wake me up at 10am. You think i can? Hahahahas!
Was feeling so emotional lately. I dont know how or why. Felt like crying while i laughed just now. Hahas. I must be mad. But well. I hate it la. Oh ya. Sumin put up my cute photos already. Thanks ah sumin. Hahahas!
Wa lao eh! I cannot find the things i want la! And my pimples popping out again la! Bye bye!
Sleepyhead
Wednesday, March 19, 2008 5:00 PM
Again, today is another rainy day. The thunder roared so loud that made me jumped so hard. And moreover, I am alone at home. That time when thunder roared, my fridge was open. I was thinking if the electri exit from the fridge and shock me how?! This kinda thinking is exactly like my grandma. There's once we were watching tv at her house. All of a sudden, the thunder roared so loud and lightning began to strike. She immediately stood up and off the tv. Then started saying "See! Thunder so loud must off tv ah. If not later the electricity come out from the tv then you know ah. Will get electrocuted!". But of cos, i am not old yet okay! Just that im afraid! Bleah!
Anyway, it's kinda unusual that i will get less than 8hours of sleep during these period. But that happened today =/ My sleep was interrupted by a call. I decided to ignore it cos i know it's not important. After a while, mom called. So started chit-chated a while. After hanging up the phone, it rang again. Eric called again. After talking, I couldnt get back to sleep anymore.
But no matter whatever explainations he gave, I have decided to move on. What that was said and done, it doesnt matter to me any longer. I have lost trust and faith in him. And after that conversation just now, I would like to give myself a pat on my shoulder. It really shows I have more or less gotten over (:
Enough said bout him. If not it would be another never ending one. *Yawns* I am feeling sleepy. The weather is making me drowsy too. Im off..
Anyway, it's kinda unusual that i will get less than 8hours of sleep during these period. But that happened today =/ My sleep was interrupted by a call. I decided to ignore it cos i know it's not important. After a while, mom called. So started chit-chated a while. After hanging up the phone, it rang again. Eric called again. After talking, I couldnt get back to sleep anymore.
But no matter whatever explainations he gave, I have decided to move on. What that was said and done, it doesnt matter to me any longer. I have lost trust and faith in him. And after that conversation just now, I would like to give myself a pat on my shoulder. It really shows I have more or less gotten over (:
Enough said bout him. If not it would be another never ending one. *Yawns* I am feeling sleepy. The weather is making me drowsy too. Im off..
`im contended with what i have now (:
Okay, it's over
3:07 AM
Alright, results are out. The worry is over. BUT! I got to be real focus and put in extra effort for now. Thank god i dont have to repeat any modules or semester. I was very very worried initially. Especially for VB. Cos from the way Mr Edwin Chia(not my father but my VB lecturer) said, it seems like i wont be able to escape the fate of repeating this module. However, the stone in the heart was lifted. So yea. Haven't done well or in fact very badly done for this semester ): This is the consequences of not putting in effort.
Ahhhhhh!! LOUSY RESULTS RHOWENA GOT!! But i wont give up >:/ I am gonna try harder the next sem. I will bring it back to 2.5 at least. You think i can do it? Well. I am gonna set this as a challenge for myself. Cos i wanna go uni! And know what, from what others had told me. Securing a place in uni, you need at least gpa 3.5. And sumin told me that wanna squeeze into uni, at least must get 3.4 or something like that, right sumin?
It's all over. What done cannot be undone. Move on, time to move on and hope for the best.
Met up with nuraini. As usual, bitching non-stop! Laughs! That's what happens whenever we see each other (:
On the train just now, I dont know what made me opened my camera album and looked at them. Maybe that's what i called back to basic. I looked at all the photos, I started to immersed in my thoughts. It was as if i was back to those places and time when the events took place. Especially those photos with baby.
P/S: Baby, can i have a request? Hold onto me tight, dont let me go. No matter what's to come, I hope we can hurdle it pass together. I still love you so.. <33
Ahhhhhh!! LOUSY RESULTS RHOWENA GOT!! But i wont give up >:/ I am gonna try harder the next sem. I will bring it back to 2.5 at least. You think i can do it? Well. I am gonna set this as a challenge for myself. Cos i wanna go uni! And know what, from what others had told me. Securing a place in uni, you need at least gpa 3.5. And sumin told me that wanna squeeze into uni, at least must get 3.4 or something like that, right sumin?
It's all over. What done cannot be undone. Move on, time to move on and hope for the best.
Met up with nuraini. As usual, bitching non-stop! Laughs! That's what happens whenever we see each other (:
On the train just now, I dont know what made me opened my camera album and looked at them. Maybe that's what i called back to basic. I looked at all the photos, I started to immersed in my thoughts. It was as if i was back to those places and time when the events took place. Especially those photos with baby.
The first photo we took when we went out for the first time
I remember vividly, it was the second time we went out together <3
The night when we would walked aimlessly, ended chilling up at esplanade rooftop
After her work, had supper and waited for night rider at esplanade bus stop
Christmas eve, the day i surprised her by bringing her to SPCA without telling her =P
After watching fireworks at the padang on new year day
While waiting for train in douby ghaut
After one of our presentations, as usual, she sent me home (:
The night at lavender market's bus stop. First time lying beside her throughout the whole night. I felt blessed. I wish the moment like that will never end.
The day(cny day1) before she flew off to aussie. Was on the bus back from prata house
Was thinking back from the day we knew each other till now. All that had happened, it is all fresh in my mind. It seems as if it's just only yesterday. I smiled at the thoughts of those events (:
Sorry for the ranting and being a bit emotional tonight. At least after ranting, i can sleep peacefully already (: I am very very hungry!P/S: Baby, can i have a request? Hold onto me tight, dont let me go. No matter what's to come, I hope we can hurdle it pass together. I still love you so.. <33
`Just try, and have a little patience
First time
Tuesday, March 18, 2008 6:24 PM
This post was suppose to be updated last night. Just that my head hurts so bad all of a sudden last night that i surrendered and went to bed. Anyway, this post is gonna be interesting for me ((: First ever experience driving out on my own.
First officially drive out on my own experience. Hmm. Was a pretty great one. How i know the parents gave me green light. It all happened on sunday night. Met dearie for supper. Then after that, i intended to look for dad. So i told mom i will be driving there and stuffs. Since the coffeeshop im going is near dearie's house, i drove her home. First time driving out without the presences of parents.
Then yesterday(monday) evening, all of a sudden, dad asked me to send him to amk ave 1. I was like "oh okay,". I was rather surprise dad asked me to. I thought he was just asking me to send there and back. Who knows, I got him wrong. He asked me to drive the car back. I was like 0_0! Sure anot! Hahahahahas!
Met sumin at night. In the car, Sumin kept trying to take photos of me driving -.- Shy la! Hahahahas! But in the end i post for her. As she looked at the photo she just took, she kept saying so cute. SUMIN SAID I CUTE LEH!! Hahahahas. Arent i always cute? =P Thick-skinned! But nvm. You people like it. Wahahahahahas!
Was supposed to meet kelvin. In the end didnt, cos if i were to meet him, it would be like close to midnight already! So nah, told him next time. Decided to ask dearie out for supper. We ended at lavender market for my pancake again! Lalalalas! Went to fetch vivian before heading there. Was learning my parallel parking while waiting for her to come down. Hahahahas! I kept saying baby was being treated like a guniea pig while i learn my parking. Lol! But pai seh la. Something happened (*cover face*). Nope. Not going to tell you! Baby! You better keep it to yourself ah! Well. Reached home ard 1.10am.
Oh well. That's how it goes. Hahahahas! Yeah! Job not so well done but well done! Thumbs up! =D
First officially drive out on my own experience. Hmm. Was a pretty great one. How i know the parents gave me green light. It all happened on sunday night. Met dearie for supper. Then after that, i intended to look for dad. So i told mom i will be driving there and stuffs. Since the coffeeshop im going is near dearie's house, i drove her home. First time driving out without the presences of parents.
Then yesterday(monday) evening, all of a sudden, dad asked me to send him to amk ave 1. I was like "oh okay,". I was rather surprise dad asked me to. I thought he was just asking me to send there and back. Who knows, I got him wrong. He asked me to drive the car back. I was like 0_0! Sure anot! Hahahahahas!
Met sumin at night. In the car, Sumin kept trying to take photos of me driving -.- Shy la! Hahahahas! But in the end i post for her. As she looked at the photo she just took, she kept saying so cute. SUMIN SAID I CUTE LEH!! Hahahahas. Arent i always cute? =P Thick-skinned! But nvm. You people like it. Wahahahahahas!
Was supposed to meet kelvin. In the end didnt, cos if i were to meet him, it would be like close to midnight already! So nah, told him next time. Decided to ask dearie out for supper. We ended at lavender market for my pancake again! Lalalalas! Went to fetch vivian before heading there. Was learning my parallel parking while waiting for her to come down. Hahahahas! I kept saying baby was being treated like a guniea pig while i learn my parking. Lol! But pai seh la. Something happened (*cover face*). Nope. Not going to tell you! Baby! You better keep it to yourself ah! Well. Reached home ard 1.10am.
Oh well. That's how it goes. Hahahahas! Yeah! Job not so well done but well done! Thumbs up! =D
`im glad for all that had happened (:
Soon to come
Monday, March 17, 2008 2:40 AM
Arent really feeling too good. So after this post, guess i should just hit the bed. Like going to have fever anytime. And making it worst, I am having some sort of sore throat and headache now. Bloody hell! During this period?! No way! Let me enjoy myself la. Hmmm.
Jobs are pretty fine. Seeing those angelic faces in my workplaces, my heart simply just melted. I just gotta admit, they are really very very adorable. Can i 'da bao' them home? No? *pouts* Hahahahas! I am just kidding though. People there are nice. Oh ya, for your info, 2 of my jobs now are something to do with kids. Basically, Im training to be a professional kids handle-er now. So ya. Lol. Nah. Kidding only la.
Oh! Btw, anyone who know any kids who need tuition, please approach me. I've decided to give tuition in my spare time (: Tutoring all subjects for Primary 3 and below. Chinese for Secondary 2 and below. So yea. Keep me inform people (: thanks!
Anyway, life havent been too good but still passable. No matter how terrible or miserable it is, it still passes me by. So yea. Live with it bitch! Hahahahahahas!! At last, I managed to drive out without the parents by the side. But just a short distance. Well. Better than nothing right. Driving do cheer me a lil though (:
Drove to meet dad just now. No qualms bout me being my dad's daughter man. Hahahahas! Siaos one his friend. Kept asking me to drink. But of cos i rejected. I am driving. So drive no drink. I dont want my license kanna kentong. So phew, dad's friend understand that and gave up the thoughts. They sat there drink beer, talked C and B story. Dont know what is that? Cock and Bull story la.
Haiyer! I think i better get my arse off here. I am really feeling worst. NOOOOOOO! I cant last min fang people aeroplane. I am suppose to play badminton and bball with vivian and dear later. Then meeting sumin later in the night. Follow by kelvin. Supper? Oh man! Fattening la Kelvin Tan!! That mad guy asked me to drink plain water. Ji dan gao!
Okay la. Im off! Night!
Jobs are pretty fine. Seeing those angelic faces in my workplaces, my heart simply just melted. I just gotta admit, they are really very very adorable. Can i 'da bao' them home? No? *pouts* Hahahahas! I am just kidding though. People there are nice. Oh ya, for your info, 2 of my jobs now are something to do with kids. Basically, Im training to be a professional kids handle-er now. So ya. Lol. Nah. Kidding only la.
Oh! Btw, anyone who know any kids who need tuition, please approach me. I've decided to give tuition in my spare time (: Tutoring all subjects for Primary 3 and below. Chinese for Secondary 2 and below. So yea. Keep me inform people (: thanks!
Anyway, life havent been too good but still passable. No matter how terrible or miserable it is, it still passes me by. So yea. Live with it bitch! Hahahahahahas!! At last, I managed to drive out without the parents by the side. But just a short distance. Well. Better than nothing right. Driving do cheer me a lil though (:
Drove to meet dad just now. No qualms bout me being my dad's daughter man. Hahahahas! Siaos one his friend. Kept asking me to drink. But of cos i rejected. I am driving. So drive no drink. I dont want my license kanna kentong. So phew, dad's friend understand that and gave up the thoughts. They sat there drink beer, talked C and B story. Dont know what is that? Cock and Bull story la.
Haiyer! I think i better get my arse off here. I am really feeling worst. NOOOOOOO! I cant last min fang people aeroplane. I am suppose to play badminton and bball with vivian and dear later. Then meeting sumin later in the night. Follow by kelvin. Supper? Oh man! Fattening la Kelvin Tan!! That mad guy asked me to drink plain water. Ji dan gao!
Okay la. Im off! Night!
`they are dying to get out, but are forced to hide deep within.
Bullshit!
Friday, March 14, 2008 11:32 PM
You know what, by keeping quiet bout it doesnt mean i accept it ya know. And to think of it, it just makes me even more pissed, more upset. Damn it! But I've got much more better things to do.
`Learning to adapt sometimes is just bullshit
Just for laugh
5:23 PM
Just for laugh. Gotten from an e-mail (:
Somehow productive
5:22 PM
Was on the phone with kelvin until almost 3am this morning. Dumb idiot! Hahahahhahas! He was on duty and making it worst, he just broke up with his gf. So arent in a very good mood. We started talking on the phone and reminisced bout the times when we first knew each other. Damn funny la. He kept asking me bout the details of our first time out like what he wore, where we went, what movie we caught and stuffs. Some i really dont remember until he started a bit, then it rang a bell. Hahahahas! But it was all good (:
Marcus kept talking to me when i was sleeping. Like some stupid stuffs la -.-" He was standing at the door when i happened to open my eyes. Guess what he said. He said "ORH! I saw you opened your eyes!". I was thinking to myself, "Siaos! Cannot open eyes meh?!". If not, another one, "Jie jie, I bought roti prata for you. It's in the kitchen,". Oh man! Why cant he tell me when i wake up later. DOTS DOTS DOTS LA! -.-"
House phone rang. Marcus came to my room and answered. Dad called to ask if we wanna eat anything. I think dad asked what i want, but he told dad i was sleeping. But at the moment of hearing eat, i shouted out, "I wanna eat also!". Hahahahahhahahas!! I forgot all bout the prata. Hahahahas! And hence, I woke up slightly earlier than usual, 12plus (:
The weather today is super duper good compared to the last few days. Oh man! I regretted not going for a swim la. Hmmm. At least i did something productive at home today (: I did my laundry (: And i hung outside to dry. Then started reading some stuffs. Yea. You didnt read wrongly, reading up. Hahahahahas!
Oh well. I cant help saying la. Should have went for a swim or a game of badminton. Dumb dumb me! Now i have to prepare to go out and meet mom already. I wanna go daiso!! Merf is going down PS ): I wanna go also!! But i dont know how to teleport la. Nvm, till then (:
`只要你相信, 奇迹一定会出现
Marcus kept talking to me when i was sleeping. Like some stupid stuffs la -.-" He was standing at the door when i happened to open my eyes. Guess what he said. He said "ORH! I saw you opened your eyes!". I was thinking to myself, "Siaos! Cannot open eyes meh?!". If not, another one, "Jie jie, I bought roti prata for you. It's in the kitchen,". Oh man! Why cant he tell me when i wake up later. DOTS DOTS DOTS LA! -.-"
House phone rang. Marcus came to my room and answered. Dad called to ask if we wanna eat anything. I think dad asked what i want, but he told dad i was sleeping. But at the moment of hearing eat, i shouted out, "I wanna eat also!". Hahahahahhahahas!! I forgot all bout the prata. Hahahahas! And hence, I woke up slightly earlier than usual, 12plus (:
The weather today is super duper good compared to the last few days. Oh man! I regretted not going for a swim la. Hmmm. At least i did something productive at home today (: I did my laundry (: And i hung outside to dry. Then started reading some stuffs. Yea. You didnt read wrongly, reading up. Hahahahahas!
Oh well. I cant help saying la. Should have went for a swim or a game of badminton. Dumb dumb me! Now i have to prepare to go out and meet mom already. I wanna go daiso!! Merf is going down PS ): I wanna go also!! But i dont know how to teleport la. Nvm, till then (:
`只要你相信, 奇迹一定会出现
gloomy day
Thursday, March 13, 2008 6:11 PM
It has been raining ever since i opened my eyes just now. I was being woken by a call for your info. Marc didnt go to work today. He called and asked me out. But i rejected. I wanna stay at home for a day after so many days of not being at home. And moreover, it's pouring outside. I wanna sleep in longer, then wake up to do my stuffs. He said something like coming over my house. But i told him not to. I really dont wish him to come over for some reasons.
After hanging up the phone with him, I went back to sleep. About 2 hours later(ard 2.40pm), my handphone rung again. Guess what. He called again. BUT this time round he asked, "how come your house door is open?". I was like 'WHAT THE HELL!'. He was at my doorstep! Damn! I have got no choice but sprang out of my bed to open the door for him.
Luckily brother is at home. Both Marc and I havent been talking much. I dont know what to say la. I am feeling so lethargic that i dont wanna open my mouth and speak at all. I just wanna go back to sleep. He asked me to go AMK hub, I declined.
Well, he left at 5pm eventually. He left a piece of note in my laptop saying, "Sorry for coming your house uninvited. I wont do it again,". I read and I was like hmmm. Well. This is really my first time encountering such things and that i really dont know how to react.
The situation is like that. Seems sense-less if i were to go on without explaining the situation right. Here is how it goes.
Okay. *take in deep breathe* He is actually woo-ing me. And that after what happened last week, I dont really wanna meet him often for fear things might happen when im out with him. *Ahem* Dont anyhow think. Not I am afraid of getting rape. But am afraid he might hold my hand all of a sudden. I dont want that to happen. And reason why i wanna sorta avoid him is bcos I dont like him at all! I only treat him as a friend. That's all. But i dont know how to tell him so i choose to avoid.
I know what are my piorities now and exactly who i want to be with. As I have told baby before, there is only one me. And I only have got one heart. I cant possibly split it into 2. But even if i could, I dont want to. Cos the only one I love is BEATRICE LEE. No matter how persistance he is, it's not gonna change the love i have for baby.
Somehow, the person i hope standing at my doorstep today is not Marc but baby. Well rhowena, dream on =/
AHHHHHH!! It has been raining a lot these few days. Sleeping in this kinda weather is great but when i am awake, it is making me lethargic and restless. Even now, I am lying on my bed typing this entry. I wanna sleeppppppppp somemore!!
After hanging up the phone with him, I went back to sleep. About 2 hours later(ard 2.40pm), my handphone rung again. Guess what. He called again. BUT this time round he asked, "how come your house door is open?". I was like 'WHAT THE HELL!'. He was at my doorstep! Damn! I have got no choice but sprang out of my bed to open the door for him.
Luckily brother is at home. Both Marc and I havent been talking much. I dont know what to say la. I am feeling so lethargic that i dont wanna open my mouth and speak at all. I just wanna go back to sleep. He asked me to go AMK hub, I declined.
Well, he left at 5pm eventually. He left a piece of note in my laptop saying, "Sorry for coming your house uninvited. I wont do it again,". I read and I was like hmmm. Well. This is really my first time encountering such things and that i really dont know how to react.
The situation is like that. Seems sense-less if i were to go on without explaining the situation right. Here is how it goes.
Okay. *take in deep breathe* He is actually woo-ing me. And that after what happened last week, I dont really wanna meet him often for fear things might happen when im out with him. *Ahem* Dont anyhow think. Not I am afraid of getting rape. But am afraid he might hold my hand all of a sudden. I dont want that to happen. And reason why i wanna sorta avoid him is bcos I dont like him at all! I only treat him as a friend. That's all. But i dont know how to tell him so i choose to avoid.
I know what are my piorities now and exactly who i want to be with. As I have told baby before, there is only one me. And I only have got one heart. I cant possibly split it into 2. But even if i could, I dont want to. Cos the only one I love is BEATRICE LEE. No matter how persistance he is, it's not gonna change the love i have for baby.
Somehow, the person i hope standing at my doorstep today is not Marc but baby. Well rhowena, dream on =/
AHHHHHH!! It has been raining a lot these few days. Sleeping in this kinda weather is great but when i am awake, it is making me lethargic and restless. Even now, I am lying on my bed typing this entry. I wanna sleeppppppppp somemore!!
`have you ever try to find the words but they dont come out right?
Dont understand
Tuesday, March 11, 2008 10:33 PM
Why does things have to turn out to be like that? I am having a not so pleasant kinda feeling again. And i really really hate it! I really do! I am losing my faith. Seems like everything is changing. Can someone please tell me what is wrong? I really hate to keep on guessing. It's tough ): Guess assurance is all i need right now.
I think i need an early rest tonight to keep my mind off all these. I am tired.. Night.
I think i need an early rest tonight to keep my mind off all these. I am tired.. Night.
`how to listen to the heart?
short and sweet
Monday, March 10, 2008 1:17 AM
Shall not elaborate much as i wanna hit the bed soon (: Just got back home not long. Stayed overnight at grandma's place. Work so far so good. Not too bad (: The kids are my motivation to go work now (:
In a good mood. Why? Look below.
1) I met up with baby today after so many days of not seeing her <3
2) I saw a rainbow today although it's a very faint and short one (:
3) I caught a very nice movie (10,000BC) with baby, cousin and chi cai de ((:
4) Those kids at my workplace made my day (((:
5) I talked nicely to mom and vice versa ((((((:
LAST BUT NOT LEAST - baby is very sweet to wrote me something on her blog (: my heart melted upon reading (: and she still loves me like before (: *hops hops*
The rest will update you people the next time. I am really very very tired. Tomorrow early morning still have to go NUS. Madness! Playing badminton in the afternoon. Lastly, accompanying mom out. It's a long day. Next day, tues, working! Good game! ): Im tired! I wanna sleep for 12hours!
Anyway, baby!! ILOVEYOU STILL! TRUCK LOADS OF LOVE ((: You're my one and only bao bei (: Nothing is gonna change this <33
Alright, off!
p/s: i want more time with baby!! )'=
In a good mood. Why? Look below.
1) I met up with baby today after so many days of not seeing her <3
2) I saw a rainbow today although it's a very faint and short one (:
3) I caught a very nice movie (10,000BC) with baby, cousin and chi cai de ((:
4) Those kids at my workplace made my day (((:
5) I talked nicely to mom and vice versa ((((((:
LAST BUT NOT LEAST - baby is very sweet to wrote me something on her blog (: my heart melted upon reading (: and she still loves me like before (: *hops hops*
The rest will update you people the next time. I am really very very tired. Tomorrow early morning still have to go NUS. Madness! Playing badminton in the afternoon. Lastly, accompanying mom out. It's a long day. Next day, tues, working! Good game! ): Im tired! I wanna sleep for 12hours!
Anyway, baby!! ILOVEYOU STILL! TRUCK LOADS OF LOVE ((: You're my one and only bao bei (: Nothing is gonna change this <33
Alright, off!
p/s: i want more time with baby!! )'=
`note : back to basic
oh god!
Thursday, March 06, 2008 4:40 AM
HOLY SHIT! This is totally insane! Did i mention i will be off to bed earlier? Look at me! What am i doing here?! I just finish watching a movie =P Mean girls is a great one i should say (: It's awesome!
Oh man! This is total madness! Mom is so gonna kill me if she were to open my room door now. My day has turn to night, my night has turn to day! And i have gotta go work later! My body clock is totally screwed! =/ I am totally obsessed with the website Marc gave me. But i cant help it! The movies there are simply too fabulous =D
Alright alright. I better get outta this seat of mine and head for the bed. Morning world! (:
Oh man! This is total madness! Mom is so gonna kill me if she were to open my room door now. My day has turn to night, my night has turn to day! And i have gotta go work later! My body clock is totally screwed! =/ I am totally obsessed with the website Marc gave me. But i cant help it! The movies there are simply too fabulous =D
Alright alright. I better get outta this seat of mine and head for the bed. Morning world! (:
unspoken
1:05 AM
Woke up earlier than usual. My usual is after 1pm. Hahahas! But today no choice. Going out. So yea. Marc gave me a so called morning call after taking his MC. But apparently, not very effective. Cos he called like 3 times before i really got off my bed. Hahaas!
Dilly-dally, took my time real slowly. And some cooking programmes on the tv attracted me to it. Hence i ended up meeting him at 2pm. And i was early. Surprise to hear i was early? But well. That's the fact. I reached city hall around 1.45pm (:
Walked around marina square and suntec. He wanted to watch L, change the world. So walked over to suntec to get the tickets since there isnt any showing at ard 5pm in marina square. It's been a long time since i watch movie there. The first and the last time was when i was with first boyf(vinson) in hmmm, when i was sec 2. LOL! YES! THAT LONG! Hahahas! Got the tickets and continued to walk around till 3pm cos sakae sushi teatime buffet start at 3pm (: When the clock striked 3pm, off we went. Am still full after this afternoon. Hurr hurr! We ate quite a lot ah. We are big eaters! Just like baby and me (:
Went for the movie after our whatever you call that - teabreak or whatever. Hahahas! The show is great! I think this is better compared to the first one. The cinema was like so empty. Less than 20 people inside i guess. Marc was like crapping, saying what "WAA! SO MANY people ah!". Siaos one him -.-"
Headed home after the moive. He had got something on at night. So yea. When i reached home, mom bought SUSHI again! Good game. Didnt really wanna eat. But still ate one. Must give face what. Hurr hurr!
Slack till now. Work is on tmr at Concord Primary in the afternoon. Excited yet reluctant. I wanna sleep until 2pm! Hahahahas! I am a freaking pigggggg!!
Was feeling quite emotional last night. Hmm. But baby never fails to put a smile on my face =D Tough on you girl. Always have to come up with new things to make me smile =/
I really feel like taking dance lesson again. I dont know. I miss dancing all of a sudden. Random i know. But after watching Step Up, the passion is burning once again. I wanna move with the music again. I wanna learn diving. I wanna learn music. Driving no need. Cos I have mastered it. Hurr hurr! I am greedy, I want everything. Hais. Too much things, too little time ):
I think i shall sleep early tonight. I am tired. Zzzzz! Alright, off i go (:
P/S: baby, you still owe me sakae sushi okay. though i just had it today. but still, i dont care. it will still be on the list. and many many bowls of desserts!! =P
Dilly-dally, took my time real slowly. And some cooking programmes on the tv attracted me to it. Hence i ended up meeting him at 2pm. And i was early. Surprise to hear i was early? But well. That's the fact. I reached city hall around 1.45pm (:
Walked around marina square and suntec. He wanted to watch L, change the world. So walked over to suntec to get the tickets since there isnt any showing at ard 5pm in marina square. It's been a long time since i watch movie there. The first and the last time was when i was with first boyf(vinson) in hmmm, when i was sec 2. LOL! YES! THAT LONG! Hahahas! Got the tickets and continued to walk around till 3pm cos sakae sushi teatime buffet start at 3pm (: When the clock striked 3pm, off we went. Am still full after this afternoon. Hurr hurr! We ate quite a lot ah. We are big eaters! Just like baby and me (:
Went for the movie after our whatever you call that - teabreak or whatever. Hahahas! The show is great! I think this is better compared to the first one. The cinema was like so empty. Less than 20 people inside i guess. Marc was like crapping, saying what "WAA! SO MANY people ah!". Siaos one him -.-"
Headed home after the moive. He had got something on at night. So yea. When i reached home, mom bought SUSHI again! Good game. Didnt really wanna eat. But still ate one. Must give face what. Hurr hurr!
Slack till now. Work is on tmr at Concord Primary in the afternoon. Excited yet reluctant. I wanna sleep until 2pm! Hahahahas! I am a freaking pigggggg!!
Was feeling quite emotional last night. Hmm. But baby never fails to put a smile on my face =D Tough on you girl. Always have to come up with new things to make me smile =/
I really feel like taking dance lesson again. I dont know. I miss dancing all of a sudden. Random i know. But after watching Step Up, the passion is burning once again. I wanna move with the music again. I wanna learn diving. I wanna learn music. Driving no need. Cos I have mastered it. Hurr hurr! I am greedy, I want everything. Hais. Too much things, too little time ):
I think i shall sleep early tonight. I am tired. Zzzzz! Alright, off i go (:
P/S: baby, you still owe me sakae sushi okay. though i just had it today. but still, i dont care. it will still be on the list. and many many bowls of desserts!! =P
`it's better to leave it unspoken
Unbelievable
Tuesday, March 04, 2008 3:00 PM
Craig David -Unbelievable
Always said I would know where to find love
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough
But some times I just felt I could give up
But you came and you changed my whole world now
I'm somewhere I've never been before
Now I see, what love means
[Chorus] It's so unbelievable
And I don't want to let it go
Something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now
I was lost and you've rescued me some how
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me
And I've never been here before
Now I see, what love means
[Chorus]
When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost
I cant help but break down, and cry
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
[Chorus]
Now I see, what love means
somehow
Monday, March 03, 2008 1:33 AM
Somehow, somewhat, somewhere, im struggling deep within though life is almost close to perfect =/ just being a little fussy maybe. night!
`breathing hard
