haIx... Todae duno y whole dae kp sneezing... Until my whole nose wanna drop down ar... hahaX.. lame... Dis few daes very fan ar... y... jus fan lorx... if u noe de reason.. gd lorx... if duno.. den jus hav to noe i fan lorx... haix... rather unhappei dis few daes... com pass one week+ le.. hmM... dun sae.. ltre peeps sae i kp showing off... lyk very yaya lidat.. so dun sae toO mucH...
aiyO... duno wen my mum wan change com... dis com suxs ar... siaNx... cant use msn... cant tok tok... veri sianx... i wan use msn... wa lau... dis few daes lyk cant go on terms wib my bro.. everytime will quarrel one lehx... i felt peeps changes fast...esp sec 2 will change alorts..... dun sae liao laHx....
hmm... yesterdae i was asking my dad fer money... nv wuld i noe he already put a $50 in my drawer liaOx... second time he did dis liaOx... No wonder he's always a great daddy... hmM... anyway.. mi june decided to go work liaOx... see gt wad work.. mayb work in a pet shop.. cos the pay not bad... can consider.. or my mum ask mi a salesgal.. heheX...mayb baH... cos cant go australia maHx... hahaX...
~nc9... dun giv up yet.. cos we havem giv u.. so u shouldn't giv up on ur own... kaes... i sae already... mama chai will always be here fer u... huggs~
**vinson... hmM... duno watta sae liaOx...sae until nth to sae lahx... alorts of tings is dun nd to sae one... actions is beta den words... duno wen will u find my diary but nvm..glad we nw at least gt msg.... kaes.. tink tats al fer todae.. cos todae abit sick... kaes.. love always.....**
haIx... Recently tings doesn't go reaLi our waY... haIx... Com... My way oF livinG.... It's full of obstacleS... But hav i oveRcome it.... I dunO.... HaIx..... Reali dun wisH to tink aBt it..Reali very tireD.... But still abit more to gO.... Dis suNdaE coM... Reali verY scareD.... Reali very anxiouS... ScareD of the outcOme... ScareD oF the results...ScareD tat my memberS cant copE wiB the streSs... ScareD tat dey will be verY anxioUs on sunDae.. ScareD i might let myself, my memberS, my teachers, my seniors, my mdm anD everYonE else... HaIx... I noe everboDy pinneD alot oF hoPe on us... But haIx... DunO loRx... But dunO whO caN i shaRe wiB... But i do haV faTe in my membeRs... I trust dem will not let mi dowN....
HaIx... 2 more daes to cOm... But everyting seeMs to be lyk goinG agaInst our waYs...HaIx... Todae sort of lyk hav conflicTs betweeN or teaM.... 4 againsT 1.... Sumin n us loRx... Cos yesteRdaE tat mattEr den haIx.... Attitude loRx.... DunO laHx.... Sort of tink tat as a leadeR i nv showeD my leadershiP... Nv leaD my members well... Cant controL deM... Nv caRe fer deM.... Did nth fer dem.... Nv donE my parT aS a leadeR.... Perhaps is for sum reasOns or anotheR... It affecteD mi... Alot.. A greaT paIn deeP in my hearT..haIx....
**To my membeRs... NC6(com) aka NC1(scH).... I m sorI... I didn't do my parT as a leaDer.... I did;t leaD u al weLL... I m a lousY leadeR i shuld saE... A real lousY onE... No deny... haIx... a selfisH one toO... Onli noe hw to think of myselF n not u al... I m sori fer being selfisH... I m sori fer not doing my parT weLL... I m sori fer everytinG... But i truly hope tat we caN wIn in cOmpetitioN.... No matteR waD happeN... We're still a teaM... No matteR hw other scHs looK dowN on us... I will prove it to deM deY r wronG... If deY tinK dey use underhanD methoD dey caN wIn... I sincerly hoPe deY caN gO to heLL... Dun tink tat we're easily bullieD.... No matteR waD... i will try to kp tings goinG... ProtecT u all...Others scH maY be a threaT... But hw big caN it be.. N hw loNg.. Dey beta not be happie toO early.. UsinG underhanD methoD is no different frOm doinG illegal tinG... N baD ppl gt no gooD endinGs i shuld sae... Dey will eventually lose everyting in de enD... HahaX... 'GooG lucK ' to dem maN....MuaHahahaX... But u al beta dun be toO happIe oso first hoRx ppl...
**To NC2(scH) aka NC9(com)... Dun worry we won't forget u... I herby wisH u al de besT k... Dun be scared childreN... I will alwayS supporT u guys deE... U al will always be d besT in my hearT... Jus lyK liOn n yvonnE.... Same goeS to u ppL... MaMa chia will always supporT u onE... (winKz...) Jia yOu ppl~! We must not let everyonE dowN.... Dun let others scH get their goaLs.. Dey r jus nth... Jia yOu childreN...~! I will not forgeT those funs n joys u al giv mI.. Lurve u lorTs.... HugS frm mama chia.. *muacKs*....
** To AC2(com) aka AC3(scH)... Ambulance... Dun worry... We everyone will support u deE.... JUs do ur very besT... We believe in u al... Cos after going thru so mucH.... BounD to hav sum bondinG liaOx.. HeheX... Dun anyhw i tink hoRTx... Or ltre i walk on de streets oso gt ppl bacKstaB mi.. HahaX... Jkjk.... Jia yOu! =>
**VinsOn.... HmM... Com cuminG liaOx... U prepare haO le maHx?HopE u're prepaReD nw... We hav onli one chanCe to geT into cOm so we must do well kaes.... Show st pats tat dey jus a loaD of da biaN.... Jus nth... Dey use underhanD methoD meaNs dey're scare of us tats y... Dey scare of losIng... Unlyk us... We gt interity insteaD of lyk dem lidaT... A buncH of uselesS buM... SCARE OF LOSING TATS WAD I CAL PA SHU... SI YAO MIAN ZI.... Dun worry u al sure caN maKe it... I hav Fate in ur... Jus do ur very best.... I will be supporTinG u al... Jia You~!
HaIx...Stress ar!!! Com is cuming... I reali very worried fer our team... hAiX... Our standart... HaIx... Reali no words to descibe... Hanging in mid-air.. HaIx... Duno laHx... Kp tio pump recently... Make mdm cry.. Make trainer cry.... HaIx... I m lousy leadeR... Lousy cadet... HaIx... I hate myself... Where's e old mi... E old mi won't get defeated by dis easily.. Where'e d pld mi??? Where m i??? I wan e old mi.. E old mi won't get defeated by dis small ting... But will my team going... But where mi i nw??? HaIx... Sori rubbisH teaM... Wo dui bu qi ni men... HaIx... Sori lioN.. Sori jiaEn.. Sori sumin... Sori yvonne... Sori ling wen... HaIx.. I noe sori dis might mean nth to u al but... HaIx...
~Sigh~... I m numB le... Ma mu le... No feeling nw... Pain to numb... HaIx... The sad ting is to noe e psn u lurve does not belong to u anymore.... The ting u lost is hard to finD bac.... It's a chance one in a million... I lost a lot of ting recently... Love... FrienDs n etc... Hav i gain anyting?? I duno... HaIx...
HaIx... Todae felt abit sicK... Go home check temp... Kp 35.8/35.9.... HaiX... Feeling giggy oso... Nw... HaIx...No appetite todae oso... So seems very gloomy todae... HaIx...
** VinsoN... I nv regrtted lovinG u... In fact i shuld thanK u fer teaching wad's true love... Givin mi e feeling of being luv... I felt very happIe... Although e time we r together is not lonG... But i will thanK goD tat once in my lifetime i founD u... N for a simple moment we came together... A moment is enough... I will nv 4get e daes we're together... Fer nw.. I wisH u 're happie always... Lead e live tat u wan to... Stay cheesy al dae k... Wo bu nan guo.... Dun everytime giv attitude oso hoRx... Kp showing ppl attitude... AhahahaX... Jk.... Tk caRe deaR... Dis is e last time i m calling u dis... (".) haIx... I will always update e last paragraph fer u dee... By ur siDe if u nd any1... Loving u alwaYs... SoB....***