*+_..time time time.._+*
Monday, January 31, 2005 3:56 PM
sigh...still so stress...every entry oso stress...hahas...but i reali felt very hopelessly helpless...no time to do my works...24hrs is so short...i need 42hrs...!!!
hmmm...feel like giving up...abandone dis stressful world of mine...last night i jus slept for 3hrs plus onli lo...so tired...todae so bad mood intially...so piss off by shun wei...keep on asking stoopie..dumb..idiotic questions...cant stand him ar...wad e hell...feel like slapping him...*one tight slap*..yawn..so tired...hahas...so proud of myself..i can counsel ppl..but not bad..nv know i m so good at doing tat...hahas...but i duno counsel myself lo..hahas...
sigh...com is being postponed again...so freaking fuck up...keep on pushing back means i will be even more stress...more torture..com is pushing me to the edge...i might wanna jump off the cliff any moment..sigh..now..i alr cant cope...cant imagine later part of e year...i m getting breathless..reali cant take it anymore..!!!
*`_______SOS...i need help...!!!_______`*
*+_...escaping from life.._+*
Wednesday, January 26, 2005 6:53 PM
waa...so stress..so sianx...so tired...feel like escaping from life..sigh...so stress...esp in d t lesson..so many tings to do...hmmm...i guess mr leow have given up hope on me long alr bah...hmmm...duno..but sort of have tat feeling...hmmm...
tml got chem test...sure oso cant make it one...nxt mon d t test i sure cant make it one oso..hahas...see i dis kinda of pattern...where will pass one...hahas...i m not so smart..i m dumb...i m stoopie anyway...hahas...
yesterdae after i take my bith maths paper...i feel like crying ar...so sad lor...failed both papers...sigh...i jus felt tat no matter how hard i work...i will nv seems to get the results tat i wan...sigh....**
*`_______felt so hopeless______`*
*+_..tired..so tired..very tired.._+*
Thursday, January 20, 2005 5:13 PM
aiyo...so tired ar...ever since sch reopened..i onli update a few entries onli...so tired and busy...cos d n t la...driving mi crazy...must do folio...so many tings to do...den now the components will be due next mondae...wad e hell..a lot lehx..den still got other homeworks...so many...sec4's life is lidat..i rather i forever be a kid man...sigh...*shake head*...so tired...
den so stress up...stress until i wanna die ar...hais...lucky i got a couple of motivatiors ar...one of them is my son..hahas..if not by that time...i sure break down..hmmm..actually cried a few time due to the unbearable stress...but it's over...hahas...but i reali very tired...very stress...
sec 4..o-level seems so fast that it soon be here...it's very fast..i m not even prepare for it...so many tings i m still so blur...sigh...den 19th if march got competition...my god...if get into national level..omg...won't i be dead..sigh...stress stress stress...!
going to pass out very soon...very worried for the juniors lo..den our recruitment wasn't reali qutie well done dis yr...very few ppl...seems like sj corp gonna be in deep shit...in the future..life will be tough for st johnies...sigh...but anyways..jia you bah..to all out there..study hard for our 'o's peeps..and juniors study hard..and live with no regrets...
'___________jia yOu______________`*
*+_..start to feel stress.._+*
Wednesday, January 05, 2005 4:16 PM
sigh...these few daes feel so STRESS...omg...is like icant take it lor...yesterdae training was like shit..keep o getting scolded..and pumping too...sigh...den the attitude tat a cadet gave mi...i just feel like turning tat person upside down...wad the hell...know who were u rude to?!fuck...
den yesterdae was a very tired and stressful dae...a very undescibeable feeling of stress...i never had before...wanna cry...no tears came out...so fucking stress...o-level is wad i worried for...i just got my D N T's topic...o-level topic..can really feel the stress le..sigh...so bad mood yesterdae...
todae ar...hmmm...slightly better lor...but oso nowhere better la..still stress...den todae whole body very pain ar...my bone is damn brittle one...hahas...no la...jkjk...reali feel very weak..no strength to carry anyting...
hmmm...must start to do D N T lioax...no more last min's work...if not i sure fail my o-level..sigh...in my mind is all o-level and nth else now...wad the hell...can get out of my mind...make mi so anxious and stress...sigh...i wanna end sec 4 asap...so stress...!!!
`__real leaders are ordinary people with exordinary determination___`
*+_...first dae of school.._+*
Monday, January 03, 2005 5:33 PM
todae is first day of sch...so much ting happened todae...got good got bad...which would u wanna hear first??hmmm....i’ll strat from good then...
Todae not reali much of lessons...more on admin stuffs and briefing on the expectations of the teachers...wad they wanna see, wad they don’t ..so on and so for...first lesson of the year...A maths...intially i dun understand wad mr ong is teaching...cos i was busy copying notes and nth have reali digest in my head then...but last period...we had tons of time in the world to do our own tings...so i choose to asked sumin wad’s going on in the lesson todae..before she can explain..i alr understand...surprise?hahas..cos i have no idea wad m i copying...i’ve finished the one question mr ong gave in class...hahas...so proud..no la..jk..it’s a super easy question...so...no kick...hahas...ms noor told us to sae pledge...hmmm...i should sae..we’re being punished...cos we’re all falling aslp in class...zZz...hahas...
den todae 1st dae of sch...i dun even noe there’s a meeting...a sj meeting until i reach the AVA..okay...den have meeting...after the comp meeting i was so pissed off...of wad?bloody time-table..wad happened...not going to sae...jus freaked mi out totally...wad the hell...so my attitude wasn’t very good when talking to ppl then...who would still talk nicely when they feel so much pisseD off???exactly...nobody..
den stay back till 4plus todae...bcos of sj stuffs...oic and aoics’ meeting...jus reach home not long ago...i was feeling so much hungry...actually intended to complete some of my homeworks todae...but freaking hell...time-table...nvm...forget it...
anyways...todae wasn’t a very good start at all..sigh...**
