...+...+... cos i made a stoopie mistake...+..+...

haIx... I reali hate myself... i m reali damn stoopie... not everyone can be trusted.... in dis world e one u trust most might be one whom hurt u e most...reali hav to admit to tat bah... haIx... perhaps e one whom u can reali trust is urself...n noone else...i reali hate myself to be stoopiest gal in dis whole wide world.... n indeed i m... haIx.... jus cry jus nw.... haIx...

haIx... i m reali very tired le.... reali i m... but hu can understand... haIx... i reali duno watta do... perhaps one i will die soon.... noe y... cos i m stoopie to death... haIx... reali lor... haIx.... i hate myself as much as sum ppl hate mi... u understand.... nvm if u dun... reali feel lyk cutting myself.... but... haIx... dou suo wo ben le...

haOx...love isn't as wonderful as u tot unless u found e true one... haIx.... i reali in a total loss.... ren xin nan ce ar.. dis sentence is true.... nv trust sum1 whom u duno easily... haIx...

nw tat evryone is very fucK uP wif mi i noe... haIx... even my honey lion oso... haIx...perhaps i nv understand her enough..... no no is i nv understand her...haIx... wif todae my fucking mood oso... haIx... todae everyone mood isn't very gd lor.... knew tat..... walk out frm st john's room door... wonder wad reali happen behind it.... haIx... i m sori lion... haIx... suan le..... no ppl will ever care mi... it's ok... cos i noe i dun deserve it... i dun deserve ppl caring fer mi... haIx... reali duno who will understand mi.... i m being locKed up in a world of my own...

**vinsOn... i m sori... reali wisH to tell u wad happeN... reali wisH to hug u real tight nw to tell u wad happen.... but haIx... n one ting... i m oso felt i m ver selfish.... haIx... noe tat ur sis dun lyk mi... still wisH to be together wif u... haIx... i m reali sori ant wad i've done... reali wish u were here... but where r u... haIx... it's ok... i dun blame u... cos i dun deserve ur love.... but..... i .... i love u.... haIx.... reali wisH to hav u by my side.... haIx... feelig so tired nw... reali feel lyk breaking down le... haIx... noe tat in ur heart i m e worst gal u ever seen... haIx... but aniway... reali wisH to tell u... i love u....**

][-world of my own..life suxs..-][

-cant seems to find the right words to sae.... i m sori-

haIx... feeling rather down todae... haIx..... i m sori... haIx... perharps those who noe will noe wad happen....so much ting happen in jus one week....haIx.... Y must i make such a harsh decision... y... but i will nv noe of dis ting nv happen... is dis happiness or sadness....feeling damn down nw... no mood to tok.... haIx...

todae during the 4periods... 2 and the half periods i kept quiet...dun feel lyk toking... den diam diam lorx... oso nobody cares... who will cares abt mi...

haIx... reali hate myself.... i feel lyk i m such a flirt.....haIx... reali i m ....haIx...

**vinsOn....i m sori... i duno hw long can i stay... i m sori... thxz fer ur everyting... i love u... missing u....*muacKzZ*.... reali hope we can hav a chance to start afresh...but.. haIx... nvm... tinking of u...**

-=>dun wish to tink abt it... dun wish to sae anyting...<=-

haix.... wa lau very fan ar..... haIx... alort of ting happen wor... rather upset after heard wad vivien told mi todae...haIx.... y is the world so unfair... ya hoRx... 4get nobody tell mi dis world is fair.. haIx... It's true... Life is nv fair... N life is nv a bed of roses....If life is as smooth as u tink... it's not life.... duno wad's tat cal... haIx....

damn knn lehx... wa lau... my mood not very good liaOx.... my mum still kao bei mi... fer wad...wad e fucK... hsework not she do one meHx...wad e fucK... use internet a while she kp kao bei...wad e....haIx.... damn bad mood nw....

Y love hav to be so unfair fer mi....y must i make a so harsh decision...y must heard sumone... must i reali do tat... i cant bear to do it... haIx... y love hav to be so cruel...

**vinsOn... nw i realise... suan le... y u love keeping tings to urself....y mus torture urself... the psn i lyk is u not ur sis.... y.... i reali dun mind.... even if ur sis dun lyk mi... i dun mind everyting... haIx... i tink u reali r silly... y.... and i must hav been a fool to hurt u... but i m willing to be the fooL... cos i lurve u still... and i m sori... dun ask y.. bet u will nv tink tings will turn out lyk dis.... dui bu qi wo ai ni....**

~*_..is promises meant to broken..._*~

hmM.... first time can use com until so late.... surprise...hahaX... nw mind in a blank.... duno watta update lehx... kaes.... mi currently toking to a clown.... a victorian.... wa... he very talkative.... mi nw quite tired.... but... sumhw he tok reali lyk matthew....wahahahaha....

todae reali a busy dae..... recuitment tingy need to do alort of ting... den todae gt a lort of thrashing frm ms tan.... haIx... sumtimes i reali tink ms tan is reali too much... but i tink she every time scold gt reasons.... but is lyk everyone hav dignity one lorx.... lyk todae wee kiat.... reali pity him... haIx....not onli him... all ncos toO...

Damn bad mood.... haIx.... duno laHx...

cos in msn... den is lyk... 4get it laHx... but toking to e psn i m feeling lyk.... no feeling... numB..

**VinsOn..... haIx... dunO...i reali duno watta sae.... one sentence... feeling dun fade so easily.... tink tat's al i gotta sae....nitez**

~+_wo hui xuan zhe fang qi ni... shi ying wei wo tai ai ni..._+~

one more dae hav pass.... time flies huh.... yi zhuan yan mi sec 3 liaOx... so fast.... xiang dang nian hai shi yi ge nian shao wu zhi de little gurl... 3 yrs in peirce le.... 2 batcH of juniors le...[grinzZ] yaun lai you juniors shi zhe me xing fu deE... i love my juniorS maN... Dey roxX...

hmm... tink tink time flies.... ltre blink a eye again... mi already grow up.. working in society le... den ltre gt bf.... den marrieD( duno can anort.. hahaX...)... den ltre gt children... den ltre old le... waiting to die le... tink until lidat... reali tink tat i nv reali achieve my goals.... hmM... time flies wor.... in dis world fer 14 years... nv reali achieve anyting big wor...li my goals hai heng yuan wor.... [sigh] duno hw to lead a meaningful life.... but glad tat 14 yrs liaOx... once in my life sumone got into my world n brought mi happiness.... everyone leave a footprint in my life...my dear, darling, honey, frene... seniors.. alort wor... hmM... tink i flirt... no lahx... al my juniors lorx...*ahem* dun anyhw tink tink wor... wahahaha....

todae another lame dae wor.... mi kp toking craps lorx.... mooD ar... duno leHx... rather confuse.... sadness behind happines...so is sad or happie leHx... i m oso not sure.... hmM... my dear agnes complained mi nv mention her here.... kaes... dear agnes here goes ur name... honey lion dun jealous... oso gt u one.. hmM... darling ting ting... dun jealous oso... oso gt u... ohH... my kids... mel mel.. yvonne.. shu may.... alort more... mama love u al toO.... my dear frene.... not forgetting u al toO... lurve u al lorts... y m i saying nw... hahaX... scare no hance to sae lorx.. scare i die tml n dun hav the chance to sae le wor.... wad toking mi... craps... wahahaha..

hmM... reali tink sumin attitude wor... ap.... cant tk jokes one wor... abit abit angry liaox... xiao qi gui... hmPh... i oso not angry wif her using the drink n wet my skirt... wad for she angry... wtf... i diam diam leHx... wtf lorX... attitude sia.... can sae ppl.. ppl cant sae her.... wtf!!! acg oso.... reali acbc wor....

mi angry nw??? not a bit... onli feel lyk very slpy.... nv reali gt a gd rest... not enuff slp...

**vinsOn... hmM... nv see u todae... gt laHx... a while onli... nvm laHx... hmM.... todae ar... another lame dae lorx... hw u spend todae leHx... wif sze man sure happie ne dui ma.... mi jealous? abit laHx... wahahaha... jkjk... u noe trust dis worD... hmM.. trust lorx.... (",) we seems to be drifting away frm each other liaOx le.... alort alort.... [soBx] but nvm... since i already sae wanna be ur shawdow le.... felt so boring... life w/o u is lyk sth missing... sumtimes reali feel very lonely wen going hm alone... felt reali very lonely... ha.. nv tot i would hav to carry on my life alone... so hw's being single.... still doing fine baH... search fer another stead tat's beta den mi baH... mi not gd enuff fer u... sori... fen kai ye you 2mths plus le... wo hai shi fang bu xia.... ='( [sigh] mayb u might tink i flirt lorx... tink many wuld sae tat.. haIx... jus felt tat mayb the diary is sumting whom i can tok my hearts out baH... cos it will nv be discovered by u.... perharps tat's a gd ting... =') kaes... gotta stop here le... update nxt time... tk care.. lurve yea...**

[sharing ur world wif sumone else is beta den facing the world alone]

~+_since i met u... it's the happiest time in my life... i will always rmr dis moment.... _+~

it's a raining dae again.... ya... ling yu hui jia lorx... abit onli lahx... unlyk him lorx... walk in the rain fer so great distance..frm cantral bus stop al the way to his hse... haIx.... sth i dun hav the courage todae.... feel so.. haix... duno hw to describe my feelings... saw in walking in the rain frm the bus... ya... we took the same bus... but wif my honey lion n ziyi lorx... but honey lion n i nv tok to dem oso lorx... duno will he be angry wen i dun tell him my marks wen he asked... but my results is reali suxs lorx.... lowest in class... wad do u tink i shuld ans him... orh i gt e lowest in class... haIx.... no rite... but tell him le wad can he do.... will my results be beta.... ta zhi dao le you neng zhen yang.... haIx... he is so quiet on the bus.... both of dem nv tok... wad happen to him.... reali wish to be dere to cheer him up.... *soB*

haIx... wen shi jian qin wei he wu.... zi jiao ren kao bei kao bu..... *grinZz* y is peeps bothering abt love.... y is peeps hurt by love so much..... y sum peep choose to escape frm the suitation..... y does peeps dun wanna face up to reality... dere's so many y in my minD... no ans to it.... which type of peeps i belongs to? the one hu hav no courage to persuade the ting she love... she choose to suffer alone den to letting the one noe... *choose to love in silence*

reali miss nc6 nw.... no more com training..... tings aren't the same anymore..... tings change.... peeps change too..... peeps... reali miss those daes with u al... wen will i ever hav dis kind of experience again.... wen will we get together lyk the way we use to do.... sao le training.... jiu sao le huan le yu bei shang.... sao le ni men de siao rong.... peeps... u al hav brighten my life.... thanKx fer being dere to lighten up my dae...

duno y yesterdae listen to midi oso can cry.... despite how hard i tried to concentre.... jiu shi cant hold bac my tears.... bu zi jing de diao le xia lai.... last nite after watching westside story oso.... slp tat time lying on bed n cry..... cry to slp... sth seems to be bothering mi... ya... i noe wad's bothering mi.... chun zai dis song is reali.... wa listen mi oso can cry.... ya mi listening nw... haIx... dis morning had a dream.... dreamt ant him leaving mi.... was i tinking oO much.... sometimes reali xiang tai duo le... ='<>

**vinson... sori.... reali dun hav the courage to show tat i care... i rather be ur shawdow... following u quietly... nw i noe ai ke yi shi tong ku.... ai ye ke yi shi tian mi de.... i will nv forget the way u treat mi... i will nv forget the way hw u look at mi...i will nv forget the way u hold my hand n guide thru the darkest part of my life.... thanKx fer being the one.... everyting u do i still rmr vividly in my mind... as though it happen the dae before... mayb fen shou dui wo men lia suo ye shi dui de... cos can see ur sis dun reali lyk mi... she lyk valerie fong more.... guess u shuld listen to mi n jio her tat time... but hope u nv regret lorx....loving u always.....**

][ choose to love u in silence cos i find no rejection at al...][

~*_hui yi ken nan cha diao..jiu xiang zuo le ji hao.. bu xiao xin.. xin jiu hui dong yau...._*~

hmM... todae apriL fool dae... not much fun lorx... not as fun as 3e4... haIx... so envy of 3e4... so unite.... unlyk my class.... aiyO... no fun... in fact very lifelesS... '_' haIx... i felt my clasS... wa lau... no words to describe... i mean is lyk i felt so extra here.... i dun hav a sense of being in my class.... in dis class gt mi anort oso no different one lorx... i m jus nth.... hmmm.... guesS dis diary is on fer listening to my unhappinesS... no much joy ever since i failed in my love life.... hmM... everydae is the same....

haIx... my studies suXs to the core... it's lyk a piece of shit... my maths...haix.... wad the hell i m doing i oso duno...studies hw cum drop so dratiscally... haIx... getting more n more stoopie... more n more useless.... everydae onli tink of play play play.... dun wanna studies... mid-yr sure cant make it one.... end of yr sure die.... i dun seems to be putting any effort into my studies.... haix.... my studies ar.... mid yr exam cuming liaox... mummy sure will be disappointed in mi one.... haix... sori mummy n daddy....

hmm...to al al my juniors.... u al beta study hard ar... or else lyk mi regret ar... esp lion... beta worker ar... c ur term one result liao... so beta work harder kaes.. or else honey dun deng ni liaoX... hmm... and my kids ar.... beta work hard too... if ur sudies is gd liao den u al shuld aim higher... aim fer the sky... even u cant hit the sky... at least u hit the tree top le.... nv giv up.... wadeva u al do.. dun giv up... cos i will always be here fer u kids... my darling n dear oso must work hard horx... in com u al already hav the bonding liaox... den u al shuld work hard together....

**vinson.... hmm.... congrats to u wor... get so high fer ur maths... nvm laHx... not lyk mi... got last in class.... the lowest wor... hmm... prove tat u al not bad maHx... well done.... nth much to sae oso... glad tat at least nw still gt tok tok.. msg a while.. beta den last time liaOx...hmM... guess i m not the one fer u bahx... not a couple... bu tai chou qiao.. zai cuo de shi hou zai qin lu shang yu dao... but i nv regret... in fact i m hav grow up abit le... learn quite alot of ting frm u... no matter gd or baD...~Lol~... perharps nw u no longer lyk mi lyk e way u used to le... but nvm... cos i find tat u're the type hu r decisive n always kp tings to urself one.... cant lidat wor... kp to urself will make ppl even more worry wor... hmM.... if hav fate... sure can be together one...i resign to fate le.... tk care..**

Name: Rhowena Chia(Rho)
Age: 21 years old
Date of Birth: May18 1989
Horoscope Sign: Taurus

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