love!
Sunday, April 29, 2007 2:39 AM
i wanna slp alr.
but before i slp, i wanna share a story.
2 weeks ago, a cousin of mine underwent a brain operation due to the bursting of a blood vessel in the brain.
having the blood vessels in the brain to burst is a very serious case.
it can leads to permanent brain damage or even death.
she was in the ICU for almost a week.
slept for bout a week too (doc was worried that she might get very agitated)!
however, my cousin am very lucky that she is okay.
recovering at the moment.
heard that yesterday she need to undergo another operation to remove the fluid in her head.
went to visit her 2 nights ago.
as we step into the ward, we saw her husband and her hands are locked together.
the last time i saw my cousin-in-law, he didnt look that haggard.
now you can see strands and strands of white hairs on top of his head.
he became thinner (he is alr a pack of bones. imagine now?!).
somehow, you can imagine how he look like now.
he haven't been eating well and slping well i guess.
he travelled to and fro the hospital, home and workplace everyday.
imagine how tiring he is!
and 2 weeks ago, he risk of losing her beloved wife.
3 weeks of not seeing her own children.
she miss them very badly.
all she can do is look at the photos in the handphone.
she is worried bout them.
all she hope is to discharge and hug her children tight in her arms.
sometimes, i wonder, how amazing love can be.
the love between parents and children.
the love between couples.
love between parents and children.
no matter what happened, parents are parents afterall.
they always want the best for their kids.
watch them grow, watch them progress to be an useful and successful person.
they can even risk their life to protect their children.
which parent would wanna leave their children behind for the netherworld.
no matter how stubborn parents can be, deep in their heart, they love their kids.
(just that most don't know how to express. esp asians.)love between couples.
they went through trials and tributes to be together.
they went through thick and thin together.
they stand by each other in times of troubles and sickness.
no doubt, there are disagreements at times.
but this strengthen their love in one way or another.
it makes them treasure each other even more.
makes them realised how much they mean to each other.
my cousin and her husband is one classic example.
he love her wholeheartedly.
no matter what, he never leave her.
no matter how restless he is, he never give up.
instead, he stay by her side almost day and night.
be her pillar of strength.
he love her everything.
sometimes, it sets me thinking.
do this kinda man actually exist?
i've seen to many in my family that it caused me to have a phobia of love and marriage.
sometimes, i wonder is my Chia's family under some kind of curse.
out of my grandpa's 10 children, only 4 managed to keep a long marriage and is ongoing now of cos (including my parents).
did i get the curse as well?
i certainly hope not.
all these Chia people certainly contribute to my doubts.
do true love actually exist?
is there really a man who is willing to stand by me no matter rain or shine (proverty or sickness)?
is there really a man who will love me whole heartedly?
is there really a man who is willing to be my pillar of strength?
these people made me keep to myself in some ways.
as in i don't really 100% depend on my partner (& friends) emotionally for fear he(they) will leave me the next moment.
i don't know.
prove me wrong.
it's just part of my reflection.
will put it at the back of my mind at the moment.
just a lil dream of mine.
anyway.
i gonna slp alr.
night!
`-tributes and trials enable one to learn to be stronger in life-`
Labels: true love never dies?
hunnie bunny!
Friday, April 27, 2007 1:12 AM
i love my sweet hunnie bunny!!
just when i was on the verge of frowning, my phone rang!
he called!!
estatic was the word!
he kept his promise ((:
he told me he would call today!!
lalalas!
a simple act of love set me flying over the moon.
love love love!
updates updates.
know wad.
i was sibei du lan 2 nights ago when i wanna update my blog.
after i clicked publish, the whole big chunk of shit i typed were flashed down the toilet into the big sea.
don't get it?
that means the whole entry gone la.
cannot be found, cannot be recover.
i was like abcdefg...!
so now.
update a bit.
when i have the time, i will update the tiny wheeny bit of things.
today is summary.
hmm.
touch was fun.
but i guessed i will stick to dance company.
im flickered minded.
so ignore me.
childish ppl are all ard.
to be honest, i don't give a flying fuck.
so say what you want.
im too tired to even bother.
i rather utilise my energy on something that are more worth it (:
ok.
i forgot what i wanna talk bout alr.
mum is asking me to slp.
so that's bout all.
goodnight world!
replies to tag: yvonne: Info Tech IS A KILLER! it is killing me slowly!! huiling: hahas. great mind thinks alike. so yea. let's work hard!! i don't believe i cannot defeat IT monster. lol. and yeah! in less than a month. driving lessons/license, here we come!! raihana: will link you soon B1. " are you thinking what im thinking B1?" wahahahahhaas!! shuyun: i think im sticking to dance company. hahas! cha chaobor: whatever la. you want to tell me who are you, then just say. if not, so be it. hong soon: wa piang! java very difficult. and c-maths is confusing me. 1 + 1=10 (formula fyi)?!jiaen: hahas. excuse. but i know you love me. will meet up with you soon (:
edwin: heaps of rubbish. you the great! oh my tian ar! hahas! cya ard..
me: i will rmb that in mind. hahas!
`-some beautiful things cannot be capture on camera. use your eyes and heart instead.-`
fuck it man!
Thursday, April 19, 2007 1:09 AM
it's just only 3 days in school and im so bloody stressed!
kill me kill me!!
i doubt any of classmates are feeling the stress.
then why me why me?!
ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
java, programming is a killer!!
save me man!
replies to tag:
me : xie xie. hahas!
hong soon : how's ur sch? i wanna cs alr!! ahhhh!!
jiaenn : so you are saying you never love me? omg.. sigh ):
cha charbo : you are? no worries. i am managing my time quite time at the moment. thanks for the concern (:
hungry stomach makes an angry man
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 9:52 PM
so damn pissed now.
my dinner is not back yet.
cos of dad!
i am supposed to doing up notebook at roland's kor house today.
cos of dad!
im still at home.
tested and proven.
if man are trustable, i belive the pigs can climb the trees too.
nv 100% trust a man no matter how charming he is >:/
but well.
some guys are rather trustworthy.
hmmm.
contridicting.
ignore me.
LMAO!
im so looking fwd to school everyday.
school is fun!
and my lecturer, mr scotts jones is hot!
(i can forsee raihana is nodding her head and smiling.)
anyway.
some lectures are so damn boring =/
somehow my class is sexcist.
guys dun like to mix with girls -.-"
hahas.
after waiting and waiting.
i finally hear his voice!
wheets!
like at last.
im so looking fwd ((:
but before that, whenever i received a sms or a call, i was disappointed.
cos is not my darling ):
imissmydarling!!
urgh!
why everyone only have 24 hours?!
kill me pls.
im putting back on weight again.
when is cca open house -.-"
so long...
im waiting!
-a hungry stomach makes an angry man-
hurry start!
Friday, April 13, 2007 2:35 AM
still not used to my hair =/
so weird!
nice or not nice?!
anyway.
went to sch with jiaen and sumin today to hand in some forms and purchased my lecture notes.
holy shit!
nyp to me is still a total stranger.
lucky there were 2 tour guides with me.
if not i gotta bring a compass.
wad nonsense seh -.-"
then after which, went to funan IT for lunch and to get my thumbdrive.
walked ard that area.
i wanna work in Funan.
but too bad, i've got no time.
so well.
i think i'll e-mail that recruit express guy to reject the job offer ):
timing is actually fine with me..
but i got no time!
so..
sigh!
went home to rest for a while.
then after that off to meet the boyf (:
sigh.i miss the time i spend with him.as in the whole day.playing psp, watching movies and etc etc..now the time with him is very limited ):i miss.. i miss.. i miss everything!lol.
nuraini saw me at the bus stop jus now.
sms-ed for a while.
date is next wed (:
anyway.
i cant wait for school to start.
saw my notes.
am motivated to read up beforehand (:
cant wait to get my hands on the work.
but when sch starts, you will hear me whinning non-stop bout the workloads.
gonna go slp now.
goodnight (:
replies to tag:
spike: hahas! see la. e-mail somemore la. but good wad. you're famous alr. the lecturers will 'take good care' of you one. hahas! but why you didnt turn up? freshmen are fun. my class oldest guy is 23. all of us can tell he felt kinda weird. hahas.nicole: why u always change link one? change another time, $50 admin fees. hahas!faz: in case you don't visit my blog cos of the song, i changed my song alr (: to pink -just like a pill. nice right. i have taste man! lol. wheets! starting sch alr! so excited. hahas.new hairstyle (:
Tuesday, April 10, 2007 12:05 AM
hmmm.
i just changed a new hairstyle.
i permed my hair (:
lol.
huiling rebonded her hair, i permed my hair.
well.
yeah.
looked more
mature (not aunty).
im neuatral to the hairstyle =/
lol.
well.
give me time to adapt.
hahas.
hmm.
meeting up with the classmates tmr night.
going for movie and dinner.
wonder how will it turn out.
hahas.
anyway.
nth much.
got the first choice for my complementary modules -marketing.
time table is also out.
timing still not bad (:
think should be all.
just a lil updates.
hope sch will start soon.
toodles (:
replies to tag :
arisa : hello there. yea. that song is super nice (:huiling : don't need to look alr. hahas. that is the results. hope you like your hairstyle. im trying to get used. hahas.spike : hahas. when you passed by? ya. it's really fun. my classmates so far so good. hahas. well. it's like that one. i initially keep hitting the wrong keys. now more or less used to it alr. so how's your lappie? you got buy a mouse for it? how much? my sch also selling acer and fujitsu brand. lol. when is your orientation?
me: im here alive kicking. lol.
jen : yea. study is more fun than working in s**g*l. lol. wa seh. i didnt know the night life there so interesting there =/ how are the rest? `*-the expected soon gonna happen, i presume-*`
stupid people ard
Saturday, April 07, 2007 12:20 PM
seems like an abandoned blog.
sorry man.
im busy and.. lazy.
hahas.
nono.
i haven forget my blog password.
lmao!
ok.
start with the programmes for today.
was supposed to slp till 12plus 1pm as usual.
but was awoken by darl's call.
suppose to be at his house now.
but due to unforsee circumstances, he is now in the office >:/
thus, i forsee i will be going back to slp later (;
hahas!
tired man.
i slept at 3am last night!
last few days were orientation days.
classmates, so far so good.
was voted by the classmates to rep my class for dance.
oh my tian ar!
i cant dance for nuts.
cos my hands and legs cannot coordinate.
still, it was a success.
i got to know more people in the sch in turn (:
cool people.
hohoho!
but con, didnt get much chance to bond with my classmates.
thus, im bonding online.
hahas.
wad rubbish.
hmmm.
thinking of wad cca to join.
touch rugby or dance.
any suggestions?
community svc is a will join for me.
im inspired to go overseas to do community svc work though i don't know if i have a chance to.
local ones are fine with me too.
as long as i can do voluntary work.
im sinful, thus need to atone my sinful-ness.
hahas.
new journey, new goals.
i hope to be qualified for the overseas work attachment in year 3!
and study only max 2 years in uni next time (:
im targetting, i really am.
more hard works, more efforts!!
RHOWENA! YOU CAN DO IT!!
muahahahahahahas!!
i freaking hate it when my mum asked me to work hard in amway instead of studies.
shit her man.
which parent on earth ask their children not to study?
ans --> my silly mother =/
replies to tag,- joce : take care too! (:- edward : yeah. educational field trip. hahas. an eye opener for me (: i linked those i often read. lazy to hover from blog to blog. lol. anyway. take care!- tmy: whoots! i love u so much man. a sense of justice. hahas! -jen: hahas. really? i duno. but they seems harmless. great entertainment for me. lol. since when work is fun? esp our jobs. hahas! cya ard (:- pingg : miss ya loads too (:- jiaenn :im back. date me out first. then i share with you. hahas!- me: im blogging (:- kaye: nice knowing you. we 5 make great dance grps (: lol. cya ard (:
