sunday afternoon
Sunday, September 30, 2007 2:26 PM
today is a sunday afternoon.
okay.
probably you will go "duh! who don't know!".
but well.
anyway, just came back from driving not long ago.
driving was quite okay today.
funny things do happened.
instructor was fun-going.
moving nearer to my goal (:
im so tired.
mentally and physically.
physically tired - slept at ard 3am.
woke up at ard 9am for driving.
don't worry.
i am back safe and sound from driving.
hahas.
mentally tired.
well.
this is a bit tricky.
how do i put it.
hahas.
anyway.
as you have read from my previous entry, went to watch underdog.
as i was on my way home, i was thinking.
if i am a scientist, i would collect some DNA samples of some guys whom i think that makes my perfect husband.
as you know, nobody is perfect.
so i shall collect a few from some guys.
extract their good genes.
combine it all.
make it into a pill and give it to my future husband.
i would name the pill "rhowena's perfect love".
muaahhahahahhas!
who knows my future husband would do the same thing to me too.
give me the pill - "his ideal perfect wife".
well.
i think too much.
if only that will happens, there will be no break up, no divorce.
everybody will live happily ever after.
but that sucks.
cos in that way, human will never grow up.
without obstacles for us to hurdle, we will never learn.
hahas.
contradicting again.
aiya.
the things i said always contradict each other one la.
lmao.
but and all.
now at least i know what i want in life, what i want in r/s.
i know exactly what i want ((:
ending point is set.
now gotta plan the route.
route meaning things that i gotta do, to fulfill so that it enables me to reach the ending point, to achieve my goals.
aha!
i find that i am getting more and more confident of myself.
more arrogant more like it.
hahas.
well.
isnt it good to be confident of yourself?
not over-confident of cos.
well.
one thing to share today, you are in control of your life.
not LIFE CONTROL YOU!
so, all the best to you guys.
hope you find the meaning of your life soon (:
alright folks.
i am going to visit the salon soon to cut and straighten my hair.
i shall give u guys a shock =D
good day!
best for me?
what is the best for me?
the best for me is to keep it deep down within me and keep running, without stopping...
that is the best for me.
being upset or happy, days by days still past.
hence i choose to keep it within me and put a smile on my face.
`challenges are the daily ingredients that keeps improving our life quality`
okay.
probably you will go "duh! who don't know!".
but well.
anyway, just came back from driving not long ago.
driving was quite okay today.
funny things do happened.
instructor was fun-going.
moving nearer to my goal (:
im so tired.
mentally and physically.
physically tired - slept at ard 3am.
woke up at ard 9am for driving.
don't worry.
i am back safe and sound from driving.
hahas.
mentally tired.
well.
this is a bit tricky.
how do i put it.
hahas.
anyway.
as you have read from my previous entry, went to watch underdog.
as i was on my way home, i was thinking.
if i am a scientist, i would collect some DNA samples of some guys whom i think that makes my perfect husband.
as you know, nobody is perfect.
so i shall collect a few from some guys.
extract their good genes.
combine it all.
make it into a pill and give it to my future husband.
i would name the pill "rhowena's perfect love".
muaahhahahahhas!
who knows my future husband would do the same thing to me too.
give me the pill - "his ideal perfect wife".
well.
i think too much.
if only that will happens, there will be no break up, no divorce.
everybody will live happily ever after.
but that sucks.
cos in that way, human will never grow up.
without obstacles for us to hurdle, we will never learn.
hahas.
contradicting again.
aiya.
the things i said always contradict each other one la.
lmao.
but and all.
now at least i know what i want in life, what i want in r/s.
i know exactly what i want ((:
ending point is set.
now gotta plan the route.
route meaning things that i gotta do, to fulfill so that it enables me to reach the ending point, to achieve my goals.
aha!
i find that i am getting more and more confident of myself.
more arrogant more like it.
hahas.
well.
isnt it good to be confident of yourself?
not over-confident of cos.
well.
one thing to share today, you are in control of your life.
not LIFE CONTROL YOU!
so, all the best to you guys.
hope you find the meaning of your life soon (:
alright folks.
i am going to visit the salon soon to cut and straighten my hair.
i shall give u guys a shock =D
good day!
best for me?
what is the best for me?
the best for me is to keep it deep down within me and keep running, without stopping...
that is the best for me.
being upset or happy, days by days still past.
hence i choose to keep it within me and put a smile on my face.
`challenges are the daily ingredients that keeps improving our life quality`
hate that i love you
2:00 AM
headed to giraffe with matt last night for a drink.
or probably not A drink.
but drinkS.
hahas.
2 bailey's milk(2 shots each), one tequila shot, one pint of Heineken.
hmm.
not that much.
tequila shot was on one ang moh.
maybe i looked at them too much.
interesting wad.
heard stories of them upon reaching there.
stories of them making out in the toilet, fingering the woman on the couch there.
i told matt, they dare to do it in public, i dare to watch.
free porn, who would mind.
hahas!
im not a lecher okay.
but it's the fact.
then that joker walked over and offered to buy us a drink.
told matt what he will be getting him.
but don't know what.
he turned and told me, "i will give you a surprise. but you gotta drink it down very fast. can you?".
i was thinking "fuck! that fellow is out to kill me!".
still, i replied him, "i will try" -.-"
he is like "oh right!! good!"
crazy fellow.
next up, 3 tequila shots cup in front of us.
we are like "siaos ah that fellow."
hahas.
matt was like "okok. ours dun fill to the brim. kill him kill him! fill to the brim!!"
lmao!
that it goes.
well well.
interesting night.
went out with merf today for movie -underdog!
it was a nice show.
3 popcorns (:
up next, merf drove us back to amk drive thru mac.
sat there, talked nonsenses before he sent me home.
now i know merf is not a safe driver lor!
but nevertheless, i enjoyed the car ride.
hahas!
heard that merf, i am praising you kaes!
lol
went out dinner and home.
nth much.
things are happening which i dun wish to comment.
but nevertheless, i am hanging strong =D
driving tmr morning.
visiting the salon afterwhich.
well well.
busy day.
keeping myself busy is a good thing (:
i am off.
`hate that i love you so`
or probably not A drink.
but drinkS.
hahas.
2 bailey's milk(2 shots each), one tequila shot, one pint of Heineken.
hmm.
not that much.
tequila shot was on one ang moh.
maybe i looked at them too much.
interesting wad.
heard stories of them upon reaching there.
stories of them making out in the toilet, fingering the woman on the couch there.
i told matt, they dare to do it in public, i dare to watch.
free porn, who would mind.
hahas!
im not a lecher okay.
but it's the fact.
then that joker walked over and offered to buy us a drink.
told matt what he will be getting him.
but don't know what.
he turned and told me, "i will give you a surprise. but you gotta drink it down very fast. can you?".
i was thinking "fuck! that fellow is out to kill me!".
still, i replied him, "i will try" -.-"
he is like "oh right!! good!"
crazy fellow.
next up, 3 tequila shots cup in front of us.
we are like "siaos ah that fellow."
hahas.
matt was like "okok. ours dun fill to the brim. kill him kill him! fill to the brim!!"
lmao!
that it goes.
well well.
interesting night.
went out with merf today for movie -underdog!
it was a nice show.
3 popcorns (:
up next, merf drove us back to amk drive thru mac.
sat there, talked nonsenses before he sent me home.
now i know merf is not a safe driver lor!
but nevertheless, i enjoyed the car ride.
hahas!
heard that merf, i am praising you kaes!
lol
went out dinner and home.
nth much.
things are happening which i dun wish to comment.
but nevertheless, i am hanging strong =D
driving tmr morning.
visiting the salon afterwhich.
well well.
busy day.
keeping myself busy is a good thing (:
i am off.
`hate that i love you so`
lala mood
Sunday, September 23, 2007 11:53 PM
im feeling so damn hyper now.
was happy that the boyf called just now ((:
was actually quite pissed that he didnt call me ytd.
but then, pissed for wad.
i also can't do anything right.
moreover, he is working.
yeah.
true.
who would wanna work if were given a chance not to.
i am waiting for money to drop from the sky =D
life is bitch man.
one more step closer.
one more lesson and i can get my tp date!!
whoohooo!
so much for being hyper, i am beginning to feel bored again.
think abt work tmr.
think abt chalet - not many people staying over.
i am so sians!!!
`no doubt unhappiness is inevitable sometimes. however, i can also choose to be happy when i want to`
was happy that the boyf called just now ((:
was actually quite pissed that he didnt call me ytd.
but then, pissed for wad.
i also can't do anything right.
moreover, he is working.
yeah.
true.
who would wanna work if were given a chance not to.
i am waiting for money to drop from the sky =D
life is bitch man.
one more step closer.
one more lesson and i can get my tp date!!
whoohooo!
so much for being hyper, i am beginning to feel bored again.
think abt work tmr.
think abt chalet - not many people staying over.
i am so sians!!!
`no doubt unhappiness is inevitable sometimes. however, i can also choose to be happy when i want to`
short-fused
12:04 AM
i am feeling so short-fused the whole day.
damn
pek cek ahhhh!!
woke up at ard 11plus for driving today.
after driving i was damn sad.
as you know i am sick.
i thought i had more or less recover already since i haven been blowing my nose that often compared to the past few days.
nose block is getting better.
who knows.
as i was driving, my hearing started to fail me.
the sound of the engine getting softer and softer.
then only i realized my right ear was blocked!
nb!
driving also not up to standard today.
reversing was pretty alright for me the last lesson.
engine stalled many times today compared to the last few lessons.
fuck man!
i was a bit retard today.
i think must be the medications.
feeling gloomy on the way back.
reached home, read a bit of newspaper, took medications and slept till late evening.
woke up feeling short-fused.
got irritated very easily.
felt like im going to blow up any moment.
i can't help it.
sigh.
driving lesson tmr morning.
hmphf!
im not going to take medications tonight.
i don't care!
i don't to affect my driving again >:/
hmphf!
`promises broken again`
damn
pek cek ahhhh!!woke up at ard 11plus for driving today.
after driving i was damn sad.
as you know i am sick.
i thought i had more or less recover already since i haven been blowing my nose that often compared to the past few days.
nose block is getting better.
who knows.
as i was driving, my hearing started to fail me.
the sound of the engine getting softer and softer.
then only i realized my right ear was blocked!
nb!
driving also not up to standard today.
reversing was pretty alright for me the last lesson.
engine stalled many times today compared to the last few lessons.
fuck man!
i was a bit retard today.
i think must be the medications.
feeling gloomy on the way back.
reached home, read a bit of newspaper, took medications and slept till late evening.
woke up feeling short-fused.
got irritated very easily.
felt like im going to blow up any moment.
i can't help it.
sigh.
driving lesson tmr morning.
hmphf!
im not going to take medications tonight.
i don't care!
i don't to affect my driving again >:/
hmphf!
`promises broken again`
cant get it out of my head
Saturday, September 22, 2007 2:17 AM
simplicity is beauty.
life can be as simple as you want it to be.
same goes for r/s.
communication plays a very important part.
if you don't voice out your unhappiness, how will the other party know, right?
but easier said than done.
time have to be right.
you can't possibly all of a sudden "heys my love! you know ah! i very unhappy with you leh!".
you don't do that, don't you?
or for example,
man : im so tired, dear (eyes barely open). talk again tmr.
woman : NONO! CANNOT LAAAAA!! I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!!
man : okok. go ahead and say what you wanna tell me.
woman : you know you do bla bla bla, i beri the not happy leh... (on and on without realising man have already shut down his system). ARE YOU LISTENING ANOT!?
man : yes i am. i will change ok. now, chill and go to bed my dear.
or scenerio 2,
man : im so tired after a day of work.
woman : alright then, we will talk again soon my love. sleep well.
man : ok then. i love you. goodnight.
so you see.
time plays a part in communication.
say the right things at the right time.
well.
all this strikes me all of a sudden.
no idea how it gets in to my trains of thought.
but i was indeed thinking of it.
ignorance is bliss.
but how long can you ignore?
it is not easy for 2 people to come together as 1.
problems arises in the r/s should be hurdled over one by one together, hand in hand.
going on own way might not helps to solve the problem.
if you only think of your own happiness, aren't you being selfish?
if you don't spare a thoughts for your own happiness, aren't you letting yourself down?
contradicting, yes indeed.
everything that is happening is like a coin.
no matter how you flip, there is always 2 sides.
even if you cover the 2 sides, there are still the center.
there are always more than one side of the story.
a friend once told me, "people always say, change for yourself not for others. but i find it selfish to change for myself only."
thinking back, wad he said make sense too.
at least to me.
if you love him/her, change for the sake of him/her, and most importantly yourself.
i always tell myself, live with no regrets.
however, looking back, i regretted some things i did.
regrets is due to my doings.
i've got nobody to blame.
instead of looking back, how and what i can do so as not to live with more regrets?
well, sometimes, people just do things without thinking of the consequences.
pardon me for this so emotional entry.
i just wish to share.
cherish the ones around.
you never know when they will step out, or disappear from your world.
long time didnt leave a msg for my special one.
i gonna do it again today.
to you out there, i simply can't get you out of my mind.
i have been thinking too much.
but all and all, i just wanna love you from scratch once more.
`let me start afresh`
life can be as simple as you want it to be.
same goes for r/s.
communication plays a very important part.
if you don't voice out your unhappiness, how will the other party know, right?
but easier said than done.
time have to be right.
you can't possibly all of a sudden "heys my love! you know ah! i very unhappy with you leh!".
you don't do that, don't you?
or for example,
man : im so tired, dear (eyes barely open). talk again tmr.
woman : NONO! CANNOT LAAAAA!! I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!!
man : okok. go ahead and say what you wanna tell me.
woman : you know you do bla bla bla, i beri the not happy leh... (on and on without realising man have already shut down his system). ARE YOU LISTENING ANOT!?
man : yes i am. i will change ok. now, chill and go to bed my dear.
or scenerio 2,
man : im so tired after a day of work.
woman : alright then, we will talk again soon my love. sleep well.
man : ok then. i love you. goodnight.
so you see.
time plays a part in communication.
say the right things at the right time.
well.
all this strikes me all of a sudden.
no idea how it gets in to my trains of thought.
but i was indeed thinking of it.
ignorance is bliss.
but how long can you ignore?
it is not easy for 2 people to come together as 1.
problems arises in the r/s should be hurdled over one by one together, hand in hand.
going on own way might not helps to solve the problem.
if you only think of your own happiness, aren't you being selfish?
if you don't spare a thoughts for your own happiness, aren't you letting yourself down?
contradicting, yes indeed.
everything that is happening is like a coin.
no matter how you flip, there is always 2 sides.
even if you cover the 2 sides, there are still the center.
there are always more than one side of the story.
a friend once told me, "people always say, change for yourself not for others. but i find it selfish to change for myself only."
thinking back, wad he said make sense too.
at least to me.
if you love him/her, change for the sake of him/her, and most importantly yourself.
i always tell myself, live with no regrets.
however, looking back, i regretted some things i did.
regrets is due to my doings.
i've got nobody to blame.
instead of looking back, how and what i can do so as not to live with more regrets?
well, sometimes, people just do things without thinking of the consequences.
pardon me for this so emotional entry.
i just wish to share.
cherish the ones around.
you never know when they will step out, or disappear from your world.
long time didnt leave a msg for my special one.
i gonna do it again today.
to you out there, i simply can't get you out of my mind.
i have been thinking too much.
but all and all, i just wanna love you from scratch once more.
`let me start afresh`
terribly sick day 2
Friday, September 21, 2007 2:51 PM
again, i took leave today.
slightly better but still nowhere better =/
contradicting, yes it is.
but well.
at least no more fever.
nose block, ears block.
need a 'traffic police' to aid in the traffic inside -.-"
it is just only a day of staying at home, i have filled my rubbish bin with one whole chunk of tissues.
hahahahahas!!
sudden attack of the cough virus.
just when i was typing this entry, i was coughing like mad.
my lungs are reaching for my throat!!
ahhhhh!!!
siansational feelings.
gonna take medications and sleep later.
i received a letter from the Navy yesterday.
anyone else receive too?
hahas.
looking at the brochures.
the benefits, salaries and jobscope seems interesting =D
i wanna join the Navy too!!
lol.
aunt doria coming soon.
time for holiday again!
hahas.
but she is only coming back after my school reopens =/
she suggested to go Ipoh and Pangkor Island.
hope i've got no sch, or sch ends early on fri.
and doreen promised to come along!!
wheets!
fun and laughters with my xiao mei again!
more club, pub, shopping, and coffee sessions when aunt doria comes back i suppose =D
feeling kinda down now.
cant taste or smell anything.
not even a single bit when my nose is not block at times.
im craving for creamy mushroom soup, home-cooked noodles soup, salads, and bla bla.
ahhh!!
im hungry.....!
sians.
i think i am going to the doctor soon if im not getting any better... ...
BORINGGGGG....!
`this is definitely not what i wanted all along`
slightly better but still nowhere better =/
contradicting, yes it is.
but well.
at least no more fever.
nose block, ears block.
need a 'traffic police' to aid in the traffic inside -.-"
it is just only a day of staying at home, i have filled my rubbish bin with one whole chunk of tissues.
hahahahahas!!
sudden attack of the cough virus.
just when i was typing this entry, i was coughing like mad.
my lungs are reaching for my throat!!
ahhhhh!!!
siansational feelings.
gonna take medications and sleep later.
i received a letter from the Navy yesterday.
anyone else receive too?
hahas.
looking at the brochures.
the benefits, salaries and jobscope seems interesting =D
i wanna join the Navy too!!
lol.
aunt doria coming soon.
time for holiday again!
hahas.
but she is only coming back after my school reopens =/
she suggested to go Ipoh and Pangkor Island.
hope i've got no sch, or sch ends early on fri.
and doreen promised to come along!!
wheets!
fun and laughters with my xiao mei again!
more club, pub, shopping, and coffee sessions when aunt doria comes back i suppose =D
feeling kinda down now.
cant taste or smell anything.
not even a single bit when my nose is not block at times.
im craving for creamy mushroom soup, home-cooked noodles soup, salads, and bla bla.
ahhh!!
im hungry.....!
sians.
i think i am going to the doctor soon if im not getting any better... ...
BORINGGGGG....!
`this is definitely not what i wanted all along`
terribly sick
Thursday, September 20, 2007 11:23 PM
im terribly sick.
this year is definitely not a very good year for me.
roland kor kor did mentioned to me before that for snake (zodiac sign), this year, their health is not very good.
since he is a snake also, so he bought something to put at the feng shui place to improve his health.
whereas for me, i don't know where is my feng shui place, let alone placing some lucky objects there.
lol.
have been taking few days of leave due to im sick.
meaning less money coming in =/
sians.
holidays still have to get sick.
holidays are meant to enjoy.
(but anyway, stop grumbling rhowena!)
sigh.
haven't been going out for a long long time.
haven't been enjoying mysef this holiday.
work, drive, sleep.
no life.
too tired for anything.
im only left with weekends for me to rest, and do my stuffs.
but mostly i spend it to replenish my sleep.
hahas.
long time didnt meet up with my friends and classmates.
my secondary school friends, my ex colleagues, my whoever so and so..
i miss all of you!
results are out.
ok.
it sucks.
sucks to the core that i hate it so much.
but wad done cannot be undone.
hence after thinking it through, i decided, i shall work harder the next semester =D
so much have been happening lately.
it is draining me out.
taking the life away from me.
so much that i felt like breaking down.
wad i can do now, is to keep myself busy.
busy to the extend i wont have the time to think of anything.
arent that a great way.
lol.
fuck it all la.
i don't wanna trust anymore.
i cant trust myself let alone to trust others.
it's all bout trust.
i don't wanna drop a single tear for it.
but somehow i felt, im breaking down again soon.
`only in times of trouble, then only you will know who really cares`
this year is definitely not a very good year for me.
roland kor kor did mentioned to me before that for snake (zodiac sign), this year, their health is not very good.
since he is a snake also, so he bought something to put at the feng shui place to improve his health.
whereas for me, i don't know where is my feng shui place, let alone placing some lucky objects there.
lol.
have been taking few days of leave due to im sick.
meaning less money coming in =/
sians.
holidays still have to get sick.
holidays are meant to enjoy.
(but anyway, stop grumbling rhowena!)
sigh.
haven't been going out for a long long time.
haven't been enjoying mysef this holiday.
work, drive, sleep.
no life.
too tired for anything.
im only left with weekends for me to rest, and do my stuffs.
but mostly i spend it to replenish my sleep.
hahas.
long time didnt meet up with my friends and classmates.
my secondary school friends, my ex colleagues, my whoever so and so..
i miss all of you!
results are out.
ok.
it sucks.
sucks to the core that i hate it so much.
but wad done cannot be undone.
hence after thinking it through, i decided, i shall work harder the next semester =D
so much have been happening lately.
it is draining me out.
taking the life away from me.
so much that i felt like breaking down.
wad i can do now, is to keep myself busy.
busy to the extend i wont have the time to think of anything.
arent that a great way.
lol.
fuck it all la.
i don't wanna trust anymore.
i cant trust myself let alone to trust others.
it's all bout trust.
i don't wanna drop a single tear for it.
but somehow i felt, im breaking down again soon.
`only in times of trouble, then only you will know who really cares`
totally drained out
Friday, September 07, 2007 11:11 PM
it's been a week since i started on my new job.
im working in Westpac bank as an admin assistant.
people there are alright.
quite friendly.
the ang mohs working there are so cool XD
now i know there are so many nice foods near my office (in tanjong pagar).
started taking driving lessons too.
am already at lesson 5.
driving is fun.
except that i can be quite a dangerous driver i think =/
anyway.
life is kinda boring for me these days.
work, drive, home, slp.
no life.
rhowena got no life..
booo!!
urgh!!
i felt so frustrated!!
i really am..!!
im such a bitch..
on top of that, the headache i am having now is driving me mad.
must be due to the lack of slp.
sigh.
what to do.
life is a bitch.
so am i...
so much i wish to do, but it is not within my means.
i wanna get back to before when life is so simple, no worries and all.
i wanna be pampered.
i wanna be loved.
can i?
im drained out from all the thinkings..
i wanna dance and shake all the thoughts out...
p/s: Evan almighty is a nice show. 3 popcorns (:
`-hope to find the way back to simplicity-`
im working in Westpac bank as an admin assistant.
people there are alright.
quite friendly.
the ang mohs working there are so cool XD
now i know there are so many nice foods near my office (in tanjong pagar).
started taking driving lessons too.
am already at lesson 5.
driving is fun.
except that i can be quite a dangerous driver i think =/
anyway.
life is kinda boring for me these days.
work, drive, home, slp.
no life.
rhowena got no life..
booo!!
urgh!!
i felt so frustrated!!
i really am..!!
im such a bitch..
on top of that, the headache i am having now is driving me mad.
must be due to the lack of slp.
sigh.
what to do.
life is a bitch.
so am i...
so much i wish to do, but it is not within my means.
i wanna get back to before when life is so simple, no worries and all.
i wanna be pampered.
i wanna be loved.
can i?
im drained out from all the thinkings..
i wanna dance and shake all the thoughts out...
p/s: Evan almighty is a nice show. 3 popcorns (:
`-hope to find the way back to simplicity-`
