daMn fucK up... bcos of my bro... reali hate him staring at my screen....fucK fucK fucK.....! argH... damn bad mood nw...
sigH... i reali hate myself more n more... haIx... i m damn bitcH lor i tink... n i reali hate fer myself... hate myself fer being a flirt... a bitch... a undecisive gal... n lastly a very baD gal... haIx... reali felt tat way... no wonder everyone hate mi lor... i oso nv blame dem... n i oso hate myself fer becuming more n more lyk ah liaN... sigh... perhaps one dae reali be... haIx... i dun wan! sigh...!
haIx.... recently no mooD to study lor... lyk nv pay attention to lessOn... alwayx slp in clasS or mi listen halfway will suddenly switch off... lyk nv attention lor... haIx... y?! y cant i pay more attention... y cant i stop tinking of other tings... haIx.... reali becuming a bad student...
haIx..... reali duno wad's going on... wad happen to mi... haIx... i reali reali in a total losS... first is hurt sumone so badly... secondly nv concentra on studies... thirdly mi becuming bitch... haIx... reali gotta admit tat... haIx... nobody will understand i feeL one la... cos dey r not mi... haIx... no wonder can everybody seems to hate mi... haIx... lyk lioN my honey lor... we seems to be drifting apart.... wif my team oso... haIx.... we long time nv cum togetha liaOx lor... reali drifting apart....haIx... reali hate myself fer not able to kp the team togetha... n reali hate myself fer not able to help my sweetheart jocelyn to solve her proB.. haIx... I m so mucH uselesS.... haIx.... watta do... wo jiu shi so uselesS....
**vinsOn... haiX... I reali hate myself lor... u everytime c mi so happie... crapping all the way.. but do u noe i m feeling very terrible in my heart... suan le... u will nv understand... sum sae u lyk sze man.... but haIx... i trust u... but if one dae u reali fall in love her... i won't blame u lor... cos as long as u happie can le... hurt mi oso nvm... i dun mind... afterall is i let u down.... not e other way round... haIx... i reali duno wad m i doing lor... mayb wad ur sis sae abt mi might be rite... i m not as gd as u tink... i m as bad as she tink... haIx... no wonder until nw we've been dragging on lor... i reali feel very tired le.... but wad can i do... no matter hw tired i m... i m nv gotta to giv u up unlesS u love another... haha... =') tink i very silly rite... haIx... but who ask mi to love u dis blur sotong... alwaYx duno hw to expresS urself... n alwayX kp tings to urself...haha.... i alwayx sae true love appeare in distance but nv in heart... izzit reali true?? haIx...anyway... sori but i love u.....**
song tat describe my feelings nw is jolin-ni hai ai wo ma.....