upset...
mm..
todae came back later..
sch dismissed at 2.30pm..
then went amk central with vien n ling..
got quite a lot of stuffs..
also not reali alot..
buy d t stuffs n some others..
decorations for my room..
mm..
n sths for sth..
yar..
hahas..
todae was rather err..
how should i sae it..
hmmm..
let's see..
start my dae with tons of craps(as usual)..
then time flies..
after recess..
was so sians..
isolated myself from the activity..
cos i cant DRAW!!!
wells..
switched off then..
thought of stuffs..
as i was thinking..
i became very down..
even geng hui also noticed it..
came to ask me wad happened..
as usual..
i keep it to myself..
at tat moment..
i jus felt like crying..
jus feel like venting my unhappiness..
but cant..
so i kept very very quiet..
i think if i go missing tat time also nobody know..
hahas =')
hais..
in a loss..
wad got into me man..
mood swing perhaps..
hahas..
wells..
sigh..
jus got very troubled..
frenes n stuffs..
all alone..
i was thinking..
these days after my darkest periods last yr..
m i using craps..
works n stuffs to numb myself..
or m i reali happie?
i don't know myself too..
sigh..
one thg for sure..
i've got over euu..
i don't miss u anymore..
i found the meaning of life n im gotta live each dae with no regrets..
i promise..
sigh..
got so worried of my exams..
im scared..
wad if i don't well..
wad if i got not enough time to finish studying..
wad if i flung my exams..
wad if..
wad if..
wad if..
these 'wad if's jus made me feel so down..
sigh..
i don't wanna repeat another year..
sigh..
i jus got so down =(
**anyways..
thanks geng hui..
sry..
i used to keeping everythg to myself..
thanks for your concern..