Friday, March 24, 2006 1:41 PM
lucia is on half day leave again today..her mother is hospitalised..so she gotta go and take care of her..hmmm..so here i am with a man who always talk to himself, Jimmy..dorts right..but obviously im not infected...lol...i will also be leaving earlier at 4.30pm..taking 2 hr leave..then next week lunch time i make it up lor...dun go out for lunch..dine in..it's okay with me..hais..im giving cramps..so painful...ask dad to come and fetch me later..know wad am i wishing for now?i wished i will recive a damn letter from nyp/np saying im accepted into the sch..im so damn bloody worried for myself..wad if no sch wants me?where would i go.drop out? hais..im feeling frustrated..hais...i wish i can be feeling excitied and busily preparing for sch to start..i cant..i wasn't even really very happy when mum says she wpuld get me a mp3..hais..im feeling miserable now...but who will understand...nobody..cos i told no one of my personal stuffs..i cried as i vented my frustrations in my personal diary last night..my heart is bleeding once again..how much longer must i wait for it to heal this time?hais...nobody knows...