couldnt sleep.
tossing and turning, sleeping and waking up since 10plus.
first thing i opened my eyes, it came back to me again.
despite saying actions speaks louder than words.
it is not easy, really not easy.

my head still hurts.
i dont know why.
it is worst than this morning when i went to bed at 6am.
im supposed to go to school for make up test, but here i am.

couldnt stand lying on the bed whereby trains and trains of thought running through my mind while hugging my pillows trying to stop it all.
and hence, i woke up at 1pm.
so here i am blogging.

dad came back just.
so much i wanted to apologize to him, but, i can't bring myself to do that.
i dont know how to open my mouth to speak.
despite all that had happened, my dad still asked if i had my lunch.
i told him no.
he asked what would i like to have.

i dont know.
i felt my stubborness, my way of doing things without thinking of the consequences hurt everyone so badly, be it directly or indirectly.
i deeply regretted.

i wish i could put all the past behind me and move on to change and be a better person.
the scenes, the words, the hurt that i've caused, it is still haunting me.
i really wanna change.
never in my life, i have made so many tear so badly. not tears of joys, but of the pain.

dad's words send the tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrollable again..

Name: Rhowena Chia(Rho)
Age: 21 years old
Date of Birth: May18 1989
Horoscope Sign: Taurus

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