Thursday, September 04, 2008 4:31 AM
Fear overtook me for as though i am gonna lose something very soon. Or maybe i am already losing it. Screaming within, but nobody will ever hear. You thought it was easy, but it never was in the first place. Doesn't matter for I know, i am gonna face it alone this time round.
I wish i am better off dead. The hurt, the pain, you will never understand. Like i said, physical pain can never be compared to the pain emotionally. I rather wish i have one thousand and one cuts or more on me rather than going through the mental torture and heartache.
It is too much to bear, do you know? I am upset, and disappointed.
`Im losing everything, including myself.