I Got You

Wednesday, September 24, 2008 1:17 AM

Not easy. It is really not easy having to be outta the study mood for so long, and yet now, i have to force myself to sit in front of my papers for hours. It's tough, you know! I always lose my attention. Grrr! I keep having the urge to play my psp and computer games every now and then. But of cos, i didn't.

If not for janice, i wouldn't have realise vacation is coming to an end. Oh man! Seems like the vacation only started last week to me you know. Now what?! It's coming to end!?! Hello?! I haven't have my fair share of fun yet! *Pouts* My zoo trip with baby, sentosa trip with classmates and meet up with a lot of old friends and not forgetting movies! I have fulfill none of the above yet! 2 more weeks, and i will be back to school compound mugging and project-ing like a dog again! Wth! Time flies like oh my god la! There are loads of things i have yet to do! ):

On a lighter note, this holiday i've made another bunch of new friends at work. No idea how long will we be keeping this passion on, but well, there were fun lots of people to be with. And based on the first impression, we sure are people of different personalities. Well, for the first time, i am kinda looking forward to go back to work later (:

Ahh! Well, nowadays i keep waking up with my heart thumping fast. I don't know why. Maybe i am feeling insecure. But wait a minute, isn't my bed and pillows my comfort? Hmm. Okay, i am being random here.

Damn! The paper is at 9am later. To be honest, i am not really very confident of it. Oh well, g offered to pick me to school later in the morning. Thanks buddy! Seems like i always trouble him though he always said it's okay ): Sorry g!

Well. You know what, this buddy of mine never fail to be there for me some way or somehow whenever i am feeling down. May not be physically here. But hmm, you know what i mean. To all, i think he is really a good friend. With all his doings all this while, sometime, i seriously can't help being guilty towards him for i think as a friend, i didn't really do my part. I can't be there for him whenever he needs someone to ): Sigh.

Many times, i looked back to the past hoping that things will still remain as it is. Every now and then, I read my blog archives, i read all the phone messages i kept, i looked at the photos taken, i read my friendster comments. But i very well know that, nothing is ever constant except changes. It's happening everyday and it's only a matter of drastic or minor. Well, i guess i should learn to lower my expectations and hence, my disappointments will be lower too. Bahh! Emotionally not very stable nowadays. Yucks! I hate it!

I better stop everything before i gets all emotional again. I better get back to books and sleep early. One last thing before i go, i just wanna say, i love my daddy! He is just like a friend to me sometimes. He bring me to places that not all dads will, and we will share some things that are kept in our heart when there's only 2 of us. It's like secrets you know =D And today daddy told me something, running away from problems is not a solution. Well. But i don't know how to solve beside running away from it ): Maybe that explains why i keep appearing offline nowadays. I just wish to be alone. Sigh! ):

Labels: myself, Poly mates, Work