I Got You

An urge

Friday, October 17, 2008 9:18 PM

Have this sudden urge to pen my thoughts now. I don't know why. Just this very strong urge. The moment i stepped into the house, placed my bag now, i headed towards my laptop. Here i am with one of the few programmes i opened up on my laptop.

Went to the grand's place after school today. 3 months. It has been 3 months since i visited. In her eyes, how i saw the misses she been having for me. My aunties too. They were happy that i was there and even bought them tea egg(my grand's fav). One of my aunties was very happy cos she claimed while lying down, she thought of cooking tea egg. Next moment, i came to her house with that (:

The feeling was so strong at the moment. I felt heart warming. From the moment i reached, grandma kept talking to me. But i don't like the part when she kept telling me her eyes gonna "close" any moment. I got what she meant. She's already 90 mind you. She said, drop by more often before she really go. Sigh! Who likes to hear all these kinda things, you tell me!

Not only that. Aunties have been asking me for updates. Like which year i am in poly and such. We sorta chit chated and stuffs. So much have happened during the 3 months. I didnt realise my nephew is already so big. Ok, maybe not. He is only 9 months. But when i see him, i went like wow! He is rather tall for his age (: He has got a big round eyes, but he's skinny. Heard he don't like to drink milk. Haha! He's adorable. He let everyone carry him and laughed at the slighest =D I love kids, as you know!

Cousin came back and talked a bit. Updates updates again. Haha! But shortly after, we made a move. Met baby at amk hub. I need to collect my live sets from edmund who stays near her. His dog is so adorable!! Oh well! Yea, you're right. Kids and animals(esp dogs) are my love! Silky terrier is the breed. Pebbles, her name. Haha! Very playful i should say.

Way back home alone is always full of thoughts. Tonight is no exception. Sometimes, i should stop being so naive, so soft-hearted in some areas. Some things i know it myself too well, I don't wish to spell out. In many circumstance, i tried hard to endure. Often i failed. But i seriously don't like it when my feelings are being neglected by whoever. Yes, nobody like it. Lately, i have been trying to practice - put yourself in other's shoes attitude. So what? Guess this way, i will always end up at the losing end. How many practice that in r/s, in friendship or even kinship?

Maybe, maybe it's all karma. What goes round comes round. But in certain aspects, i truly think i have done more than that. I've given it all. Sometimes, people just changed unknowingly as time goes by. Even myself, or maybe i haven't. Why i havent may be because i like to reminisce the past, hence refusing to move on. Some part of me are still living in fairytales perhaps.

Blabber blabber i always do. The above paragraphs are just purely my thoughts. There's actually more. But i think i better stop. I have been rather hyper and talkative lately. I better stop for now. Take care all (:

p/s: school is great. the cliques are awesome as usual =D

Labels: Baby Turtle, myself, random