Reminiscing 2009
Monday, January 11, 2010 5:04 PM
//Read at your own risk! It's not gonna be a short post, i'm warning you!
I guess this entry came a little too late. 11 days since the beginning of 2010. So how did it goes for you? Good, better, best? Mine was awesome despite some things that have been going on since the start of it. But it's still great for me! ((:
The end of a year, the start of another usually make one reminisce the past one year. Guess this when most people do their self-reflection, at least for me.
2009 was seriously a rollar coaster year for me - the ups and the downs, the happiness and the sadness. But it was all good for EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON! Hehe! Yup, sure is my favourite quote! Let's see, let's see.
In 2009, i went through 3 relationships. Well, and perhaps an unoffical one too. Okay, let's name them B, L, E and EL. Was in a relationship with B for a year odd till it ended in start of may, i guess. 'Rested' for 2months plus before getting into another with L. The relationship with L lasted for a month and ended. Yes, it was very short and i don't like short-term relationship either. Thought wouldn't get into another one so fast, but... 3 months later i got together with EL! Heh heh, but the one with EL lasted till now. And everything is still going on great! ((:
Well, for E? He has always been there all along, waiting silently seizing the opportunities when it arose. Take it as i don't know how to appreciate him and i disappoint him time after time. The time, the cash and the effort that he put in to make me happy, i never know how to appreciate it. He was always there for me at my lowest point (after the 2 breakups).
Despite all these failed relationship, lessons learnt and well, it might not be a bad thing afterall! (: And maybe, it made me a stronger person too (: Let's see what have i gained this time round in 2009.
If not for B letting me go, i wouldn't understand the importance of friends and kinship ( wasn't on very good terms with doreen for some reasons!).
If not for B letting go, i wouldn't have know L.
If not for L, i wouldn't have know what i want for myself.
If not for L, i wouldn't gain a buddy - Eric Loke!
And if not for eric loke, i wouldn't be with darling now and so happy now! Hehehe!
Apart from relationship, just when the year ended, i logon to my facebook feeling super upset (quarrels with mom). With the heat still rising in me, i saw some comments on stephanie's fb wall. I was wondering why is everybody commenting that they miss her, where is she going or what happened to her exactly. I read the news online, only to realise she had passed on in a bike accident while Jinyu the rider is in a critical condition.
Life is so fragile. This moment that person may be standing beside you healthily and happily, but the next moment they could just be taken away from you. In my impression, she's a very bubbly girl and active in school band. Life is never fair, seriously. What sin has she committed? Why must she be the one ending her life so early? Why is life so cruel? She would have been celebrating her 21st this month! She probably had only live 1/4 of her life!
I can never imagine the pain of a parent losing a child.
I can never imagine the pain of a sibiling losing a sister.
I can never imagine the pain of a relative losing someone in the family.
I can never imagine the pain of a friend losing a close buddy.
I can never imagine the pain of a partner losing some i love with all my heart.
And i can never imagine the pain of i escaping from death and only to know, i have somehow causes the death of my closest friend.
I can never imagine the pain of seeing my own child lying motionlessly on the hospital bed.
I can never imagine the pain of seeing my own sibiling in coma, not knowing when will he/she wake up.
I can never imagine the pain of being so helpless not knowing what to do but watch one fighting for surivial in ICU.
And I can never imagine the pain of losing a close friend and seeing another lying in hospital in a critical condition.
Rest in peace steph! And Jinyu! Stay strong! Everybody is praying hard for your recovery!
Please be safe my dear friends and family. I am praying for all your wellness and happiness. Live your life to the fullest!
I guess this entry came a little too late. 11 days since the beginning of 2010. So how did it goes for you? Good, better, best? Mine was awesome despite some things that have been going on since the start of it. But it's still great for me! ((:
The end of a year, the start of another usually make one reminisce the past one year. Guess this when most people do their self-reflection, at least for me.
2009 was seriously a rollar coaster year for me - the ups and the downs, the happiness and the sadness. But it was all good for EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON! Hehe! Yup, sure is my favourite quote! Let's see, let's see.
In 2009, i went through 3 relationships. Well, and perhaps an unoffical one too. Okay, let's name them B, L, E and EL. Was in a relationship with B for a year odd till it ended in start of may, i guess. 'Rested' for 2months plus before getting into another with L. The relationship with L lasted for a month and ended. Yes, it was very short and i don't like short-term relationship either. Thought wouldn't get into another one so fast, but... 3 months later i got together with EL! Heh heh, but the one with EL lasted till now. And everything is still going on great! ((:
Well, for E? He has always been there all along, waiting silently seizing the opportunities when it arose. Take it as i don't know how to appreciate him and i disappoint him time after time. The time, the cash and the effort that he put in to make me happy, i never know how to appreciate it. He was always there for me at my lowest point (after the 2 breakups).
Despite all these failed relationship, lessons learnt and well, it might not be a bad thing afterall! (: And maybe, it made me a stronger person too (: Let's see what have i gained this time round in 2009.
1) Don't assume that your partner will be bother by your problems. In fact, if he/she loves you, they will be more than willing to face them all with you (: And he/she definitely would wanna know what's going on with you, and help you.
2) Be honest and open with each other. Don't keep things to yourself for you don't like your partner to keep things from you too, right? Esp issues (good/bad) regarding the relationship! Voice out and work towards a better and stable relationship! (:
3) Be sure of what you want! If you feel that no matter what you do, things are not working out despite talking it through or that person is not who you are looking for. Spare yourself from the agony, it's time to move on.
4) Start everything afresh in a new relationship. The previous might hurt, but don't condemn the current. Things might as bad as you think! (: Let go of all your nonsensical theories.
5) After getting upset with a failed relationship, pick yourself up back again! If not for it have ended, you wouldn't be leading a better and happier life now (be it getting attached again, or leading a single life)! (: For my case, getting together with darling! Hehehe!
6) Fight for your own happiness! Stop leaving it to fate! If fate wants you to be rich, and you do nothing, will you get rich? Same thing! If you don't fight for the one you love, do you think you will be with who you are today? Esp girls! Don't be so noble BUT DUMB to send your boyf to another girl! Unless that guy is a jerk, if not hold on to your happiness! (:
7) If you think you're the worst. Think again! Compare yourself with those people in 3rd world country! They are fretting over survival, and here you are gaining sympathy for a nasty breakup!
2) Be honest and open with each other. Don't keep things to yourself for you don't like your partner to keep things from you too, right? Esp issues (good/bad) regarding the relationship! Voice out and work towards a better and stable relationship! (:
3) Be sure of what you want! If you feel that no matter what you do, things are not working out despite talking it through or that person is not who you are looking for. Spare yourself from the agony, it's time to move on.
4) Start everything afresh in a new relationship. The previous might hurt, but don't condemn the current. Things might as bad as you think! (: Let go of all your nonsensical theories.
5) After getting upset with a failed relationship, pick yourself up back again! If not for it have ended, you wouldn't be leading a better and happier life now (be it getting attached again, or leading a single life)! (: For my case, getting together with darling! Hehehe!
6) Fight for your own happiness! Stop leaving it to fate! If fate wants you to be rich, and you do nothing, will you get rich? Same thing! If you don't fight for the one you love, do you think you will be with who you are today? Esp girls! Don't be so noble BUT DUMB to send your boyf to another girl! Unless that guy is a jerk, if not hold on to your happiness! (:
7) If you think you're the worst. Think again! Compare yourself with those people in 3rd world country! They are fretting over survival, and here you are gaining sympathy for a nasty breakup!
If not for B letting me go, i wouldn't understand the importance of friends and kinship ( wasn't on very good terms with doreen for some reasons!).
If not for B letting go, i wouldn't have know L.
If not for L, i wouldn't have know what i want for myself.
If not for L, i wouldn't gain a buddy - Eric Loke!
And if not for eric loke, i wouldn't be with darling now and so happy now! Hehehe!
Apart from relationship, just when the year ended, i logon to my facebook feeling super upset (quarrels with mom). With the heat still rising in me, i saw some comments on stephanie's fb wall. I was wondering why is everybody commenting that they miss her, where is she going or what happened to her exactly. I read the news online, only to realise she had passed on in a bike accident while Jinyu the rider is in a critical condition.
Life is so fragile. This moment that person may be standing beside you healthily and happily, but the next moment they could just be taken away from you. In my impression, she's a very bubbly girl and active in school band. Life is never fair, seriously. What sin has she committed? Why must she be the one ending her life so early? Why is life so cruel? She would have been celebrating her 21st this month! She probably had only live 1/4 of her life!
I can never imagine the pain of a parent losing a child.
I can never imagine the pain of a sibiling losing a sister.
I can never imagine the pain of a relative losing someone in the family.
I can never imagine the pain of a friend losing a close buddy.
I can never imagine the pain of a partner losing some i love with all my heart.
And i can never imagine the pain of i escaping from death and only to know, i have somehow causes the death of my closest friend.
I can never imagine the pain of seeing my own child lying motionlessly on the hospital bed.
I can never imagine the pain of seeing my own sibiling in coma, not knowing when will he/she wake up.
I can never imagine the pain of being so helpless not knowing what to do but watch one fighting for surivial in ICU.
And I can never imagine the pain of losing a close friend and seeing another lying in hospital in a critical condition.
Rest in peace steph! And Jinyu! Stay strong! Everybody is praying hard for your recovery!
Please be safe my dear friends and family. I am praying for all your wellness and happiness. Live your life to the fullest!
`Goodbye 2009, Im not gonna look back at you anymore!
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